Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Conviction!

1.5 more days, and I'm off work for two long weeks! YAY! I mentioned earlier that I'll be with my family, but I'm also hoping to get some time to myself, to think about what I want to accomplish in 2010...or shall I say, what God would have me to accomplish.

I'm feeling a little overwhelmed tonight. One of the youth at church specifically asked for me tonight, and I wasn't there. Knife.in.heart! Is this how you parents feel when you can't be there for your children? I mean, I could cry because she needed me, and I was not available.

Balance is definitely something that will be at the top of that list, and while I know I'll never be 'balanced,' I do need to prioritize more. So, tonight, I'm looking forward to new beginnings, and getting my stuff straight! That may just take me into 2011...LOL! Nite!

2 comments:

The Ross' said...

oh yes, the feeling of helplessness...puts a knot in my stomach and makes my heart sink when i know my little boy needs me and I CANT! Already struggling w/idea that i have to be away from him for several nites while birthing #2. Have a good Christmas J! Refreshed and envisioned!

Angie Vik said...

Can you write the youth a note or call her? Let her know you're thinking about her and praying for her. That's neat that you have a relationship with this girl.

As a parent, I try to be there for my kids, but believe that their emotional health and spiritual well being can't all depend on me being there for them and saying or doing the right things. I can't always be there but God can and He can meet their needs much better than I can anyway.