Life through my eyes...

It's the little Things...

2012-02-08T21:41:00.001-06:00

If I told you that I've thought about writing a million times, would you believe me?! I partly blame the permanent residence of one iPad 2 making it into my home. It makes it WAY too easy to not get on my laptop. In fact, I can count on one hand how many times I've been on my laptop since August. It's not that I can't post from my iPad, I just like to hash it all out on a conventional keyboard.

I haven't written in over 6 months. SO MUCH has happened since then. I hope you're my friend of Facebook, because memories are captured there.

So let's see...how can I catch you up?

September 2011
Pink Defying Gravity, my non profit organization hosted it's second leadership conference for girls. It was AMAZING!!! I wish I could put into words what it's like to have a vision from the Lord come to fruition... I can go back as far as I could dream in my journals and see written in the pages that I wanted to work with young women and help them realize their potential...that I knew God called me to a higher standard, and that I knew that He had a special plan for my life if I was just willing to submit and trust His timing.

October 2011
FOOTBALL, FOOTBALL, and more FOOTBALL!!!

November 2011
MORE football, AND we advanced to the playoffs... I also turned 31...which I.cannot.believe. I still feel 20..seriously! I also spent my last Thanksgiving with my grandfather.

December 2011
The football games continued...BUT, it all paid off in the end because we won STATE!!! Our team played against Cibolo Steele, at the brand new Cowboy Stadium! It was such an awesome experience for me and the girls! They were so excited to be there!
Also spent an amazing Christmas with my family in Mississippi. Lots of laughs, gained pounds, gifts, and sweet family time!

January 2012
My grandfather passed away...that's how my family brought in the new year. He was the most AWESOME man that I know. I can say with much conviction and belief that He is rejoicing with Jesus. I have no doubt.

My BFF in the WORLD got married. She was a BEAUTIFUL bride. Her ceremony and reception was gorgeous too. Everything about that day was her. I remember waking up in the hotel room with her and the other girls, and we were all so excited. We then went to breakfast in the hotel, and enjoyed a delicious buffet. It was a perfect day! Levi and I also caught the garter and bouquet respectively. Well...at first I swatted the bouquet away, but we won't mention that...let's just say terror struck, and I got a little nervous...LOL!

I also started the Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University course. I was so nervous going into this. I've always taken the laid back approach to saving and paying down debt, but this course makes you look at every penny. I LOVE IT! More importantly, it teaches me how to handle money. So many people buy things on credit, going further into debt, and that is no way to live. While I am not debt free (car and student loans), I gave up credit cards a while ago. If I can't purchase it outright, I don't need it. That's what Dave teaches, but to the infinity power.

February 2012
Well, here we are...and let's see...what am I up to? First of all, there is a budding relationship that I am excited about. All I will say about this is NEVER say that it will take God to get you to do something...because with the sense of humor He has, He just may take you up on it. This relationship has shown me God's grace, forgiveness, and just that sharing your life with someone just may be the hardest thing in life, yet the most sweetest.

AND, if you know me at all, you know how stubborn, driven, and independent I am...which has taken some adjustments when you're..you know...dating a man who wants to...LEAD...eek! Lord help me...AND him!! We've fasted together, which totally rocks my world...to have a man FAST with me so that we can hear God, and shut out the noise...be still my giddy heart...smile!

My most favorite thing that happened today is a dear, dear friend read a little snippet of a prayer she wrote to God a couple of months ago...it touched my heart to have friends who go to the Father on my behalf...Jesus and His followers rock my world! I ask myself daily how I got so blessed. I do not deserve this life, but I will live it with passion and purpose!

Tonight...I started preparing the food for my board meeting tomorrow. I made the cupcakes tonight...I'll ice them tomorrow, and I am also making homemade pizza rolls and Caesar salad. I can't wait. I got the recipe for the pizza rolls off of Pinterest...which by the way...I LOVE...but it's such a time zapper!

I'll be sure to post pictures and yes, before summer...HA! I've missed you guys...I've missed how soothing writing is!
Have a happy Thursday!
J

Tie Dyed Shirts on a Friday Night!

2011-09-23T14:16:00.000-05:00

I know that one day, I'll look back on this time in my life, and long for a brief moment of solitude. When I'm not answering to "Mommy," or other terms of endearment. One day, I just may miss boarding a bus on a promising Friday night, to stand in the heat...and be you know...cheerful! Or the tons of hugs I get a day...no matter how many times they rolled their eyes at me...(I figure it's just preparation for motherhood)

I'm sure there will come a time when my impromptu trips, outings, dinners with friends will be exchanged with family dinners...where I probably don't get to eat because I'm playing referee...

Or those times when I can just pick up and go because no one in the world is affected by my being home...but me!

And let's not even mention the fact that most days I eat fruit pops or cereal (when my milk isn't bad), for dinner...not having to cook if I don't want to.

Yes, one day...I am hopeful that this life that I'm living today will be very different. Still awesome...still fulfilling, still pursuing my passion...but different.

Until then...I've got on my tie-dye "WE LOVE THE WILDCATS" shirt...headed to a game...because TODAY, this is my life...but I'm so looking forward to ONE DAY!

'Set Apart'

2011-08-21T22:08:00.005-05:00

About a month ago, I was asked to speak at a Dance camp for young women for an organization that a girl from my church started. To say that I was humbled and scared is an understatement. {Be careful what you pray for....God listens...anywho...I digress...}

The organization uses Proverbs 31 as an anchor scripture, and I was asked to speak around a verse or two from this chapter. The title of my session was "Know your Worth," a topic that I feel so strongly about when it comes to pre-teen and teenaged girls.

Now, after I got over MYself, and MY fears, I think my message was relevant, and they got something out of it. For starters, girls are bombarded with images of perfect bodies, hair, teeth, skin, feet, you name it, BOYS, and the bar is so high. It can be so overwhelming to be a teenage girl in 2011...{can I just say how HAPPY I am to be an adult with all of this social media..high school would have sucked...oops can I say sucked...??}

In preparation for this devotion, I began to think back over my childhood, and what influenced the decisions I've made thus far. I'd like to share them with you...you know, because you're dying to know...

I shared with the girls, that I can recall during family prayer time my parents praying that I would be 'set apart,' and a leader...not afraid to go against the grain... (Now, depending on the day and situation, this independence totally kicked them in the butt because you know..I've been known to be a tad bit stubborn...and relentless when I think I'm right).

Anyway...I HATED the 'set apart' portion of the prayer. I didn't want to be set apart. I wanted to be a normal teenager...I wanted to sin and not care...I wanted to not feel conviction for when I mistreated people...but what can I say...my parents are good prayers...lol!

Fast forward to a set apart adult...there really isn't much difference.....it still has its ups and downs, but thankfully my very small inner circle of friends love the stubborn, slightly surly...lol, independent, faithful person that I am. As I think back, I wouldn't trade it for the world...BUT, the hardest part is the people who don't know you that well, and the silent judgment they bring.

I am not perfect, (see disclaimer below), in fact, I can probably out sin you on ANY day...

Disclaimer: I am a sinner. I fall short everyday...I can be hypocritical, mean, stubborn, jealous, gossipy...you name it, the potential is there for me to fall. I deal with loneliness, and wanting the company of a man...(I can't believe I just wrote this...lol). I don't always choose the right...sometimes I am proud of a wrong decision...REALLY proud. Speaking of said pride...I have to check myself everyday ALL DAY...and it is an uphill journey...because did I mention how stubborn I am?! I HATE having to be the bigger person 9.9 out of 10 times...I have a hard time trusting others, and am SUPER guarded...I really could go on and on...but you get the picture.

I said all of this to say...the difference between me and most, is my sin affects me in a different way. It messes me up...you know the conviction that comes with doing wrong? I can recall my godmother telling me that when I was younger and being a handful, she would just pray for God to convict my heart...seriously...worse than any punishment EVER...

But I wish I could display how much I love me some Jesus...I am nothing, NoThInG without HIM!!! My entire life's purpose is to do His work....nothing else is worth it to me...if I lost every friend on this earth, I know I could start over with Jesus...

My relationship with God is so important to me, that I can't apologize for it...I can't explain it...but there is a cost involved, and most days, I'm OK with that cost...but again, I have my disclaimer days...I can tell you though, that the cost associated with loving and living for Christ, is better than the costly mistakes I've made where He wasn't involved...can anyone relate?!?

I hope to help guide an entire generation of little set apart lives. Be it my friends, strangers, and definitely through my work with PDG....I'll leave you with this...today during church, my Pastor asked us a simple question. He said, when we get to heaven, and sit with the great soldiers from the Bible; Nehemiah, Noah, Moses, JESUS, and they began to talk about their days on earth, and the legacy they left...what would I be able to say?!? Think about that!!!

~Peace!

Private...

2011-05-22T20:14:00.001-05:00

I have struggled for months with making this blog private...not because I really need to, but because sometimes I hate that people read my private thoughts and could possibly know what I feel..

Now I know that this seems absolutely absurd, because you know, no one has forced me to start this blog...but the truth is the truth...

The truth of the matter is that I need this blog...I firmly believe that if I continue to stand in front of young people, and expect them to allow me to help them, I have to not worry about what people think when I tell them I shed a tear or two, or that I got my feelings hurt..

It has become so much easier for me to pretend that I don't get sad, or you can't hurt my feelings, or you get the picture, but again, that's not the truth!!

The great part is that I LOVE writing! If you give me a pen and a paper, (or a laptop) I can tell you exactly how I feel..I struggle with openly showing my emotions to people in my life who love and care about me! Crazy girl I know!

So...I've said all of this to say that I'm not going to make this blog private, and that I am trying so hard to not be so closed off emotionally... Ministry is being transparent, and I want to truly help those who need my story so they know they are not alone!!

So...if by chance you read this..which is like two people..lol, know that I'm working on it!!

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This I know...

2011-04-08T20:01:00.001-05:00

I know that God will redeem this time...I know He hasn't forgotten...

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Lest I Forget...

2011-04-06T23:27:00.002-05:00

I mentioned in my previous post that I am preparing for a young women's leadership conference on April 16th! That is officially 10 days away!!! Where oh where has the time gone?! I wanted to be sure to take this time to write down allll of the tidbits floating around in my head right now. Because one day...the very first PINK! Conference will be a fond memory, and it won't be so fresh...or maybe it will be...maybe I'll never forget what this time will feel like! First of all, God is amazing..as if I even have to type that. When I first completed our underwriting packet, I had NO idea who would sponsor us. It was a long shot to me, but clearly not to God. We have raised over $5400, and I really can't believe it. I really can't. I have seen belief barriers broken, mostly mine, and just people SO excited about this...and it blows my mind. The other day, I had a moment of panic...what if the 500 girls that are registered don't come? What if we don't get the food donations to feed them? Will I really have to cook 500 hotdogs? Logistically, is that possible? What if?! However, I've really tried to focus on the fact that this really isn't my project, and that God has it all under control. I just need to do my part, and He will do the rest. Has this been an easy road....definitely not. I am constantly putting out logistical fires, and changing a schedule that I thought was set, but in the end, 500 little girls will benefit from all of the inconveniences we've all shared. My vision is for PINK! to become an organization that is known for mentoring and empowering young women....but I don't know how the Lord will get us there....I'm positive that He will though! I can't wait to journal the pictures here...to share with you what He did....just 10 days...and so much to accomplish in this short time! We covet prayers, and if you have a food 'guy,' send him my way...but really, we need your prayers! Goodnight!

Just in case you wanted to know...

2011-03-24T13:35:00.002-05:00

What I've been up to...read along!
1. I've been busy planning the PINK! Young Women's Leadership Conference! I know you haven't heard much about this, and perhaps I should devote an entire post to it...but for now, here's a tidbit. It's a conference hosted by my school, put on by my non-profit targeted towards girls in grades 6-12.

What I envisioned as an audience of 50-100...maybe 200, has quickly grown to 500!!! Humbling to say the least! It's in April by the way, and I'm hoping to catch you up to speed before then!

2. Doing projects for my principal as an intern.

3. Schoolwork...yuck!

4. Cheer practice...when will it end?!

5. Traveling

6. Preparing to present at the AP Conference in Philly next month. About that: I seriously DO NOT belong in a league with the other presenters. So unqualified...pray for me!

7. Answering phone calls from my cousin using the Tango app...she's obssessed, and apparently she thinks I'm cool because she calls almost daily...but it's so cute!

8. Pre-planning for Malitta's bridal shower and bachelorette part in NOLA!

9. Eating tuna and taco soup...LOL!

10. Cutting back on sweet tea.

11. Working on holding my tongue...this is SO hard!

12. Getting excited about the warmer temps! Cut sandals and wedges, skirts and dresses, and a really great tan!

13. Balancing my life a little more. I'm still working hard on this one because I am really SO busy. I know I say that a lot, and I actually thrive off of the busyness, but a little lull would be nice!

So...now you know what I know!!!

The Real Thing

2011-03-23T23:04:00.003-05:00

It is no secret my love for iced tea! I could drink it all day, everyday if my kidneys could keep up. The problem is...it's not good for my weight loss plan..but I digress!

Earlier this week, I was out to dinner with my friend Kim, and I decided to treat myself by ordering a glass of iced tea. I was SO excited because I have cut WAAAAY back on my iced tea consumption. I'd like to take a moment to explain to you what iced tea does for me...

It's like my coffee, my soothing drink, my stress reliever. If I am having an especially rough day...iced tea will most likely calm my nerves...it's my happy place! (OK, now that I sound like a COMPLETE psycho...I'll get to the point!)

So, back to Monday night. Our waitress Candace, don't ask me why I remember her name, brought me my drink, and I immediately took a sip. I couldn't wait. However, it wasn't sweet enough. (Disclaimer: I don't like SUPER sweet tea, but I do like for it to be sweet)

Needless to say, I was so disappointed. I quickly told Kim, kind of under my breath that it wasn't sweet enough, but I wasn't going to send it back....I had decided to just deal with it. Well, Candance overheard and offered to bring me another glass. I thought nothing of it.

Now, I've had this happen before, so I didn't think that this new glass would be any sweeter...so you know what I did? I'm still working on my patience, so I took two packets of Splenda, and tried to 'make it work!' It didn't.

It wasn't bad, but it wasn't great. It had that artificially sweetened taste, and it wasn't what I knew it could be.

However, Candace was true to her word, and brought me another glass, and you know what my exact words to Kim were after taking that sip??? "This was SO worth the wait!" Yep! That's what I said...OK, here comes my point!

In that moment that I spoke those 6 little words to Kim, I heard clear as day God say to me that my season of singleness will be worth the wait...IF I don't settle for an artificial sweetener! WOW right?!

Talk about a punch to the gut. I've never shared this on the 'ole blog, but I went through a season where I settled for a Splenda kind of guy. He wasn't bad (really he was, but I didn't know it at the time), but he wasn't good. He wasn't the real thing...not at all!

Do you know what the definition of artificial is?: made by human skill; produced by humans (opposed to natural)

Do you see that? Can you see what happens when we make our own way? When we try to produce what God so desperately wants to give us for ourselves? I don't know about you, but I'd take natural, God made, and HIS design for my life ANY day than ANYTHING that I can conjure up on my own!

So, I hope this little nugget inspires you to seek the right...and walk in truth!! Don't settle for the artificial when you can have the real thing. It really opened my eyes about how subconsciously I may have been settling and not waiting for everything I am entitled to!

'How sweet are Your words to my taste, Sweeter than honey to my mouth!' Psalm 119:103

**I promise all of my posts won't cover this topic...but I promised Kim I would blog about it!

He has not Forgotten

2011-02-14T17:27:00.001-06:00

Today is Valentine's Day, and I have to be honest I was semi dreading it. I hate feeling ungrateful for what I have by coveting what I don't. It's not a characteristic that I like to exhibit...

However, today has turned out to be such a lovely day. My kids were so sweet and couldn't wait to tell me Happy V Day...AND..I'm on a yellow dog with 20 of my favorite Valentines..you can hate me now!!

To be honest...my heart skipped a little beat when I assured myself that one day the Lord would grant me a Valentine that would cause me to forget all of the times when I was my own Valentine...that is what I'm holding on to today folks...that God cares and He hasn't forgotten about me..or you!
Happy Love Day!!!

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And then you have these days...

2011-01-13T21:57:00.001-06:00

Sometimes, even when you don't have what you think you want..you can't help but have those moments that take you by surprise, and totally make you grateful for everything you have. I'm having one of those moments right now!!

I.am.so.grateful. I am beyond blessed, and I know it. I hate those days when I lose focus of all I really have!! Life is so short, and I really want to take it all in!!

Just thought I would share that with you guys. I'm grateful..even when I'm whining and throwing a temper tantrum!!

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What if.....

2011-01-07T10:52:00.005-06:00

I never get married????? There I said it....I've written it in print for all of the world to see....now you, yes YOU can say that you know the burning question that burdens my thoughts at least a squillion times a day...Don't believe me...really, it's just that many. And, I've found those thoughts to be sneaky suckers too. They pop up into the most random places.

I have to offer this disclaimer....I'm not waiting for a man to come rescue me. My life is not on hold, and yes, I am fully aware that when the timing is right, God will send him to me...I GET THAT! If I were honest, I'd tell you that my life is quite the opposite. I work my fingers to the bone, clocking sometimes 14 hour work days, am juggling a very active social life, and a Master's program, gearing up for my Ed.D program, filling out a charter school app (more on that later), and still focused on creating my non-profit, but well you know the rest. With all of that being said, it doesn't stop my mind from going there. Especially when I'm getting a little older each year, if you catch my drift. Oh, and by the way, I have happened to have read the story of Sarah, and how God blessed her with a baby in her 80s....really people, do you think that makes it better that my singleness is being compared to a biblical miracle....I'm laughing just as I type this! Oh the things people say~!

I guess my purpose of this post is in the last few months, I have encountered many Christian, beautiful, successful, sweet women, from ALL different races who are single, and ready to mingle...sorry, I had to do it! And I want to know why?! Not necessarily from Him, but just why. Why is it that it happens for some, and not for others? I guess the answer to this question is right along side the cure for the common cold.

I'd also be lying to you if I didn't admit that being single at this age makes me ask myself what's wrong with me? I can already hear my good hearted friends yelling at your computers that this is a trick of the enemy, and I am inclined to agree with you, but I am human, and I am/have been guilty of wondering if I am the issue.

You should see the poor look in my mother's eyes when she says, do you have any prospects? Poor thing...she wants grandbabies so badly...and I guess she doesn't get it either...

Oh, and I've heard all of the 'advice', but how about we re-visit for a good laugh:
-you need to get out more (I'm at home to sleep and shower)
-use this time to get closer to God (as if there is a measurement, and everyone knows it but me)
-allow Jesus to be your man (this one puzzles me the most)
-when you're least expecting it, it'll happen (tried that...still single)
-there is so much for you to accomplish as a single... (YES! using this to my advantage)
-you're so pretty...I don't see why you aren't dating (uhh...thanks)
-you're just too picky (maybe, but I'm picky with my fruit too...what can I say?!)
-and my all time favorite from the person who knows me best...J, I really have no clue... (sigh)

I have sincere joy for each person in my life that has found their personal love story...honest to goodness truth here...I'd just like to double date sometimes too! Now before you order my straight jacket...I don't need it...just sharing what's on the heart...no need to panic!

So...here's to a hopeful (or maybe I shouldn't be hopeful for fear of ruining the 'least expecting it' element) 2011. Lots of great stuff going on already, and so much to be thankful for..and truly I am...but again, there are those times...

Happy Friday friends!

November 7, 2016

2010-10-27T09:30:00.005-05:00

I am behind on posting....if I were honest with myself, and you, I'd tell you that I have a partially written post dating back to February of this year. It just so happens to be the Junior League ODI post....then there's my trip to New Orleans complete with pictures that still needs to be written, my photo shoot from September, life in general, Junior League Super Saturday, and I really could go on....but I won't, because today, I have another post in mind.

The other day, I had to order a new driver's liscense because my current one will expire soon. It was a very surreal moment for me...

Rewind 9 years ago....November 7, 2001. I had just turned 21, and I celebrated in a very typical way that one celebrates, but I digress. I remember picking up that liscense, and seeing the date, November 7, 2010. My immediate thought is that I would be 30 the next time I'd need a new liscense. (I can really remember where I was at that moment, and everything...so weird)

30 seemed like such a long way from where I was at the time. I imagined what life would be like, (reality lends a very different picture btw), and where I'd live....it was just so weird to think of myself as ever being 30.....but, what a difference 9 years make....NINE YEARS!!!

In about a week and a half, I'll be 30 years old!!!!! THIRTY!!!!! I don't feel 30...if 30 feels like something. Heck, I still feel 21. I live a busy, active life. In fact, I love my life. Sure I have my bad moments, but overall, at the end of the day, I can count my blessings, and see God's hand. I don't think I look 30...I am still carded...which by the way, I'm becoming more and more thankful for! I don't even know if life changes much for me because I am about to be 30.

Sure, I wonder when 'it' will happen, but that's another topic for another day....

I have many hopes for this 30th year of life..and I'm working on a post entitled, "If I knew then what I know now..."

Oh, and for the record...yes, I will be 36 by the time I need a new liscense....we won't even go there...I've learned that it's easier to be ready for everything...you never know what's headed your way!

Have a great hump day folks...2 more days, and I'm with my family in Mississippi....I can't wait!!

Friday Randoms

2010-10-15T11:54:00.004-05:00

Have you ever wondered why Sonic is the only fast food establishment that provides peppermints? Classy I tell ya!

Today is Friday, game day Friday! There are exactly three more games this football season, PTL! Every time I attend a game, I mentally thank my parents for coming to every single game without fail....EVERY. SINGLE. ONE!!! They folks, deserve a medal!

My house looks like a tornado hit it.....literally. In fact, when I walk in, I get anxious. This will change. Tonight. Whilst I'm drying my hair and singing to the tunes of my iPod! Speaking of my iPod, a song came on this morning whilst I was doing my make-up that took me back to an Alpha Step Show after party....do y'all remember that party? The one where we wore camo??! It was by far THE best after party to date...anywho...I took a moment to bust out my dance moves...because, it's how I roll in the mornings...really it is...I just may take my show on the road! I'm that good...oh I kid!

Anywho...I just thought I'd pop in here and spread a little I'm so glad it's Friday love...oh, and 9 weeks of school is over, and it's three weeks until my birthday, oh, and 2 weeks before I see my family in Mississippi!!! Have a great weekend!

The Ugly Side of Life...

2010-10-12T19:49:00.003-05:00

I have been in a really crappy mood lately....not just a couple of days, but for a while now. I've always been fairly good at masking my feelings and such, so much so to my detriment sometimes, and I can't tell you how many times I've arrived on this blog to write about my days, but couldn't for fear of sounding like an ungrateful spoiled brat.

So, I offer you my disclaimer...this post will not be filled with feel good messages, pics of my life, or my normal wit....if you're looking for that, come back another day. But today, you're hearing from a girl who doesn't have it all figured out...who's annoyed with selfish people, and who's sometimes really tired of turning the other cheek!

I know I've written this before, but I am somewhat easily annoyed by people at times. My patience is very thin with those who can't see beyond their noses, or who don't do what I would do in a situation, because you know, I am perfect (I kid...really).

I've always heard that when people ask you how you're doing, they don't really mean it...or they don't really want to hear all that you have to say....this has hindered me from being totally open and forthcoming when I'm asked, because like most of us, I really don't like rejection, and when I take the time to share my feelings, and you brush them off...I get really annoyed, (there's that word again), and it totally makes me make a mental note for the future. But, is that the right thing to do? Is it what Jesus did? Aye yae yae....

I chuckle on a daily basis because people think I am so put together....me?! My life is not perfect, I make huge mistakes, I hurt people, people hurt me, I struggle with sin, and just like you, I have those fears, anxieties, and times when I need someone to listen to me, yes me, and not judge or want me to be ok, but just listen.

I'm not quite sure how to end this, and I'm not looking for sympathy or pity...just merely commenting on the things that have had my feathers ruffled here lately! I do want you to know that I know how blessed I am...I know that there are people who would give hand and foot to have my issues, and I have great people in my life...really I know this! Sometimes life is not cute, or convenient, or in my case, fair...and no matter how hard I want to, I can never not be who I am! Until next time...

Falling for this weather!

2010-09-28T12:29:00.002-05:00

Finally, a nip in the air! Don't you just love it?! My heart skipped a beat when the little chill bumps arose on my arms this morning...oh Fall, how I've missed you so! I was beginning to think that Summer was never going to leave!

Things are going well on this side of the world! We are in the sixth week of school, and the kids are still behaving! I almost hate to type those words, but so far, so good!

I apologize now, but this post will be rather random....hope you stick around until the end!

I joined Weight Watchers on Saturday! I didn't really plan on doing it, but a friend call me because she did, and she encouraged me to do it with her. I've done it before, and was successful, and since I want to go down one more size (to a 10), I thought why not! I'd LOVE to hit my goal by my birthday, but I'm not putting too much pressure on myself. I know where I started, and consistency and time has played well in my favor!

So....I'm back to counting points, and I'm a little mixed up about it...I got really comfortable just watching what I ate, and now I am back to making a concerted effort to not eat bad things! Oh well right?! The weight loss will be worth it!

These last few weeks have been exhausting! I am so tired all of the time, but I'd rather be tired than bored out of my mind!

I'm sure the next post I write will have pics...did I tell you about the photo shoot I did with the wonderful Holly Anderson? Well, I guess you'll just have to come back won't you!

Calgon take me Away/ Friday Night Lights

2010-09-10T09:51:00.002-05:00

It's Friday, and this girls needs a weekend getaway! I'm beat! I hope this doesn't come across as me complaining because I don't want to seem ungrateful, but when my alarm clock went off this morning....I seriously contemplated calling in...but 1) I'm not sick, and 2) it's GAME DAY!!!!

I think the most daunting part of all of this is that it's hard for me to see the end....just game after game after practice after assignment after meeting after work to grade after to-do list....I'm getting overwhelmed just typing it!

Anyway, I promised to blog more this month, and I want to at least attempt to keep that promise. I've also noticed that I've picked up a few new followers...which absolutely blows my mind since you know, I post daily, and have such awesome things to say! HA!

I think I'll allow myself to imagine if I could get away, where I would go...maybe to Lake Travis, or Dallas to my grandparents' farm, or heck....just being able to be in my own bed for longer than 6 hours! I try to remind myself that one day, I'll wish these days were here again, so I'm trying to stay in the moment....sometimes, a lot easier said than done!

Have a Fantastic Friday everyone!

The Weekend is Upon Us!

2010-09-03T21:38:00.004-05:00

Well hello, and welcome to a 3 Day Weekend! I wish I could tell you I had huge plans, but you wanna know what I'll be doing? CHEER CHEER CHEER!!!!! With a little Saturday Night Football in the mix! It's all good though...you know you want my life! HA!

Seriously though, I don't mind! I consider it a huge blessing to be able to directly influence the lives of 27 young ladies...it's not always easy, but it's always worth it!

On a different note, I fell the other day. HARD. In the process I'm sure I twisted my anke a little bit, and I'm super sore. I definitely feel a massage in my future, especially since I own a monthly membership, and I have 3 months worth in the bank...seriously people...how does that happen?!? It is my goal to make this huge wrong RIGHT...ASAP!

Junior League is back in effect, and I am so excited! This year, I am a Provisional Advisor, and the best way I can explain this is to say that I am over a group of ladies (sort of like a pledge class)! My group will be the coolest, most successful group EVER! I'm so excited to lead them..I'll make sure to take a pic so that I can post it! Stay tuned!

One last thing before I leave....it was 82 degrees today!!! Now to some, that is still HOT, but to us Texans...it was a taste of Fall! And after triple digit weather for so long, we needed this reprieve!

I hope you all have a great long weekend....enjoy, relax, and do something for yourself!

First Week of School!

2010-08-24T12:32:00.004-05:00

I'm back...are we starting to notice a trend here....that hopefully will soon change.

It's always a little awkward when I re-enter the blogging world. There has been so much that has gone on, and I don't know how to catch everyone up, but I promise I will do my best!

First of all, school has started, and the kids are back in full effect! I must admit though, this year is going so well. Not just the fact that my kids are still in the honeymoon phase, but my schedule is perfect, I end my day with cheer...what more could a girl as for?! I only teach 4 English classes a day, one cheer class, and two planning periods....I'm loving it!

Things have been so busy around here....I hope that those words don't become the norm for my life, rather, I hope that even when I'm tired, that I will try to have fun, and do things that don't revolve around stunts, football season, or excited high school girls!! So far, I've done a really good job, so I'm patting myself on the back!

First on my list is to become a better blogger....I really like going back and reading what my life was like in the midst of myself...LOL! I'm vowing in September to get my life together, and well you know...blog about it...that just may be a tall order to fill, but a girl can wish can't she?!

In other news...my first school weekend was a success. I co-hosted Amanda's shower on Saturday morning, went to a football game Saturday night, and crashed around 8:30 p.m. Sunday, I saw the movie 'Takers!' It was delicious....Idris Elba's accent...oh.my.word!!! Seriously ladies...it was so sexy!

After the movie, I caught lunch, and then treated myself to a much needed manicure, pedicure, and brow wax! Then...picked up a pair of pants and a dress at the Gap, and headed to Target to grocery shop for the week....fun, relaxing weekend!!!

Now, it's early Monday morning, and I'm gearing up for another busy week of school....I'll catch you gators later!

Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder...RIGHT?!

2010-07-25T00:12:00.002-05:00

It's amazing what God has to do to get my attention sometimes. This particular instance....an upper respiratory infection, and ASTHMA...yes folks, I have asthma! The sad thing is that I've undoubtedly had it for quite some time, ok...to be honest, at least a couple of years, I just haven't had time to go to the doctor. Until this week.

It was B.A.D! I've never felt so sick...my coughs literally shook my entire body, my lungs rattled in my chest ALL NIGHT.... By the time I saw the doctor on Friday, I was in pain just from coughing. Four prescriptions, almost $400 in visit fees and meds, and I really do feel so much better. With these meds, come recovery, and that is where God met me!

During this time of 'rest' if you will, I've become so hungry for the word of God. I need Him to make my life complete, and for the past few months, I've been neglecting that relationship...and it was time to stop. I do believe He tried less drastic ways to get my attention, but I can be hard-headed, so He needed to pull out the big guns.

I don't know why I can't be still. I don't know why having nothing to do on my calendar irks me, but it's become a place that I just can't function in anymore. I need to learn to embrace those times when I have nothing to do...because they really are few and far between my friends.

I know I've been MIA practically all summer, but this blog hasn't been far from my mind. It just seems that when I'm a little out of touch with God...I don't have much to write about. That's going to change...not that my little musings are what you've been missing in life...HA!

I am starting a little bible study with one of my dearest friends...(I've always wanted to type that...it's the meds talking). It's called 'Ruth: Loss, Love, and Legacy' by Kelly Minter. I'm really excited about it because Ruth is one of my most favorite women in the Bible. I can't wait to dig into the word, and come out....well, changed?! With that said, I really don't know how to work through a bible study with just one other person...any suggestions? There are no leaders here, just two kindred spirits working to better their lives for the Lord. Honestly though...I really would appreciate any help on the dynamics of this!

I know it won't be long before I'm back again...I've missed writing so much! Until next time....lator gators!

Long Time No See...

2010-07-05T22:36:00.003-05:00

I have not written in a while, but it's not because I don't have stuff to talk about. I guess I've been a little busy, and then when I haven't been so busy, I've enjoyed doing nothing...something that I don't get a chance to do often.

Let's see...what have you guys missed? Well, last week, my body went through a major workout shock. I hit the weights hard last week, and I paid for it in a major way. So much so that I couldn't perform my duties the last day....it hurt so badly! It felt good though...even though it felt bad...does that even make sense?!

I've been a little off my normal schedule...I have minimal groceries...which is very unlike me...and I haven't been to church in a lot of weeks, I wince to type that...you know, founder of a non-profit agency...skipping out on church, but it's/I'm missing something...and whatever that something is...my desire for it is causing me to be at a standstill....so, here I stand!

I think the problem is, I really don't know what I'm praying for around this church issue...maybe I'll know it when it happens!

My 4th of July was great! Dad and I cooked out on Saturday, and went shopping in Austin on Sunday! It was a great relaxing weekend.

Now, I'm home...hanging out on the sofa...should be in bed, because I've got an early morning appt with the gym, and then off to work for TAKS Remediation...go me! Oh yeah, and I really wish my iPhone 4 would hurry up and get here! I cannot wait...the anticipation is killing me.....I almost bought a case today, but my good sense kicked in..I mean, I don't even have the phone yet...but it should be soon!

I hope your holiday weekend was a blast! Have a great week peeps!
~J

Caught!

2010-06-20T21:59:00.003-05:00

Matthew 14:31 (New International Version)
31Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"

A lot of people, myself included, tend to think that God only shows up when doubt is gone...not a factor, faith in full effect. I can't tell you the times that I've wondered if I haven't received something that I've prayed for based on my level of faith...anyone been there?!

However, the above verse in my opinion shows just the opposite. Verse 31 comes after Jesus asks Peter to walk on water. At first, Peter succeeds, his eyes on Jesus, he shows that he can walk on that very water. BUT, doubt sets in, the factors are considered, the reality of the situation sets in, and he realizes that there is no reason why he should be walking on the water?

We all know what happens next...Peter sees the wind, and begins to get scared and sink.

Have you ever been there? Where you can't understand why you are accomplishing something that you very well shouldn't be able to perform? What about you muster up enough strength to wrap your mind around the task, but once you start, you begin to back pedal, and question why you?!

God promises us that He will restore our faith (James 5:15). Verse 31 shows us that God does not turn away, or wait for our faith to be restored before He reaches out His hand in times of doubt. I needed to explore this verse because I naturally tend to doubt A LOT! I don't like that I do, but if I can be real and honest....doubt sets in often times way before faith. It has been comforting to read that God recognizes that His people doubt, and that He still reaches out to catch us despite our humanness...

One of my most favorite scriptures, (notice a trend here), is Exodus 14:14 'the Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.' This scripture is positioned right in the middle of the Exodus led by Moses to take the people to the Promised Land. The people were complaining, scared, and fearful. This fear caused them to pray. God often brings us to scary places so that we have no choice but to call on Him, to pray and communicate with Him, and then to WAIT! (A topic that deserves a post for itself...stay tuned).

However, doubt many times manifests itself in the waiting period...will it happen, can I do it, why me, will I succeed, am I on the right path? I could go on and on! The answer is yes, it just may not be the answer we expected, or in the package we dreamed about....and only God's timing can bring peace...

~Goodnight!

Lo Siento...

2010-06-16T21:50:00.002-05:00

I think this means 'I'm sorry' in Spanish. It has been a while since I've posted, but I promise I have valid reasons.

I have been running like crazy for the past 2 weeks, and while at least I am back in Houston, I am far from resting!

So...what have I been up to you ask? Well, summer cheer practice started with a bang, and then I had my family reunion on my father's side. I went down that morning, and came back that evening because I left for cheer camp the very next day...and that's where I've been for the past four days. I'm exhausted to say the least, but the firls did so well, and they had a blast.

I will post more tomorrow, Taviea's wedding shower is this weekend, and I'm hosting with Malitta, so there will be many more stories to share!

Hope you all are doing well.. ~

David said it best...

2010-06-01T21:46:00.003-05:00

I'm still working on that post of my thoughts on shadowing my principals....it's coming, but I'm not in the mindset to finish it tonight!!!

Tonight, I just want to talk about whatever comes to my mind. Have I mentioned that this is my last week of school? Can you hear me screaming with joy...can you? My plan is to party hard this summer...to live it up! I've got eight weeks to pack it all in, and that's exactly what I plan on doing!

I've blogged about Psalm 27:8 a couple of times before, but tonight, I took the time to read the entire chapter...

1 A psalm of David. The LORD is my light and my salvation -- so why should I be afraid? The LORD protects me from danger -- so why should I tremble? 2 When evil people come to destroy me, when my enemies and foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. 3 Though a mighty army surrounds me, my heart will know no fear. Even if they attack me, I remain confident. 4 The one thing I ask of the LORD -- the thing I seek most -- is to live in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, delighting in the LORD's perfections and meditating in his Temple. 5 For he will conceal me there when troubles come; he will hide me in his sanctuary. He will place me out of reach on a high rock. 6 Then I will hold my head high, above my enemies who surround me. At his Tabernacle I will offer sacrifices with shouts of joy, singing and praising the LORD with music. 7 Listen to my pleading, O LORD. Be merciful and answer me! 8 My heart has heard you say, "Come and talk with me." And my heart responds, "LORD, I am coming." 9 Do not hide yourself from me. Do not reject your servant in anger. You have always been my helper. Don't leave me now; don't abandon me, O God of my salvation! 10 Even if my father and mother abandon me, the LORD will hold me close. 11 Teach me how to live, O LORD. Lead me along the path of honesty, for my enemies are waiting for me to fall. 12 Do not let me fall into their hands. For they accuse me of things I've never done and breathe out violence against me. 13 Yet I am confident that I will see the LORD's goodness while I am here in the land of the living. 14 Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD.

David I feel, was in a place where he struggled with the goodness of God, and his current situations. Where he personally knew what God was capable of, but he had people in his life, many whom he respected that wanted to protect him, and offer their opinions. David was in a war...maybe physical, but definitely spiritual.

One can become spoiled when they've experienced the goodness of God, when they know that above all...He can. It's a dark road to travel when we are met with silence. It's not a good feeling at all.

Have you been there? Me too friends, me too!

Many people believed that David wrote the 27th Psalm in two parts...the break coming around verse 6. Verses 1-6 highlighting a time in his life where God's blessings were abundant, obvious, you know that place, where we can feel His hand and His presence?

Many Christians believe that verses 7-12 extend from a time in David's life when he desperately needed to hear from God. However, he felt that God was not answering him, that he was forgotten. Absurd yes....far fetched...I don't think so...

We all know that God doesn't move His face. The Bible says that He is the same yesterday, today, and forever (Heb 13:8). He is incapable of change....but we aren't. Our lives are in a constant state of motion, and with this comes the fact that we stray...maybe not for a long time, but a shift nonetheless. So, it's easy to feel that God is silent, hidden, or has pressed the ignore button on your calls, but the psalmist says it best, '13 Yet I am confident that I will see the LORD's goodness while I am here in the land of the living. 14 Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD. '

On this night my friends, it's enough for me. He is enough for me. If He understands, no one else has to. If He has said it will happen, then I believe it...I expect it, and I'll praise Him in advance for it.

The REACH! front:
Again, what can I say. Blessings all around! I met with part of the REACH! team weekend before last, and we started planning 'Defying Gravity,' the back-to-school event! I'm so excited. My summer days will be devoted to all things Principal and all things REACH! I bought a mini notebook computer today for easy travel so that I could take my work on the road with me. It was a GREAT deal...and the best part....it's pink! YAY!

Right now the date is September 18th if all goes well, and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that my principal will let us have it at my school. Our theatre is amazing...and free!!!!! Pray with me on that will you?

Goodnight bloggies....

First Day as a Principal!

2010-05-20T21:50:00.002-05:00

Quick Update: I have to be at work by 6:30...which I haven't accomplished since....the first month of school maybe! My principal originally said 6:00, but thank goodness she changed her mind...that's crazy! I wonder what time she'll let me go home...there really is no telling!

I'm taking her breakfast, or at least coffee....and I have no clue what I'm going to do...but I'll soon find out! So, peace out peeps....I've got to get ready for tomorrow...

It's All Good!

2010-05-20T12:23:00.003-05:00

There are nine days separating me from today, and the end of the school year! Music to my ears. I'm going to try to enjoy each day, and work out at least during the week, because I have become a huge slacker in that department!!! Just sad!

I'll be attending one wedding, and I'm a bridesmaid in another....a trip to Virginia, New Orleans, and maybe even a little weekend in Vegas...if the dates align! Add curriculum development, and cheer practice, and that will probably bring me back to August way before I feel like it, but I'll be busy, so it's all good!

There is one thing (well...there are a LOT of things...but for the sake of staying on topic) that I want to conquer this summer. Would you like to meet him?

His name is Hell on Earth...better known as 'bleachers.' I see a lot of this in my future with the cheerleaders this summer, and they kick my butt!!!! BIG TIME!!! Add 100+ temperatures, and let's call it a party...NOT! On the up side, I'm imagining what my thighs and buttocks will look like! Don't hate me because I'm crazy! HA!

Have a great Thursday peeps! I'm back to homework!!

OH! One more thing...I'm shadowing my Head Principal tomorrow, and one of the Assistant Principals Monday! Should be exciting. Wonder what I should wear?!? I'm so ready to move up to the next level, but in His time....and it's all good!!!! For real...I mean it for real!

I'll be sure to let you know how tomorrow goes! I might even take pics for my blog...LOL! Not of the kids of course, that would not be good!

Treading water really isn't surviving at all.....

2010-05-19T09:26:00.004-05:00

One of my friends knew I was having a hard time processing yesterday, and asked me if I wanted to write a letter about it....in the midst of all of that was going on...I had to chuckle. Writing for me does make it better. It's getting so that I rarely write in my journal, my thoughts too quick for my poor hand to keep up. I'm preferring the speed the keyboard of my laptop affords me. BUT, my heart misses the privacy my journal gives me. Not that I have any deep brooding secrets, but just because!

Bottom line...I miss my journal...and my church (I've been out of town the last 4 weeks, and I can feel it). Random interjection I know, but I think what this all boils down to is that I miss my Jesus! No, He hasn't gone anywhere, and neither have I, but I firmly believe that it's my lack of mobility that is the bigger issue. I am coasting. Treading water.

I'm allowing past disappointments and failures to ruin what's going on now, and 1) that is so unlike me, and 2) that contradicts what the Word says.

I know that there is a life of excellence ahead of me. I can't rest in mediocrity, and I long to make it all work, and to make it all fit. BUT, I wonder, just maybe if I'm overloading on what I know I should be doing, and what is already in my life, to forget and kill the desire of what I really want?!?

This school year is barely coming to a close, and trust me, when the next one starts...it'll be the biggest year of my life to date. I can count 4 MAJOR projects that I am personally involved in that will require ALL of my time, and while it makes me happy on one hand, it scares me to death on the other....because what if I do all of this, you know, to build the Kingdom and what not, and I never get 'found?' Let's do a motive check...geesh! What if I'm 50, and never reach my dreams, and never have a family...what if?!

You may judge and think that if these are my problems, then I've got it made, and you know, I might just have to agree with you, but I had a little anxiety attack yesterday, because I know that each of these 4 projects is what I've been called to do, but I have heard no guarantee that I will ever receive what I want.....and that my friends, scares me. I know it sounds like I'm saying God owes me something, and I know that He doesn't.....and I hope you know that that's not what's in my heart....

It is so not easy following the will of God, but I know I'm better for it....I know I am! I'll write more later, I've got a long day/night ahead of me.

If I had to pick one...

2010-05-14T08:33:00.004-05:00

I love reading! I grew up in a family that would take trips to the bookstore....we could stay there for hours! In particular, my Aunt Jennifer...(I've never called her 'Aunt' in my life), and I are very avid readers. We still find time to sneak away and go to the bookstore, and try to find that special book that will keep us occupied for the next....2 days...HA!

Because I love to read so much, I don't have a favorite author. I love them all, but if I was forced to pick, hands down it would be Redeeming Love, by Francine Rivers!! SO SO SO GOOD!!! If you've never read it..I promise you won't be disappointed!

It's a fictional account of the book of Hosea, and while that may not make you run out and buy it....your trust in my picks should make you!

Growing up, I can remember this book that my Mom would read to me. I SO wish I could remember the title as I want to be able to share it with my children too. I was a book about being a big girl. Being kind to others, and always sharing. It would also say that when things and people hurt you to remember to be a big girl....such a heavy topic for a little tike.

I can remember skinning my knee, or something like that, and my Mom picking me up and telling me not to cry and to 'remember what the book said.' I know I'm probably not giving a really big depiction, but if you know what book I am talking about, please let me know...remember, I'm a child of the 80s, so it was published around that time....

Another childhood favorite was The Babysitter's Club series (I wanted to start my own club FOR REAL), and Sweet Valley High! Do y'all remember those books? Talk about addiction..I used to belong to a book club that would send me 2 books every single month FOR YEARS while in middle and high school. I'm so glad my parents fostered a love of reading. It makes you smarter people....trust me, I'm a teacher. I can tell those kids who read for pleasure...they know things even if they haven't experienced them personally....READ TO YOUR KIDS and MAKE THEM READ!!!!! (jumping off soapbox)

Have a great FRIDAY! Spring Show is tonight, and then Waco tomorrow! Life is busy, but life is GREAT!

It's a God thing...

2010-05-13T10:14:00.003-05:00

It's Thursday, and this week has literally flown by....but not without a little hard work and determination to get through it.

Did I mention I'm a teacher....of 10th grade hormonal, cranky, ready for summer children???!!! Do you understand what it's like to get them even remotely interested in 'Phantom of the Opera' right now? Trust me peeps...this is no easy task!

However, the days till summer are winding down, and soon, I will become a lady of leisure...or maybe not. For the record, I have a grant writing course to attend, a federal grant to write, a non-profit organization to get on its feet...SCHOOL....and a few more pounds to lose to hit my goal weight!!! But don't get me wrong...there will be some leisurely days!

Today I'm pretty excited....Amanda and I are meeting to get together for the grant. She's going to help me find sponsors and fundraise. She's basically the 'Queen of Green,' so I can't tell you how excited I am that she's willing to work. Because, did I mention she's preggers, with a 3 year old? Yeah...she's wonder woman, but what can I say? The girl is good!

Also, the final member of my grant writing team accepted today. She showed me in her journal where she had written under her personal goals section that #1 was to learn how to write grants this year.....I have goosebumps just thinking about. God never gives a vision without provision. NEVER!!! I can't believe how He continues to bless the work of my hands, and gives me so many capable, smart, and driven people to help...it's such an amazing feeling.

Anyway...that's this Terrific Thursday in a nutshell! I'll be back...I haven't forgotten about those pics...I just haven't found that cord just yet....lol!

Trip to Jackson, Mother's Day, and Reach!

2010-05-12T10:36:00.003-05:00

I know it's been a minute since I've posted, but I'm back from my trip to Jackson, and I had a lovely time. I have pictures that I took, and I'll post them when I can find my camera cord, but Karmen is getting so tall, and Danyelle is becoming quite the cheerleader....she's amazing, if I do say so myself!

My family really is the coolest, and I'm glad I got a chance to spend the day with my Mom, and my Grandmother!

Mother's Day started off with breakfast cooked by my Mom, sorry Mom, and then we all went to church. Afterwards, we went to Sonny's Bar-B-Que, and it was delicious! It was a loud, fun time...with a 13 person party!

On the Reach! front:
Things are progressing quite smoothly...well, that is if you don't count my freak-outs about the funding...and the simple logistics of 'how do you run/start/fund a non-profit...' Other than that, things are going well. My team and I are working on a grant app now. Did I mention it was a federal grant? Did I mention I'm quite sure I'll have my doctoral thesis completed whilst writing this grant??? It's a DOOZIE!!!

I feel so unprepared, under qualified, and pretty much useless in this process. Thankfully, I'm meeting with a lady in our district today, and she's hopefully going to put my mind at ease....Lord knows I need it!

I'll be back later to post pics from the weekend! And, in the next couple of weeks, I'll need your help voting for my grant application to win the funding...I'll keep you posted on those details though!

Capable People

2010-05-06T22:16:00.003-05:00

Today started off great, but ended mucho hectic!!! Trust me, I wasn't ready for its activities, but I survived! Needless to say, when I got home, I was pretty much a walking zombie!

Let's just say, chocolate would have been GREAT tonight...but I intentionally didn't purchase any on my last shopping trip. How cruel of me!

On the Reach! front, I learned a lot today. I was able to get some valuable resources for grant opportunities, and things are shaping up nicely. I'm working on an e-mail to send out to all that have expressed an interest in helping with Reach! I hope the e-mail doesn't scare them away! I'm itching to delegate some things to more capable people! I'm so glad the Lord delivered me from thinking that only I can do things for me...you know what I mean? I used to be so afraid to release the reigns on things I was associated with. I missed out on so many opportunities to better my experiences by allowing other, more capable people to help me.

Tomorrow, I leave for Mississippi...I'm pretty pumped! I'll post, either from my phone, or the computer! I'm off to bed now...I'm pooped!

~J

Write the Vision...

2010-05-05T21:22:00.002-05:00

There are very few times when I'm speechless....and by speechless, I mean having NOTHING to say! Well, tonight is one of those nights!

(Oh, and by the way! HAPPY CINCO DE MAYO!!! I celebrated with Amanda and Abbey, Presha and her two girls, and Amy and her fam! It was a fun, loud, crazy time! I meant to get a picture, but with 3 kiddos.....that didn't happen)

Anywho, I'm just blown away by the outreach of support from my friends, total Habakkuk 2:2 moment!

Today was pretty eventful as well, I received the Employee Identification Number, as well as filed the non-profit paperwork with the state. It's coming along....really it is, and I have no doubt it will be great!

Do you want one too?

2010-05-05T09:52:00.001-05:00

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Have a great day guys!

REACH!

2010-05-04T23:02:00.007-05:00

Hey! It's just Tuesday, and I am exhausted! Maybe it's because I have a laundry list of items to take care of...and let's just say that everyday...I add about 3 major items to said list. Trust me, I'm not complaining...but it is a little overwhelming at times!

I wanted to let you know something...I filed the papers for my non-profit's name. That seems weird even as I type this...my non-profit...but I did it, and I'm excited! It was a painless experience, and in case you're wondering, it cost 16 bucks!

You wanna know the name....well, without further ado, the name registered in Harris County is REACH! To give you a little background, it was originally supposed to be another name, but it was already taken! I started to panic a little bit, and asked the lady if I could step outside for a minute. I just said a little prayer, and REACH! came to mind! It turns out that I really like it! Do you?

I feel so grown up, and so in the time and place that I am supposed to be in...and that feels SO GOOD!!! Now the real work begins, and to be honest, it gets a little crazier by the minute, but you know, I just thought my friends were cool before...now I know they are! They've been stepping up and offering help, contacts, support, ideas....I feel so blessed everyday! So many people lack the solid friendships that I have, and I don't take them for granted. I'm talking let me pray with you on that....awesomeness at its best right?!

Speaking of awesome friends, my good friend Mike co-owns a graphic design firm, and he and his partner are working with me to brand REACH! So, technically, I've had my very first REACH! business meeting....all while I was talking to him, I kept repeating, 'I can't believe this is happening....' And I can't!

I could seriously go on and on, but this girl...with the newly discovered sexy tiny set of spider veins need to go to bed! I've got SO much to do, and almost not enough time to do it!

Say your prayers, and dream big! God is listening!!!

*image via google

Pray with me...

2010-05-03T13:01:00.002-05:00

Hey there!!! It's lovely May, and I couldn't be happier....the end of the school year is near! Hallelujah!!! I'm just posting really quickly to ask for prayer. I've got a lot of decisions to make, and I want to be sure that they are decisions that glorify God, and are what He wants, not what I would like to see happen.

Of course this has to do with the non-profit. I feel like this is such a HUGE mountain, and at times, I'm feeling very ill equipped, but I know that is not of God. I'll post an update later...but until then, will you just pray!

Later gators! ~J

Getting my Want to to Want to!

2010-05-02T01:17:00.003-05:00

Hey there! I hope you all had a wonderful Saturday! I know I did! I was up bright and early with some things to cross off of my to-do list for today! This included a massage, a hair trim, a little baking for the fight party, and schoolwork!

I'm happy to say that I got it all accomplished so that I could enjoy myself later in the day! BUT, even with such a productive Saturday, I've still got so much to do on my to-do list....and the motivation is really not there! So.....I'm going to post my ginormous to-do list right here...for all the world to see, and hopefully, there can be some accountable amongst us...what do you say?

1. put away my clean clothes
2. unpack suitcase from my last trip so that I can re-pack for upcoming trip
3. order book for new class....hopefully 1/2 priced books has it
4. Get DBA, mail off papers
5. schedule meeting of the minds
6. compose letter for sponsorships and speakers
7. CLEAN OUT CLOSET!!!!
8. mop the floors
9. take car to dealership...see what that light is all about!

Now do you see my plight? I've got so much to do, and my want to is pretty much non existent! I AM SO READY FOR SCHOOL TO BE OUT!!! Love my lady of leisure summer days!

Please, if you see me, ask me how I'm doing...and I'll come back and update you all! Goodnight!

Family Ties

2010-04-30T10:37:00.003-05:00

If you know me at all...(seriously, I wonder how many times that phrase has appeared on my blog), then you know I am a total Daddy's girl! Hands down, he literally hung the moon, and is the best man on the planet!

BUT-- for Mother's Day weekend, my Mom and I are flying to Mississippi together to be with my grandmother and aunts! Y'all, I am so excited! Mainly because my Mom and her sisters are the most hilarious women on the planet. And my cousins....well just 9 of my closest friends!

Back to my Mom and her sisters...there's never a dull moment. We are always guaranteed to eat well, laugh a lot, and shop even more. I promise you, these ladies can make the most out of a shopping day...they wear me out! For example, when I was there for Christmas, we went to the mall 10 out of the 12 days that I was there....and those 2 free days, were holidays! We feel it's our duty to stimulate the economy! HA!

I've been anticipating this weekend since I bought my plane ticket...about a month ago! And, it's almost here. I love my family! They are the coolest people on the planet, and for the most part, we get along rather well.

--I interrupt this regularly scheduled program to let you know that I just received an e-mail from Priscilla Shirer's office....she can't come, BUT there's always a ram in the bush, and I've got some fabulous things planned....don't worry people...I will meet her one day...and it will be great!

So, I just had to hop in here and share my excitement with you....my faithful readers....I'm sure your Friday is now complete...HA! Oh, and for all of my Texas peeps....the beast known as TAKS is OVER! Praise Jesus....it's so hard to be quiet for that long...I like to teach....and actively watching the tops of heads is no bueno! But, until next year!

Have a fabulous Friday, and I just may be back later with pics from our End of TAKS celebration!!! Make today count...God loves you!

Update and Coupon Maintenance!

2010-04-29T22:08:00.003-05:00

So yesterday I had a meeting and TOTALLY planned out what the next few months will look like legally speaking! It was exciting, but I left totally overwhelmed...not a regular emotion for me!

I mean, I know I can do it, but there are SO many details, and generally speaking, I'm a big picture person. I like to vision cast, and can easily identify next steps, but when it comes to the minute-by-minute....not my strong side! Luckily for me, most of my close friends are detail hunters, and they've got my back. Once I get a few of the paperwork duckies in a row, I'm going to have a 'meeting of the minds,' so I can delegate some of these tasks to much more capable people!

On the drive home, I found myself really shocked at the possibilities, but I was reminded that God predestined my steps before my Mother ever knew she'd be a momma, heck before her momma's momma momma knew....and that I've just settled for what I see, not what God can do in my life! Trust me though...I'm taking it one day at a time because God's blessings can knock a girl off of her feet!

I know you're probably chomping at the bit for more details, but honestly right now...I don't have them. I have a notebook with pages and pages of notes, ideas, names, contacts, addresses, etc...but I promise to keep you updated, and I KNOW I'll need your opinion, so please stick around!

Now-- It's Show Us Your Life at Kelly's Korner, and the subject is money saving tips. Now, I'm not the biggest finance guru...far from it to say the least, but I have a few tricks of the trade!

I keep a cute little leather pocket deal in my purse full of my coupons. That way, when I get them in the mail, I just stick them right in there, and when I go to the store, they're ready. Also, if you're a teacher, you get a discount at New York and Company, Barnes & Noble, Waldenbooks, Books a Million...can you think of any others?

A lot of people decline this option, but I use one of my old e-mail addresses for stores to have. You'd be surprised how many stores let you know by e-mail when great sales are happening, and they'll even e-mail coupons. Stores like The Gap, Banana Republic, Express, NY&Co, etc will take the email version of the coupon if you show them on your cell phone!

Don't miss out on these coupons because you don't want to give away your e-mail...it's worth it!

I never go to the grocery store without a list...EVER!!!! I save so much money this way!

If you don't take your lunch to work....do it! This too saves money, and often times inches on your waistline! Being a single gal, I always have left overs, so I try to take them to work.

I'm sure you have many more tips....this is certainly something I need to work on!

Goodnight! Tomorrow is the last day of TAKS...our state assessment! Hallelujah!

Can pride EVER be Holy...HA?

2010-04-26T10:36:00.009-05:00

Because if so, I am so GODLY proud of what I got a chance to participate in...

Well, I'm back, and my trip was AMAZING!!! Y'all, I had so much fun, ate SO MUCH...(I need to cleanse), and God spoke in the car just like I thought He would, and gave me the most amazing gift e.v.e.r!!!

I'll give you a day-by-day! So get ready....it was a packed weekend!

FRIDAY:
I left work during my conference period, and hit the road! I waited a bit on my sweet tea so that I could stop at Bucee's! Does your state have a Bucee's? If not...oh my word!!! You are missing out! I may have gotten a chicken salad wrap, and I may have also gotten a huge bag of brite crawlers...maybe!

I arrived in Waco with enough time to head home, change, and hop in the car to head to the middle school. Taylor and three of her classmates put on a PALS project for middle school girls. We were dressed in our PJ's, and had cute event shirts! The event was called 'Defying Gravity,' and the stage WAS SO CUTE!!! Tracy and I were blown away that the girls did so much on their own! It looked so professional....I was such a proud big sister!

My job was to talk skin care etc., with middle.school.girls! Oh my word! I kept thanking God over and over that I teach high school! They were so........EXTRA!!! Y'all, I'm exhausted just thinking about them. Whew...it was quite a night, and I taught 4 sessions!

The event hosted an amazing speaker, Joy Elliot, wife to Lynn Elliot, former Dallas Cowboy. Her story is amazing, and the girls really identified with her!

We made it home...to bed right around 1 a.m. Just in time for the huge storm to hit....welcome back to Waco! HA! Needless to say, I slept like a baby!

SATURDAY:
Slept in a little bit, but was up and at 'em so that we could go shopping! I was able to get some kolaches from West....sweet heaven on earth! We picked up some things for Taylor, and I picked up my Mom's Mother's Day gift, and a pair of yellow box flip-flops for me....do you know them? If not....you are missing out! The most comfortable flip-flops ever!

We made a little excursion to Hobby Lobby...and Tracy told me to get some things for a project that we could work on later...true story! You can go to her house and make just about anything...so I was pumped. I got a couple of sheets of scrapbook paper to work on these frames. Aren't they cute?! I'm so happy with how they turned out!

Lunch at Chuy's...can you believe it, Waco has a Chuy's...followed by more shopping! Then, my allergies were so bad that we ended up heading home, and I crashed! I couldn't have done another thing if I tried! I woke up around 10:00 ready for dinner of course!

SUNDAY:
I was actually able to sleep in. So much so that I ended up having a brunch of....drumroll please...BUSH'S! Then, Tracy said my favorite words..."you want to do your craft now?!" Umm! yeah! And we made so many frames...and they were SO CUTE! I couldn't believe how easy it was. She's going to sell them, and I'm just going to make them for gifts...neither of us really have the time, but did I mention how cute they are!

WHAT'S IN THE WORKS:So...I mentioned a conversation that I had with Him while on the road, and I'll give you as many details as I have right now. I feel led to hold a Christian youth conference for girls, in the 7th-12th grades. As a teacher, it is not always politically correct for me to share about God, even though I do! I love it because there are girls in my first period that will 'remind' me to say my morning prayers if I seem a little on edge..they are PK's...love them!

I digress-- SO, the planning is in the baby stages right now...I'm trying to secure a speaker, and I'm working with my friend Sarah on the venue...DISCLOSURE: the next few paragraphs will be ALL OVER THE PLACE!!! Stay with me.

So, for the speaker...do you know who I e-mailed, tweeted, and put a beautifully hand written snail mail letter in the mailbox yesterday? Have you any guesses? I've shared my undying love and devotion for her here, and here, and I read her blog EVERYDAY!!! I may be obsessed...just slightly..HA!

If you've never met Priscilla Shirer, and by that, I mean having read any of her Bible studies, then seriously, what are you waiting for! Her stories are so hilarious, and they make you feel totally normal...trust me! Anyway, I know it's a long shot...I know she's a really big deal, but I just might have an inside hook-up that I sure wasn't afraid to use!! NO SHAME HERE! I'm kind of chuckling just thinking about what I have just done, but seriously...it means that much to me...and here's why!

I did a little poll from twitter and my FB friends asking for noted Christian youth speakers...and you know the ONLY name that I came up with....yep...HER! So, I'm taking that, and running with it. If you have any names, then feel free to share..but it made me sad that there really aren't a lot of people out there for the youth...specifically young girls. I guess that's why I feel so strongly. I had so many women pouring into my life....SO MANY, and I know that is why I'm so cool now...OK...I'm joking, but it was awesome having these people in my life that I could go to, hear their stories, and learn from their mistakes..I want to be that to someone else.

For the sake of the length of this post, I'm going to end it...and PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE say a prayer that Mrs. Shirer have mercy on my over zealous heart, and grace these babies with her presence. PLEASE!!! (Again, I'm chuckling that I can even type these words in the same sentence...but God is BIG enough...) Can you imagine how their lives would be changed?? Can you? I get goose bumps just thinking about it...if nothing else, maybe we can get on her calendar for 2012...because yes folks...she's booked through NEXT YEAR! Can we say turning water into wine....BUT GOD!

Goodnight friends..and don't forget about that really small prayer request...LOL!

Me, My Tea, and My Tunes

2010-04-22T10:34:00.003-05:00

Today...has been a day...well really, this week has been a week! I don't know about you all, but I am ready for the weekend! I need to think...do you know what I mean?

On a normal day, at a normal time, a lot is swimming around in this head of mine...so you can imagine the movie reel that is playing out right now. It's enough to keep my exhausted and napping...ha! Lucky for me, I've got a drive to Waco coming up (you know..to visit my vanilla family, and help Taylor with her PALS project), and long drives always help me clear my head. It's something about being on the open road, with my iTunes playing on my iPhone....talking to God, listening, worshipping....drinking sweet tea from Chick-Fil-A....notice how I slid that in there....told ya I was obsessed!

I am often so guilty of asking the opinion of my close friends, that I sometimes have too many opinions floating around in my head, and really don't know which way to go! Are you starting to see just how all over the place I can be?! It's ridiculous!

I digress..I should return from my trip to Waco refreshed, and with a gameplan...Lord knows I need one, and the quiet time alone...no kids, no husband...just kidding, but seriously, no 167 kids calling my name, and pulling me one hundred different directions.

Have a Happy Earth Day bf's! Give back to the Earth that gives so much to us!

HONEST SCRAP RECIPIENTS:
I want to award the following blogs with the honest scrap award! It's an honor to pass it on!

Jessica at From Marriage to Motherhood
Melissa at Stafford Moments
Corrie at Sea of Corrie
Nicki at Nicksterland
Ashley at Ashley's Avenue

In all Honesty!

2010-04-21T20:32:00.005-05:00

I received another blog award today, and I dont' know what to do with myself! Thanks Kelsey...I'm honored...honestly..HA!

Kelsey mentioned 10 random things about herself, and I thought I'd do the same!

1. I have a sweet obsession with sweet tea, and I'm convinced that if I gave it up, I'd lose that last 20 pounds!

2. I love reading blogs. I could do it all day if...you know, I didn't have a job!

3. I have an obsession with the overuse of (...) and (!)...! see?!

4. I do but I don't want to teach summer school this summer. What do you think? I'm divided!

5. I follow the same morning routine EVERY morning...without deviation!

6. I like room temperature bottled water...cold makes my head hurt.

7. I hate working out...I'd rather not eat bad foods!

8. My favorite Tyler candle is 'DIVA!' Have you met her? She smells wonderful!

9. I love colored markers, SHARPIES, and cute notecards!!! LOVE THEM!

10. I miss the chicken salad from Amelia's in Waco...like for real!

Hope you enjoyed reading my randomness for tonight, and thanks again Kelsey!
My allergies are still kicking my butt, so much so that I slept 4 hours today after work! It was AWESOME!!! Enjoy your night bf's!

Still waiting...

2010-04-21T09:15:00.003-05:00

WOW!! I had no idea that my last post would evoke such emotions from you, my lovely readers....thank you for your encouragement, but for now, I'm still not ready!

I promise the publish button will be hit soon...just not today! Is that cool?! Sorry peeps, y'all know this is a struggle for me!

Yesterday, I worked out outside, and my allergies are kicking butt today! They actually started soon after I got back inside, and they still haven't let up. I have a huge tickle in my nose, and throat....yuck!

This week seems to be going by a little too slow for me. I'm headed to Waco this weekend to spend a little time with my vanilla family...ha! Taylor has a PALS project that I am helping her out on, and I couldn't be more excited. I get to teach middle school girls about proper skin care, and more importantly how 'less is more.' It should be pretty fun! I'll have pics to post later!

I don't know if I mentioned this, but I am going to Mississippi for Mother's Day. Mom and I are connecting in Houston and flying together to Jackson. I.can't.wait! I love going to MS to spend time with my family....I'm sure I'll have lots of laughs, and of course...pics to share!

Hope your hump day is going well friends! Catch you later!

Because that would be awkward wouldn't it...?

2010-04-18T23:34:00.003-05:00

I have a confession. I've been holding out for the last couple of weeks, and to be honest, I don't know when I'm going to give you all full disclosure. I want to, but oh what a struggle this is. To be completely open, 'naked,' exposed....because what if it all blows up in my face, and here it is, for all the world to see!

I know that I really shouldn't be thinking about this, and just in case you're wondering about the valuable moments I may have missed due to not blogging...I have it all typed out...in posts... I'm just too chicken to hit the publish key!

Don't laugh at me...ok, you can laugh...go right ahead!

This made me feel better...

2010-04-14T19:37:00.004-05:00

Today was a very trying day! I'm sure teachers across the nation can attest to this, but my kids are losing it...which causes their teacher to lose it! I had to raise my voice, and do a litt 'woo-sah' cycles....But, today two things made me happy...I had dinner with my BFF, and when I got home, a lovely package was waiting for me!

A couple of days ago, I ordered some accessories from Francesca's! All of it was on sale...well, except for the ring...I couldn't resist! But I'm talking a major sale here....two pair of the earrings were $6.00, and the other two were pretty cheap as well. I believe the necklace was $12.00!!

Needless to say...this made my day...and I immediately tried on every piece of jewelry...I can't wait to pair them with clothes! There's only one thing that could have made this day end any better, but I guess I will just have to wait until tomorrow!

Have a great night friends! I'll catch your guys tomorrow!

Amy Beth!

2010-04-12T23:30:00.003-05:00

One of the greatest things about having a blog is that readers whom you don't even know stumble across your pages, and hopefully grab something they can call their own, and learn from.
One of my friends Amy Beth has a blog, owns her own business, touches the lives of probably 400+ girls, gives of herself freely, seriously...I could go on, and she's only 25. But today, I read a post from her that no one wants to see someone they care for go through. You can read that post here, but just know that it's the sucky of all suckiest (excuse my poor choice of words) situation.

Tomorrow, those that know her, and those that don't are banding together to pray for her....literally from all over the country, and quite possibly the world. Oh yes...she's that much of a big deal, and when you read her blog...you'll understand! If you feel so inclined, say a prayer for her. The Bible says "where two or three are gathered in His name, there He is in the midst of them." He's needed...to show up in a mighty way!

I ask that you pray specifically for: peace, her doctors, comfort, strength, healing, and whatever else the spirit leads you to pray. While the situation looks grim right now, we know whom we serve, and God is able...without a doubt we know that!

Have a great night friends, and I hope you'll join me in prayer!

~J

Monday Ramblings...

2010-04-12T12:17:00.004-05:00

Have you ever felt like this? I'm pretty sure I've mentioned this before, but I am the "Queen of Overthinking." But today, I'm putting my foot down to doubt, second guessing myself, and my personal area in which I hold a Ph.D....motives dissection!

I've read my normal amount of blogs this morning, and my peeps are experiencing some tough times...and having some really bad days....even my kids are off the chain today...GEESH, can a girl catch a break!?!

On a happier note...this weekend I purchased my tickets for the Jill Scott and Maxwell concert! Oh my! I can't wait. This will be my third time hearing Jill in concert....I'm super excited! Oh, and Maxwell is easy on the eyes..so that alone makes my heart sing!

I wanted to take a pic of my really cute outfit today...I'm not normally like that, but I think it's cute. It's a H&M dress that I got for a whopping $12.95. My Gap cardigan is more than the dress! HA! I think I have it accessorized pretty cute too...here's one of my fun rings I got from Charming Charlie's. Does your town have one?? If not, you're missing out sisters!

Isn't it cute?! I thought so! Well, I hope this Monday makes a turnaround for you peeps....I'm on the downward slope to my day, so it's all good over here!

Catch you later gators!

May 27/28, 2010

2010-04-11T10:34:00.007-05:00

Today I woke up thankful! When I look back to this time last year....I've come such a long way! I was miserable by the way...so uncharateristically unlike me! But today, I've got joy in my heart, and pep in my step...cornball...I know!

This has been a pretty low key weekend! Friday I literally ran out of the school building as the final bell sounded. Just as I was getting in the car to head home, Malitta called...asking if I had any plans with the boy, and if not, let's have a girls night! Well...no plans with said boy, so girls night it was!

I had just enough time to take a nap, and had just fallen into a REM cycle when my phone rang...it was Malitta, super excited because she had just seen the SATC II movie trailer!

Mal: "J, guess what, I just saw the SATC II movie trailer, and guess who Carrie sees while on vacation, and starts having feelings for again?"

Me: -insert dramatic gasp- said in unison, "AIDAN!"

You see friends...Malitta and I spent the better part of 4 months watching SATC from start to finish...Aidan was my fave...sorry Big, but I've never been a fan of fickle men...10 years...umm, don't think so! So, I can't wait to see how/what/when/where/why...oh the wait is killing me!

I love everything about SATC...the fashion, the friendships, the shopping, the eating....the stories because seriously, everyone has a friend like on of those ladies...it's total girl overload, and I love it!

In This Season...

2010-04-08T13:04:00.004-05:00

Fear rules my life alot! From the big decisions, right down to the little ones. Lately, I've been placed in certain situations that have shown me just how run by fear I really am. I keep asking myself how I got to this place, someone so confident, has a relationship with the Lord...yet FEARS and DOUBTS everything! I'm guilty of not trying things if I'm not 100% confident that I will succeed at them. But then that's like a double sin because I'm making myself my source of strength, and not God, on top of the fear and doubt....UGH!

It is so exhausting....sometimes, I think of a million different ways something can play out. We've all been there before...what if this and what if that...but the sad thing is I know who holds my tomorrow, so I should never have to fear and doubt.

I googled images of FEAR, and I couldn't resist putting this up...it's HILARIOUS to me! I actually laughed out loud!!! Poor doggie!

Scriptures on Fear:

2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.
Psalm 27:1 The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?
Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.
Genesis 26:24 I am the God of your father Abraham; do not fear, for I am with you.

...and my personal fave:

Mark 4:40 But He said to them, "Why are you so fearful? How is it that you have no faith?

It feels so good to go to the Word when I'm needing direction. I've said it many times before, but I seriously don't know what I would do without my relationship with Christ. So, if you're the praying type...mention my name will you?! I'd really appreciate it!

April Pollen?

2010-04-05T21:51:00.006-05:00

Happy April! I can't believe that I haven't posted in the last few days! We have been having some beautiful days here in Houston! I mean absolutely gorgeous. The only downfall is the yellow cloud that has seemed to settled among us...better known as POLLEN! YUCK!

This is just about how bad the pollen is!!! I'm getting car washes every week, but I could probably use them wice a week! It's just that bad!

Oh, and the Alicia Keys' concert was AMAZING!!! I sang my little heart out! I had such a great time!

So..how are you guys? I hope this week is a great one...I'll be back later to post more...

~Nite!

Broken Trust

2010-03-31T12:55:00.002-05:00

I know-- a double post, literally within hours of each other! I can explain! I'm being tested...in the very area that I just blogged about...LOVE! Didn't know God was an ironic fella did you?!

Truthfully-- my first response was to 'set them straight.' I mean, how could you say that I said something, when I honestly didn't say it?! How could you tell a lie on me? Y'all...I loathe this type of behavior...especially in adults! It so reminds me of my high school and college days...and it makes me sad. Sad for a few reasons....one, being that I so need to work on my love. You know, the love I just spoke about. Because my initial reaction was not one born of love. I was hot, fired up...ready to blow... but... I caught myself...and called my voice of reason...the friend who helps me when this hot temper gets a little out of control.

My state of mind now....I'm still warm, and hurt...because my trust with this person is broken, and sadly...I am not as far as I thought I was...on this journey to show God's love, his redemptive, forgiving love....but in the midst of it all, I heard Him speak to me...questioning why it was OK for Him to be lied about, and not me?! OUCH!

So to sum it all up...I don't know how to correct/approach this. I don't know what I should do. All I know is that my prayer this morning was for Him to teach me to love people beyond what I am capable...and He's going to make sure He does!

Loving Well

2010-03-31T11:14:00.003-05:00

I have an obsession with painting my nails....and I've become REALLY good at it! Of course I still get my bi-weekly manicures, but weekly, I relish in changing my nail polish. I'm always on the hunt for the perfect color...and now that it's Spring....it's ON!

Today's color of choice, a throwback...cotton candy! But who knows what's in store for tomorrow. I'm thinking hot pink...or maybe Aphrodite's Pink Nightie...yes, that's a color thanks to OPI!

I started a new quiet time devotional today: Beth Moore's Loving Well. The first day, and I'm already underlining, growing, and really wanting to learn to love God's way. One of the questions from today: 'What marked change or transformation has come about in the way I love?' Geesh....not enough lines. Maybe because I am such a sinner, yet a perfect God loves me inspite of my flaws. Or the fact that 'love bears all things,' and here lately, I have come face-to-face with what that really means. Or how about the fact that God measures maturity by how we love. I could go on and on!

One of the snippets I underlined at the end of today's prayer: 'Teach me to love others well by giving of myself-- even beyond what I am capable.' Talk about from my heart to God's ears.

It can be exhausting to love, and sometimes, that love can be unreturned. But who am I to think that if the God of the universe can be unloved despite His endless love for His children, that I won't experience some of that? I am not always at the top of my game. I'd even venture to say that most days I fail, in a major way. But, the desire is still the same. To love as God loves....and with a goal like that, I'm bound to get better eventually!

I don't know what to do...

2010-03-30T11:05:00.004-05:00

Hello Friends!
I'm here today with a decision to make. First of all...let me say this...it's nothing life threatening... and I'm looking more specifically for your prayers than advice....does that sound good?!

Because of my school schedule and work responsibilities...I really need guidance on what my role in the Youth ministry at my church is going to look like. The desire to serve and lead is still there...the desire to work on curriculum is still there...but I'm running into the problem of not being able to 'be all things to everyone.'

If you know me in real life, then you know that I hate not being able to do something...to give up responsibilities....to admit that I really can't 'do it all.' However....I am at this point.

Allow me to back up.

Back in the Fall, I began praying for a few things in particular. Specifically how God would use my time/talents, etc in this season of singleness. I started feeling like I spent too much time wondering 'when,' and not operating in a 'now' spirit. I think I actually believed that if I just waited out my days...God would alter His plans and send him sooner....um, yeah...not so much! Thanks to a lady who poured into my life so much at Baylor...I received a little deliverance!

Right around that time...a position for Assistant Cheer Coach became open at my school. (I know I don't really mention the cheerleaders a lot...however, my blog is essentially open for anyone in the world to read, and I have to keep their security and privacy my #1 concern), however...my reluctance to mention them is no indication of the affection I have for these girls. Simply stated...they ROCK!

I digress. I immediately wanted to take this job if given the oportunity, but at that time I already feared that I was over committed. My prayer became that God would have His way...that He would either open or close the door, and that I would be good with that.

Obviously, He opened the door, and I haven't looked back since. My goal from the beginning would be that those girls would see God in me...that I could be someone they could look up to...(in a non-prideful way). I can only hope.pray.cross my fingers that I am being a good role model...sometimes I truly feel like I've missed the mark with these kids...you know, when you have all the patience in the world until they actually force you to use it! Can I get an AMEN parents?

Because of the responsibilities I have with the Cheerleaders, I became less and less available for the youth ministry. However, my heart always remained torn, because I really wanted to do both...technically...I couldn't because I have yet to figure out how to cut myself in half without making a mess.

So much guilt surrounded this time in my life. The relationships I left in suspense with the youth...was I being effective in any area of my life?! Just a mess!

So here's where I need prayer. My responsibilities aren't getting any smaller. I'm wrapping up the process to become a school administrator, and with that...comes major time restraints and long days. But what do I do? Do I continue to sit where I am, which is not really involved with the youth ministry on a day to day basis, or do I dive back in?

I realized a couple of months ago that I'm guilty of over working myself so that I don't feel the sting of not being where I want to be. That's not healthy...godly...or good! I want to be intentional in everything that I do. More importantly, I want to be in the will of God.

I don't take the fact that I can come here and ask you for prayer lightly. I know that not everyone girl is as lucky as I, and for that, I'm truly thankful! However, I so want to make the best choice...God's choice. I'm not giving up the Cheerleaders...I truly feel that God has a plan there, and I can't begin to telly ou what I've gotten out of it already...such an amazing friend in the Head Coach. I digress...AGAIN!

Anywho...it saddens me to think that I may think the youth at my church are dispensible. They are not, but I simply cannot do everything, and if God can work it out so that I can do it all, then I'm all ears. Prayers. PLEASE!

Thanks friends!

Lions.and.Tigers.and BEARS...OH MY!!!!

2010-03-29T21:12:00.005-05:00

Did you hear the news???!!! Yes my friends...the Baylor Women have advanced to the Final Four....my shoulder is dislocated (not really), my voice is hoarse, and my team WON!!! I am beside myself with happiness!

My Dad was at the farm tonight...no cable there, and we shared the last few moments of the game over the phone...it was incredible! I am so danggone proud of these girls...mostly freshmen! What an awesome team we will have next year! And that GRINER...geesh...she has to be at least 6'4''!!! Her feet are HUGE!!!! No shot gets past her...what a great game!

I am looking for tickets now to the game in San Antonio on Sunday...I have to be there!

I was going to post pics of my finds from Virginia, but that will have to wait until tomorrow....this post belongs to the BEARS!!!

It's going to take a whole lot of belief to beat UConn! They are an AWESOME team!!! BUT...I BELIEVE in my BEARS!!! What a great day to be a BAYLOR BEAR!!!!

I'm Back!

2010-03-28T21:53:00.004-05:00

I didn't anticipate not blogging while I was out of town, but that's the way it happened! Does it count that I missed getting on here, and that I have a little notepad filled with thoughts that I had to potentially blog about?

Blogging has become my release, and you can imagine that I was in my head a bit while flying to Virginia....random question, but can someone...Julie...explain to me how VA is considered the South? Hey, I'm not arguing the fact...their sweet tea is amazing, and we all know that sweet tea is the official drink of the South!

My favorite part of the trip was while shopping...the clerk tilting her head and saying, "you're not from around here are you?" I guess my southern accent was a little too obvious.... although...I don't think I'm 'country' at all! HA!

I got a few goodies of course...mainly from H&M! I'll do a post later to show you, but for now, you're stuck with me!

My Bears lost to Duke tonight...so sad...so so so sad, but I am SO proud of them! If you don't know our history as a Baylor family with the Men's BB program, then you can't understand how proud we are of our Bears! We have come a LONG way, and at this time last year, making it to the Elite Eight was a loooong shot!!! So...with all of that said, I'm a proud BAYLOR BEAR! The girls are still in the Championship...they play tomorrow against Duke. I am confident they'll get the job done...Lord let it be!

I could write for another hour or so, but I've got to get ready for work tomorrow. It's a short week for me...

Ramblings and Such on a Wednesday Morning!

2010-03-24T09:54:00.006-05:00

I need a vacation! I know that I am just coming off from a week long Spring Break, but I have some things on my to-do list that need my immediate attention, and I honestly don't know when I'll have to cross them off! It's nothing major, just things that I know need to be done!

Today is kind of a big day for me. I mentioned this vaguely a couple of weeks ago, and while I know I haven't taken the time to blog about it....know that I will. I guess I don't feel the release yet to post it on my blog....but I do covet your prayers...trust that God knows what I need, and He will provide. Thanks bf's (blog friends)!

Tomorrow I am flying to Virginia to visit my Momma! I am so excited!!! Of course to see her, but she told me that there's an HM!!! Be still my little 'ole heart! I LOVE LOVE LOVE HM!!!! I don't know what to do with myself...besides seriously to STOP SHOPPING!!!

Maybe while I am visiting her, I can get some work done. We are both in school for our Master's, so I know I will have some downtime!

Have a great hump day peeps!! The weekend is almost here!

My very first...

2010-03-22T21:06:00.005-05:00

BLOG AWARD

I can't believe it! I've won my very first blog award given to me by the lovely Miss Julie! Do you like it? Isn't it GREAT!

Of all the awards I can win, I'm so glad this was my first one! What an honor to be considered a beautiful blog! Thank you Julie! I can't wait for you to get your gifts!

As part of my reward, I get to pass this award on to other bloggers who I believe have Beautiful Blogs:
Becca at The Ross'
Jessica at Marriage and Motherhood
Lyndsie at A Love Worth Waiting For
Amy Beth at Ministry So Fabulous

Today was a great day back, but when my alarm went off, I wanted to crawl back under the covers. UGH! BUT, on a good note, 9 more Mondays until the end of the year! That has to count for something huh?

Because the week before school ended all afterschool cheer practices, I got a chance to run a couple of errands afterschool. You know, an oil change, car wash, and of course...a stop at Target for some essentials! I even had a chance to affix a 'Baylor Alumni' sticker to my car...I'll snap a pic for ya! I'm pretty proud of it!

Oh, and tonight, I tried a new recipe...Tomatillo Soup! I had some tomatillos from my trip to the Farmer's Market, and it came out SO GOOD!! It was so easy to make!

Now, I'm folding laundry, picking up around the house, and just about to do a little homework! Life is good people...life is good, and I am really SO SO blessed!

Goodnight!

All Good Things Must Come to an End...

2010-03-21T20:28:00.005-05:00

Well! It was a GLORIOUS week off, and they say that all good things come to an end! Spring Break...I'll miss you so!

On a happier note, BAYLOR MEN'S BASKETBALL is headed to the Sweet 16...to be played in Houston, TX no less! We've definitely had some rocky days with the Men's BB program, but I am so happy that we've taken a turn towards higher heights! I couldn't be happier to be a Baylor Bear!

While in Waco, I bought a couple of Baylor t-shirts because I'm thinking I'll support my team ALL week! HA! Hey..I did it when the girls won, and I'm a firm believer in, if it ain't broke, don't fix it!

And, since we're on the topic of basketball...is this the year of the underdog OR WHAT? Did anyone else see that upset by Northern Iowa yesterday? Poor Kansas...I felt so bad for the fella that was crying...UGH!

But, these guys! These guys kicked butt yesterday! Look at them:

And our coach ain't too shabby either! He has the heart and the knowledge to lead our boys to the Big Dance! Friday can't get here soon enough!

I'm very excited to see what this conference brings! Anticipating this win makes this week seem not so bad!

This SERIOUSLY Makes Me Cringe...

2010-03-19T23:57:00.007-05:00

Double post...scroll down for my recap of my visit to Waco!

In this post I documented my little weight loss journey, and I promised you all pics! Well, I want to be a woman of my word, but oh my! I honestly didn't realize how huge I was until this very moment.

You know they say that when you lose a lot of weight you still kind of have the same thought patterns of your former size. I would have to say that to a certain extent, that's true. It's still hard for me to go my 'now' size...I always want to pick the 'old' size...but after looking at these pics...how dare I EVER ate those mini brownies! MAJOR GUILT HERE!

I know that every single one of these pics came from my FB account, but it's just something about putting them on my blog for any and everyone to see. However, if anyone reading this is in my shoes, I want to show my journey so that maybe I can offer you some hope! So, without further delay...here goes nothing!

THEN

NOW

Today's Stats: about 40 lbs., and 4 sizes!

Going Back...

2010-03-19T23:13:00.004-05:00

WOW! It's Friday night, and while that thought doesn't make me sad, the fact that my Spring Break is basically over brings about a little sigh!

To say that I have enjoyed myself these past 7 days would be the ultimate understatement! I've relaxed, shopped, slept, shopped, drank so much sweet tea I'm sure my bladder will never be the same, and reconnected with some really sweet people from my journey!

As my last post stated, I took a little day trip to Waco on Thursday! Y'all know that I graduated from Baylor...sic 'em, (beat Old Dominion), and lived there for 10 years. I lovingly say that I was raised in Copperas Cove, but I grew up in Waco. What a true statement.

I have SO many memories from Waco. Some good, some bad, but all of them have made me who I am today! So, when I arrived, my first stop was to University High School! This is the home of my very first teaching job ever! Most of my buddies still work there, and it was SO good to see them! I clearly remember standing outside that first morning, pulling duty, and talking with Kelsey and Andrew...wondering seriously, what had we signed up to do! We were all brand new teaching babies, and were pretty much scared to death! BUT, today...we pretty much ROCK! I walked into my principal's office, and declared.."I'm here to get a job..." his reply, "I'll write you a contract on a paper towel..." He said he'd take me back any day! Such a great man to work for!

The above pic was taken the day before my first day of school right outside of my very first classroom. My beautiful friends and sorority sisters came to help me decorate my room because your girl was panicking in a MAJOR way! They were so shocked that I didn't have it all together, but I was a nervous wreck, but they stepped in and helped me get the job done. My room was SUPER cute by the way! Love them!

I only planned on staying at UHS for about an hour, but of course...I stayed 2 1/2! It was worth it though! After I left there, I headed to JH Hines! Now, before I became a teacher, I worked for a non-profit organization for 5 years. I.Loved.This. Job! I ran my own after-school site. I was responsible for about 90 children, and 10 staff! We had so much fun! The staff and I were all Baylor peeps, and we really loved each other. We would go out for dinner, hang out at each other's houses...it was an awesome place to work!

The teachers at Hines taught me SO MUCH! They are all seasoned teachers, and have been in the field 20+ years. I look up to them even today as I teach my own students. These ladies are from the old school, but totally kick butt with the technology! Needless to say, I love them! They oooh'd and aaah'd over me for a couple of hours! I ate it up! Of course, they all grabbed my left hand looking for "good news!" HA! I told them to keep praying...he was coming! My heart was so full after leaving these great people! I'm so glad they had their Spring Break last week so that I could visit with them all this week!

I loved my visit in Waco! It was so worth the time! I realized that I've made some really great friendships in that little city, and it was nice to reconnect!

Waco Bound!

2010-03-18T09:57:00.004-05:00

I'm just popping in here really quickly as I'm on my way to WACO! YAY for that!

Have a great Thursday, and I'll be back later with pics from my trip!

She's Girly, and Sassy, and She's a WINNER!

2010-03-17T22:53:00.005-05:00

Hey guys! I'm so excited about my very first giveaway results, and we have a winner! I read this young lady's blog EVERYDAY, and we have a lot of in common....BUT, I don't have a cute dog, and I live in Texas, however, I will be in Virginia next week if that counts...does that give you a hint? Virginia?!

That's right...Brown Eyed Belle Julie is the winner. I promise I did the random integer (it was 3), but I didn't think to take a pic of it with my iPhone, so you'll just have to trust me! HA! Julie, please e-mail me with your address so I can get your pink box 'o goodies to you!

That was fun, and I can't wait until my next one! I hope you like your goodies Julie!

Today was a fun day! I woke up fairly early for a day off, and packed up my car and headed to my parent's house! I.Love.Coming.Home!!! It was a BEAUtiful day to drive. Such perfect weather! I listened to great music and sang my heart out the entire way.

When I got home, my Dad whisked me away to Home Depot and Lowe's! YAY~!!! Gotta love those stores! That's OK though...he took me to Cheddar's and Target afterwards...needless to say, I was a happy girl!

Tomorrow, I'm going to Waco! Suprisingly, I really can't wait! I loved living in Waco, and although I'm glad I don't live there anymore, I always enjoy going back for a visit. I have many stops on my list, among them is University High School...home of the Trojans, and my VERY FIRST teaching job! I can't wait to see everyone there! I loved working there.

So, I'll have tons of pics to share with you! Goodnight bf's!!! Sleep tight!

Winner Coming!

2010-03-17T17:15:00.000-05:00

Hey guys!
I came to visit my Dad, and he has me in Home Depot right now! I will post the winner as soon as I get home. I want to be fair and use the random integer! See you in a few...I'm off to look at ceiling fans...yay!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Single Girl's Brownies!

2010-03-16T21:43:00.009-05:00

Disclaimer: YES! I'm talking about brownies in the post following my post on weight loss. Yes, I ate vanilla ice cream with my brownie bites..., and YES...I am almost certain I'll go back for seconds...TONIGHT!!! (Hey--I've worked out everyday since Sunday...it's all good!)

First things first...HELLO NEW FOLLOWERS!!! I'm glad you're here! So, today was a great day! I slept in, cleaned, did laundry which you know I love, and made an appt for an afternoon massage, and went to the gym...YUCK! Oh baby! That massage was WONDERFUL! Now, I've had my fair share of massages, but my tech today did her thing! I promptly made my appt for the next two weeks. It was just that good!

After my massage, I headed to The Container Store. I'm working on a little project in my bathroom cabinet, and we all know just how helpful that store is. I'll post before and after pics as soon as I finish.

After TCS, I headed to Target for BROWNIES! I had the big idea to buy a mini cupcake pan to bake the brownies in...why you ask? Because the edge pieces are my favorite of course, and I figure, I can have all edge pieces. Well, while picking out my brownie flavor, I ran across what I like to call Single Girl's Brownies. Why?! Because there are two pans included, 2 pouches, and each pouch makes 6 brownies. NO LEFTOVERS!!!! Now, I only baked one of the pouches, but I'm telling you...how cool is this setup?! Look...I even took pics for you to see:

The brownies came out perfect! They were crunchy on the outside, and so soft and gooey on the inside! They were absolutely wonderful! I highly recommend you seeing for yourself, and trying them!

Now, my feet are propped up, and I'm watching 16 and Pregnant...I know...don't judge me! Spring Break is awesome!!! My cup is running over!

Tomorrow, I'm heading to the dirty Cove via Waco to spend some time with my Daddy! Love that man! Goodnight bf's!!!

P.S. Don't forget to enter the giveaway....it ends tomorrow!

The Weight is Over!

2010-03-15T14:59:00.004-05:00

Over the last few months, I've gotten quite a few questions about the weight that I have lost. How? How much? What did you do, etc?! I even mentioned a few weeks ago that I would do this post, so here goes everything!!!

My serious weight loss started two summers ago. I hired a professional trainer and worked out with him four days a week for one hour. It.was.brutal!!! The things that he made me do, I thought that I'd never be able to do them, but I did! Now... I'm a teacher, so I had the time to dedicate to working out. That summer, my schedule was meet with him in the mornings, and I worked out alone in the evenings. I would go walking...however, not just a leisure walk. My parent's house is situated in a neighborhood with huge hills. I would walk those hills with a vengeance. Of course, I ate only fruits and veggies, no sodas, fried foods only once a week, and I limited my sugar intake.

Breakfast would consist of fresh fruit and one cup of oatmeal. Lunch I almost always had a Lean Cuisine, and a salad, and dinner varied every night.

I have to say that the biggest factor for me was my mind. I had yo-yo'd with my weight for years, and I was really tired of it. I wanted something that would change my thoughts so I knew my results wouldn't happen overnight. With that said, a big thing for me was making up my mind.

I drank water all of the time. I also started taking a multi-vitamin.

Today, I have a gym membership, and even if I don't make it to the gym, I try to work out at least 3-4 times a week.

Meal portions are important too. I almost always have leftovers while eating out. When you are full STOP EATING!!! And, as silly as this sounds, snack all of the time. I still don't do a good job at breakfast...normally just coffee, but I snack all day. I buy various 100 calorie packs and have a snack between breakfast and lunch, and one between lunch and dinner.

It's important to stay away from fad diets and do it the old fashioned way....because of this I don't fluctuate like I used to.

I'm still not 100% where I want to be, but I feel good about myself now. One of the things I hated was that I lost my confidence. I didn't feel hood about myself, especially how I looked, and I'm normally someone with lots of confidence, so I had to do something!

I hope this helps...I'll post pictures of the journey...I'm posting from my phone!

Later gators!

This is what happens...

2010-03-14T23:05:00.004-05:00

...When you get two best friends together for a day of shopping!
Today, Malitta and I headed to The Galleria to spend her birthday money. I ended up getting a few things that I needed for work, and no, it was NOT from my birthday money. We had such a great time. I love spending time with her. I always laugh until my sides hurt from the things she says. If you know Malitta...then you know what I'm talking about. Here's some of today's top convo nuggets:

Urban Outfitters:
Me: Malitta, is that a unitard...(referring to uni on hanger)
Mal: YES! Isn't it great?!
Me: Crickets chirping.....'Not exactly the word I was looking for..., I mean, it's an adult onesie...' (insert obnoxious laughing)
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Me: Do you think this headband looks cute?
Mal: Oh! Yes! I'm surprised at how cute that looks on you...!
Me: What does that mean?
Mal: That flower is kind of big...but, your head can pull it off....(as she tries to fix previous comment)
Me: Yeah, kind of as big as the whole you're digging!
Me and Mal: Again...Cracking UP!

(What do y'all think...sorry the top of the flower is cut off...I was trying to hide the fact that I have mask on a huge pimple....lol! Just keeping it real!)

Convo at Lunch:
Me: Yesterday, I got my nails and toes done, and while the girl was giving me my manicure...she looked at my brows, (which were NOT that bad), and was like 'oh girl...you getting your brows done too...?'
Malitta: chuckles
Me: And then, she was like, 'and what about that mustache...'
Malitta: almosts chokes on her bread...as she looks for my missing mustache... "Did you get it done?"
Me: Heck no! You remember in college when they talked us into that...we had discolorations above our top lips for weeks.....
Me and Malitta: Cracking up...(y'all, it was horrible....we both said we'd never get it done again!)

Y'all, I could literally go on all day, but I won't! I had a great time today! Don't forget to enter the giveaway! You have until Wednesday to rack up those entries!

Girly PINK Giveaway!

2010-03-14T20:50:00.005-05:00

I know I promised the details on the giveaway Friday, but I've been trying to figure out how to make a blog button, and let's just say...it didn't happen! If any of you out there in blog land are talented, and have a giving spirit....help your girl out!

I had a super long post but lost it all once I hit the publish button...ARGH!!! So...you can go right to the details of the giveaway!

MARCH 14th-17th, 2010 (Sunday thru Wednesday)

PINK RULES: ('Mary Engelbreit Princess of Quite-a-lot Notebook, OPI bubblebath polish, Pink jewelry travel case, pink and green notecube, and 2 mystery pink items!)

- you've gotta be a follower of my blog (mandatory entry)
- follow me on twitter (1 extra entry)
- tweet about this giveaway and leave a link (1 extra entry)
- blog about this giveaway (1 extra entry)
- post this giveaway or your sidebar (1 extra entry)

5 ways to enter!!!!

BONUS: Get an extra entry for visiting daily, and leaving a comment!
The giveaway will end Wednesday at 12 NOON CST! I will announce the winner that evening via Random.org! The winner will have three days to claim your prize, so make sure you leave a valid e-mail address!!!

Little bag 'o books!

2010-03-12T11:01:00.005-06:00

I made a Freudian slip today and said to be careful over the Summer break. My students quickly corrected me, but even though I'm not about to be off for two months, I'll sure take this week!

In case you've missed my last few posts....today, at 2:26 p.m. marks the beginning of my Spring Break! Be still my heart! BE STILL! I can't tell you how excited I am....no alarm for 5 whole week days! YES!

Here's a little taste of what I'll be doing over the break:
Hanging with friends and family
Cleaning
Donating clothes to Montgomery County Women's Center
Re-vamping my kitchen
Getting a car wash
Going to the dentist
Making that dreadful trip for my yearly appt
READING!!!! In fact, here's the loot that I checked out of the school library today. Our library is pretty amazing...so I've got some good stuff!

I apologize now for the butterflies you can see in the picture! We are doing a project over the Terezin Concentration camps...I'll post a pic when they are hanging around my room! It's going to look amazing! (BTW, this pic was taken on my iPhone using the ShakeitPhoto app! I love this app because it brings such great clarity to normally crappy iPhone pics....)

The librarian loves me, and since I have like 7 books, she gave me the cutest little reusable bag! It's just the right size for a picnic this week. And, since I really don't eat bread, I've been saving a loaf for a week to feed to the ducks! I predict a visit to a nearby park, complete with a picnic! I can't wait!

I just wanted to check in with you all this morning....I'll be back later tonight with all of the details of the giveaway!

My Favorite Things!

2010-03-11T16:09:00.005-06:00

I've got a new look! Do you like it? I LOVE IT!!!! If you want one...check out Danielle at The Design Girl! She's amazing, easy to work with, and as you can see, very talented!

I've been wanting a new blog look for a while now, and I'm so in love with it! Good thing this is my home away from home...and what a pretty home it is! Ok...enough googling over my new look! (Seriously though...I've clicked on this page a million times today!)

In honor of my new look, I'm doing a giveaway. It's called 'My Favorite Things!! All of the details will be up this weekend! I need to get a pic of the loot on here, and it's past my bedtime!

Until then...have a great night, and I'll see you tomorrow!!

~J

THE List!

2010-03-10T21:30:00.003-06:00

Over a glass of sweet tea with a hint of banana flavor....don't ask, it's not intentional...I remembered something. My students and I were studying Robert Frost's "The Road Not Taken," and naturally our conversation ventured on decisions. If you'll stay around..I promise to get to the point soon. So, I took this awesome opportunity to climb atop one of my many soapboxes on life. One of the points I made was when we go about life with no definite plans, we aren't very well prepared for what happens.

Now, some could argue that even the best made plans are sometimes futile, but hear me out. What I mean is this....when we don't know where we're going, we don't know what we will get, and we have even less control over the outcome. (Really, I have a point...)

>>Fast forward to this evening. While sipping that banana sweet tea...YUCK, I wondered where my very first list of requirements was for my future husband. I made this list at the tender age of 13 I believe, and can I tell you how spiritually deep I was then (insert sarcastic eye roll)?! He had to have the looks of Will Smith (it was the 90s), make a ton of money, and be at least 6 feet tall, with an athletic build. Oh yeah, and by this stage in my life, according to the list, I would have been on baby #2, (why because I would have been married for almost 5 years of course)!!! I can't tell you how hard I laughed at this. Mostly the other godly characteristics listed...like doesn't mind playing Uno, fills my car with gas, and likes Taco Bell as much as I do (#3 combo back then I believe)....seriously...!

(Rounding the corner of She has a point and On with it already) So, what does this hodge podge of info mean? Well, that list led to a couple more lists. I've never been one to not know what I wanted, so naturally, this area of my life would be no different. I fully believe that it is because of this list, (and my relationship with God, my parents, etc) that I haven't taken/dealt with/experienced a ton of heartbreak over broken relationships. Sometimes there are drawbacks to the list, especially when no deviations are allowed, and when there are imposters who look like they are the list, but in Habakkuk 2:2, we are told to "write the vision, and make it plain...."God is a very on purpose god, and I feel that we should operate in that same spirit.

When considering spending your life with someone, don't you think it's important to give thought to what you really want? I mean, my grocery list is extensive...separated by the sections of the store....the future love of my life is worth at least that!

I'm sure I've bored most of you, but if you're still here, and you're not married, think about what you'd like....and by the way....since I've grown, and truly embraced the "It's Not About Me," mentality....you want to know what's on my list???? Are you sure...you ready?

1. A man after God's own heart...

Yep...that's it. Nothing more, nothing less, because that is really all you need, but you know what..??? I'll still take a game of Uno, and not having to go to the gas station any day!

Later gators....or...as AB says...holla koala!

A little bit of everything...

2010-03-09T08:04:00.007-06:00

I was looking through a bunch of old photos last night because I'm getting a blog makeover, and one day...I'll have to post my weight loss journey...! I'm still not 100% satisfied, but I've come a long way! Maybe one day I'll do a post on what I did, and what I'm still doing!

Last night...I had a mini, "I'm so overwhelmed, I think I'm going to lose my mind," breakdown! Between this week at work (try-outs), the four papers I have due for school, the process of prayerfully getting accepted into the Regional Principal Leadership Institute, (I know I haven't mentioned this on here....I've journaled about it, but I haven't filled you guys in yet..I will soon), I am a little nerved! But, last night, God reminded me that He will never give me more than I can bear, plus, I cried about it, so that helped a lot!

via google

But you know what...?? I'm happy to be overwhelmed because that means 1.) I'm alive, 2.) I have a job that I love and that can overwhelm me, 3.) I'm pursuing my goals, and 4.) I have people in my life to keep me grounded, and who don't mind listening to me! I realize that some people don't have a support system in life, and I'm so very blessed with a handful of close friends that I can really count on to stand in the gap! Thanks guys!

Weekend Recap!

2010-03-08T09:42:00.002-06:00

I can't find my planner! AND, if you know me at all, you know that I write EVERYTHING in my planner! Thanks to Jenni and Lauren though, I found a new planner, that I think I will love. I even had my name put on it. I can't wait to receive it. Hopefully by tomorrow I'll have it...my life NEEDS it!

Spring Break is next week, and my goodness....I can't wait! I need a minute. I feel like I've been going ninety to nothing, and I need some 'me' time! I've got school work that I want to get ahead on, and tons of books that I want to read. Y'all know that I can read a book a day, and that's going to come in handy because I haven't read for pleasure in a while....well, minus that book I was able to sneak in last week.

This weekend was a great weekend. It was Malitta's birthday, so we celebrated on Friday night at the Rodeo....Mary J Blige was there! She was great, but the concert was super short. Malitta was a little disappointed in that, but it was all good for me!

Then, on Saturday, I went to pick out my bridesmaid dress for Taviea's wedding! The dress is black, and I like it! It's going to come in around June, and Tavi took a pic, but I don't have one to show you....if I get one, I'll post it!

Afterwards, Andrea and I met up in Katy and went to see Cop Out. Neither of us wanted to see it, but it was the only thing showing when we got there. It was hi.larious!! I laughed so hard! Definitely not kid appropriate, but just fine for adults who need a good laugh!

SUNDAY....all.day.at.Cheer.Power! Geesh! The whole time I was there, I was silently thanking my parents. I never knew the sacrifice they made following me all around the state of Texas for Dance contests and conferences. They are the best, and I love them for it. I was naive in thinking that all parents did that, and I've learned that....not so much! I know I'll be that parent, but honestly, I'm glad it's not today! This girl needed a nap afterwards.....BUT!

I ended up going to The Cheesecake Factory with Marcus and Malitta to celebrate her birthday and to give her my present to her! I had a great time laughing with those two....I'm sure they'll be getting engaged pretty soon....hint Marcus if you read this....pop the question already!

And now, here we are on Monday! This week is going to be long...Cheer try-outs, but we'll get through it! Besides, there's a big 'ole pot of Gold at the end called Spring Break!

Later gator...or, a new one that I learned from blog friend Amy Beth....holla koala!

Do I need 'that' virtue?

2010-02-27T23:29:00.002-06:00

From this moment on...I will call you...blog friends...(bf's) for short!

I've mentioned this before, but I LOVE the way my shampoo and conditioner smell. I know that's a weird way to open a post, but I'm feeling a little random at the moment! In case you're wondering...in case you even care a little bit...it smells like vanilla mint...!

If you're still reading, bless you, bored much?!

Bridesmaid dresses, TAKS, and grocery shopping were on my agenda for today. It was a perfect Saturday...even the fact that I had to be at the school at 7:30 AM! Trust me, the hardest part was waking up....with no Folgers in my cup by the way! My Mom called to tell me that she found one of her favorite stores, and when I jumped up and down, and exclaimed with her...{yeah right}, she replied, "Jarvis Noelle...I wouldn't trade you for the world"....I'm counting on it Mom!

I could really feel Jesus today! He was close, and trust me, I didn't mind one bit. I couldn't help but pause, and try to hear what was being said. I've been ALL over the place lately, and sometimes, I feel like I'm involved in 50 things, but wonder am I effective in anything. Maybe I should change wonder to worry...sometimes I'm so short with my kids, that I pray that they'll forgive me the next day...they do. They truly are the perfect illustration of Christ...SOMETIMES!

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I just need to do better. Be more intentional, patient, patient, patient...did I mention patient?! I think I'm good at showing grace to those I love, but I need to work on showing grace to those who have wronged me too. Really, I just want to be like Him, and I fear sometimes that I'm not even on the map! Do any of you ever feel that way?

I'm off to 1. dry this hair, and 2. iron my church clothes! So excited about worshipping tomorrow!

I'm trying...

2010-02-26T12:36:00.003-06:00

Because I really can't/won't go into details, just know that things around here have been interesting to say the least. I made a decision that one day I just may share with all three of you who read my blog, and I'm certain it was the right one. As of today, I'm sure only one other person on the face of the earth agrees, and she's bound by BFF law.

When I made this decision, it wasn't to be mean spirited, cold-hearted or immature. It was honestly the best decision for me at the time, and one I feel Supported in. However, not everyone is seeing my point of view. The details are still a little too raw for me, and this may be something that remains hidden in the pages of my journal, but I've learned a very important lesson throughout all of this; judgmental people STINK! And to think, that so used to be my struggle....is this how it feels to be on the other side of that sin?

I was sulking to a really good friend of mine today, and her sweet reply was, "don't take it out on me..." (I later received permission to continue my fit...but only for today). My reply, "I'm trying." And I was, but sometimes, when those gates open, how super hard it is for you to close them. I mean, I'm trying to pretend that sticks and stones may break your bones, but words will never hurt...umm....so NO! I'm trying to muster all of the patience I have with my students as we enter TAKS season on Wednesday. I'm trying to pretend that I am becoming more open...that I'm not so closed off, and that I don't break out in hives when I consider being really 'naked' (not literally peeps) with the ones I love. Maybe it's OK for me to be guarded, cautious, skeptical...but geez...it's exhausting. At an attempt to show a little shoulder...I'm trying to pretend that I don't see my 30th birthday turning the corner fast, the look in my Mother's eyes when she holds my cousin's baby...the way she says what she'll do when she becomes a grandmother...more like 'if!' Oh goodness...I'm so trying!

I'm trying to tell myself that one day, I'll be so knee deep in itty bitty baby laundry, spit up, stinky diapers, formula...etc, that I'll long for the nights when I could go home, eat Apple Jacks for dinner, and go straight to bed. I'll long for that girl who could help a friend in need without considering anyone else...who could stay out dancing all night(ok, maybe I'm making this part up)! Who could hang out with her favorite people in the entire world, and not look at the clock to hurry home....but today, I'm that girl that turns the lock on her door and walks into an empty BUT quiet house, or better yet, who is Ms. D to about 154 wild, crazy sophmores. Two of which just stuck their heads in my door for a quick "I love you." SO SWEET!

So as I've written this post, and received a little love, I can gently hear that in this season, I'm not going to get what I want, but what I need. And that's a job I love, friends and family who rock my world, and a single life that is ready to serve...that'll just have to do!

Call me Cranky!!

2010-02-22T20:34:00.006-06:00

Tonight, I'm thankful for this arena from which I can stand and WHINE!!! So, I'm warning you now...if you could care less, "X" out of this screen.

I don't feel good! Really! I mean what gives, I take vitamins EVERYDAY for this! I'm annoyed, short-tempered, and impatient today! I hate when I get like this because when I'm cranky, I'm forced to sit down and...think...GASP!!! You may be chuckling right now, and I realize that there's the rebuilding of Haiti, and the genocide in Darfur, but if I can just have my moment, I'll be finished before you know it!

It's not that I despise thinking, I just don't like to dwell on those things that annoy me. Notice how I said annoy...insert make me sad! Oooohhh....I said it...SAD! HA!

I'd like to think that these feelings are here because 1. I only have one working nostril, 2. my house is a mess, and that makes me crazy, 3. I can't think of another one...oh well!

I think the only thing that can help me at this point are french fries...BUT, you guessed it, I'm sick and I don't feel like rising from the couch. Not to mention that I made it home at 2:38 today, and was knocked out by 2:40. I think I woke up around 7ish....it was lovely! And I'm ready for Round II!!!

If you're still here...bless you! I'll be better tomorrow...after I get those fries!

~Nite

A Doozie of a Day turned GREAT!

2010-02-17T21:40:00.004-06:00

I try not to have bad days...I feel that life is way to short to mope around for an entire 24 hours, but today was a doozie. Not the entire day, but certainly enough of it. I'll spare you the details, but with the TAKS test 2 weeks from today, this English II teacher is on the edge! I want my kids to do well, and they just don't seem to share my sense of urgency....pray for us ALL!

I know I promised to do a giveaway, and to post pics from my trip to Little Rock, but I'm a little behind on schoolwork...(as I type away on this post)! I promise to do them this weekend, along with laundry, cleaning my home...you don't EVEN want to know, homework, and on top of that, a jam packed weekend schedule! I'm tired just thinking about it! I'm already looking forward to my Sunday afternoon nap!

I will post these pics though. It was one of the highlights of my day! I came home and crashed on the couch.....only to be interrupted by the UPS man! Now, to be honest, I couldn't remember what I had ordered, then...I saw this label...

Excitement set in as I remember my Valentine's gift to myself!

I couldn't wait to lift that little lid...

Oh Tory...how I love thee!!! In case you're wondering...the bestie called me from work to tell me that these beauties were on sale! Great timing and GREAT shoes!

I hope you all have a great Thursday! The kids come late tomorrow, and our girls are playing in the play-offs....pray for them!

It's LOVE Day!

2010-02-14T21:47:00.002-06:00

I'm home, and tired, and watching the All Star game with Jonathan, and I have TONS to write about! BUT, you'll have to wait until tomorrow! I also have pics to post!

Happy Valentine's Day!! I had a great day! Hope you did too!

And it starts!

2010-02-08T21:58:00.005-06:00

Busy, busy week ahead! On Friday I FINALLY leave for Little Rock to head to the Junior League ODI Leadership Conference! I'm pretty excited about it! I'm hoping to stumble upon some cute shops for accessories, and of course...some good eatin'! So blogland, if you have any suggestions about what to do in LR, let me know....I'd greatly appreciate it!

FYI, I'm staying at the Peabody, so I'm pretty excited about seeing the ducks!

Anyone love Beth Moore like I do? I keep hoping that I'll run into her one day while out and about in town. She came to our Holiday Market last year, and imagine my disappointment when I learned that I missed seeing her....so sad! She's so real, relevant, and has such a heart for Jesus. I honestly couldn't tell you my favorite study by her...I.love.them.all!

Well, she has a new book, and I can't wait to begin reading it! It's called, So Long Insecurity:You've Been a Bad Friend to Us!

I won't be able to start reading it till Friday on the plane, but I thought it would be fun to have my very first giveaway...!!! I'll post all of the details tomorrow!

We'll call it 'A few of my favorite things..' Giveaway!!! Be sure to come back tomorrow evening for all of the detials...you'll want to enter for sure!

Good night ladies! Here's a pic for ya... let me just tell you how HAPPY I am that I will be out of town for Valentine's Day! God bless me! I'm not saying that I get all down and depressed, but it feels good that I'll have something constructive to occupy my mind with! YAY!

April=Alica Keys

2010-02-06T23:00:00.003-06:00

I have no idea what picture to post today....I didn't do a thing. I wasn't feeling well AT ALL, but I did manage to pick up a couple of things for my trip to Little Rock for Junior League ODI next weekend.

Can I just tell you how much I love the GAP? It never lets me down. I can always find what I'm looking for in terms of slacks for work, tops, and of course, JEANS! I did find two tops at Stein Mart that I brought home with me too. So it was a good trip overall.

Now I'm back home...in my favorite pj bottoms my cousin Amber gave me at Christmas. They're so soft and comfy...maybe that's what I'll post a pic of...HA!

Oh! I know what I'll post a pic of....guess who the bestie and I get to see in April at the Toyota Center?

I'm pretty excited about it! She's one of my favorite artists! Happy Saturday peeps...catch you tomorrow!

This I Know for SURE!

2010-02-05T08:58:00.008-06:00

It's Show us Your Life Friday over at Kelly's blog, and today's topic is Beauty product tips...I'm in my element here....not because I'm Miss America or anything....just because I love taking care of myself!

Skin Care Regimen/Make-up:
EVERY lady should have one. I could hop on a soap box about this one, but I won't. I will say that to not properly cleanse and moisturize your face is asking for wrinkles, blemishes...NO BUENO. Yes, it's a pain in the neck, but so very important! I use Mary Kay TimeWise products. They work for me, and I think I look pretty young for my age (29)! I also use MK make-up!

I've always LOVED wearing make-up. I can remember begging my Mom when I was like 8 to let me wear lipstick...lol! Of course she didn't allow me to wear it until I was in the 9th grade (powder and gloss), BUT, funny story, in the 8th grade, I snuck and put on powder and lipstick for my 8th grade pictures. I totally didn't think about the fact that my parents would eventually SEE the pictures, AND the make-up...can you tell that I wasn't a very good sneak?

I ALWAYS wash my face before going to bed, and in the morning. I NEVER go to bed with make-up on my face! Yes, I use ALL of the above products!

Hair:
I.love.my.CHI! I don't know what I would do without it. I recently discovered that the Farouk plant is literally right down the street from my job/house! How cool is that?! I love how silky the CHI leaves my hair. I also use the CHI oil on my hair to help protect it from the heat.

For my shampoo/conditioner duo, I use Organix Teatree Mint. It smells so good....and minty! I can't help but smell my hair...don't judge me peeps! (I get mine from Ulta)
Body:
I have very dry skin, so unfortunately, I can't use lots of smelly BBW products. For shower gel I use Oil of Olay Moisturizing Winter Relief Body Wash. It has a light vanilla scent, which I love, and it really moisturizes my skin! I just have sensitive skin, and highly fragrant products mess me up! I like to keep my regime simple as possible.

Manicures/Pedicures/Waxing:
Self explanatory. I use OPI nail products! My favorite colors are Bubble Bath and Cherry Blossom. I've also recently discovered OPI Chip Skip! After what seems like forever, I no longer wear acrylic nails. I now prefer a fresh manicured look, so Chip Skip is my friend! It prolongs the polish for about 2 weeks! Definitely worth the $12 investment!

Oh! and those eyebrows....gotta keep those waxed! I'mlooking at trying threading one day....I'll let you know how that goes!

(photos compliments of google)

Youth Ministry curriculum!

2010-02-04T23:14:00.001-06:00

I'm way excited about this!!! Can't wait to see this unfold!

Horrible pic taken by Inez the iPhone!

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Simple Pleasures

2010-02-04T11:36:00.009-06:00

Kelly over at Kelly's Korner posted about life's simple pleasures a couple of days ago. I've been swamped this week as a result of life and my knack for procrastination, so I'm just now getting around to this. It really doesn't take a lot to please me. In fact, my love languages are quality time, and words of affirmation, followed closely by acts of service, so...I guess you could say I'm cheap...HA!

So, in case you're wondering what floats my boat, or puts a smile on this face...here goes!

*reading a good book while sipping on a glass of sweet tea

*sweet tea...FOR REAL...I.LOVE.IT

*MAIL...LOVE it....not stupid bills, but cards, packages, magazines...catalogs...
*warm towels, socks, and t-shirts from the dryer

*washing clothes...it relaxes me

*my quiet time with Jesus!

*manicures and pedicures

*spending time with my family and close friends....remember...quality time...

*hearing Karmen say "Hey Garbis (Jarvis)...I miss you..."

*when someone really gets me...hard exterior and all...

*Mexican food, and green beans from P.F. Changs

*chips and salsa

*pictures and cute frames...I have a ton in my place...it's borderline ridiculous..

*the thought that one day I'll fall in love, and never fall out....and he'll love God more than me...

*Club InC...my church's youth ministry

*teaching...love my kids, love my job!

*listening to my iPod...I'm a lover of music...

*journaling/blogging...writing is an outlet for me...I think I might want to write a book one day...any suggestions on a topic?

I hope you've enjoyed my simple pleasures....what are yours?

P.S. My blog friend Julie over at BeB is hosting an awesome Valentine's Day giveaway. Click on her name or the cute button to the right to visit her blog, and enter the giveaway!

Pic#3

2010-02-03T22:12:00.001-06:00

I love Houston, really I do, but the traffic...no bueno for me! It took me an hour to drive a trip that normally takes 25 minutes. Don't worry...I just sang loud in my car!!! I think I sounded good too! Ha!

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Pic of the Day!

2010-02-02T08:46:00.001-06:00

This is what I do sometimes when I'm bored...take pics of myself! Ha! Special effects courtesy of picasa!

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Day 1 Photo

2010-02-01T23:14:00.004-06:00

Welcome to my very first photo in my quest to log 365 photos. I know I said I would start this a couple of days ago, but I was waiting for a nice new month...maybe part of my Type A personality...(probably the ONLY thing about me that's Type A..ha).

Here it is....y'all know that I mentioned that I love stationary, cards, ect, and I found the cutest store on-line, called Curly Girl Designs. I ordered a couple of a cards, and a little wall plaque. If you're looking for just the right words, in a unique way...hop on over to her place....you won't be disappointed!

They Get Me!

2010-02-01T19:31:00.003-06:00

I stumbled across these thoughts on friendship by George Elliott. Has anyone ever heard of George Elliott? Married to Elisabeth Elliott, author of Passion and Purity. BTW, if you haven't read this book, I suggest you read it...it'll totally change your outlook on 'waiting' for the right one.

I would say that I am lucky, but really...I'm blessed. I have great friends. Just yesterday, on my way home from church, I was thinking about my friends...people I could call when I needed something, and let me tell you...my cup runneth over! I'm not a very open person unless you're 'in the circle.' In fact, this blog is very hard for me. There's always an element of hold backedness....I know that's not a word, but hey, it's my blog...so I can make up words! However, I think this is partly because in my circle of friends, I'm spoiled. I don't have to say much. They catch my looks, scowls, connotations, actions, and know exactly what I am trying to say, many times, when the words won't come. They put up with my sometimes unsolicited advice, erratic thoughts and behaviors, goofiness, silly jokes, quoting lines from every movie I've ever seen, and if they're still around...my insecurities. They put up with a lot people...believe me!!!

On Friendship by George Elliott
Oh the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person:
Having neither to weigh thought nor measure words;
But to pour them out just as they are, chaff and grain together,
Knowing that a faithful hand will take and sift them,
Keep what is worth keeping and then
With a breath of kindness, blow the rest away.

I hope you peeps out there in bloggy land have people who make your life that much sweeter! I don't know what I would do without mine!

Crazy Busy Week, and 365 Project!

2010-01-29T12:21:00.003-06:00

I was doing so well, and then life happened! I've been so busy this week. The cheerleading squad travelled to San Marcos last weekend for their competition, and I literally haven't had a chance to catch my breath since!

I would post a picture of my home...and how neglected it is....but I won't...let's just say, I know what I'll be doing this weekend! Speaking of posting pictures, I'm going to participate in the 365 project. If you haven't heard about it, it's where you post one picture that you've taken a day on your blog...kind of like a catalog of your life for an entire year. This seems like a daunting task, but I think I'll enjoy it. It'll be great to reflect back after the year is up, and see what I did in 2010!

With that said, I'll be back later with a pic later today! In the meantime, I'll leave you with this. It's SO cloudy here, and a coldfront is supposed to arrive tonight, so I'm desperately wishing it were Spring already. Without the rain of course!

Photo Here

Dad, Shopping, Tory Burch, and Cheesecake!

2010-01-17T21:36:00.008-06:00

This weekend was a great time, and it's not even over! Friday night after the girls' basketball game, (we won by the way in double overtime), I headed out to Amerigo's with some of my JL friends. I had a good time, and some random guy kept looking at me...(VERY WEIRD), and to get my attention, he threw something at me. I mean, is this how we approach women in 2010 fellas? He was harmless, but it really was weird! Here is a pic from the night.

Saturday, I got up and headed to the gym. I twisted my left knee, so it has been aggravating me, but I'm sure I'll survive! I came home, and got ready for my Dad to arrive. I always love it when he comes to visit. We have such a good time together. Both of my parents LOVE Pappadeaux's, so of course that is where we went for lunch. I wish I had pictures, but I didn't take any!

After lunch, we headed to The Galleria for a little bit of shopping! Well, I did the shopping, and my Dad held the bags! He said he wanted to seem like he was doing something productive...HA! It was a good day people....Tory was good TO ME!!! Is anyone else as obssessed with Tory Burch as I am? Here's what I brought home...

Don't you just love them? I know I do! I'll have to wait a few months to wear the flip-flops...it's not quite the season yet, but I've envisioned the outfits...HA!

And of course no trip would be complete without some CHEESECAKE!!! AND, they had my favorite flavor...pineapple upside down cake....pretty much the best non-chocolate dessert E.V.E.R!!!

It was a great weekend, I loved spending time with my Dad...can you tell that I'm a Daddy's girl? I'm proud of it too!

If you thought I was random before...

2010-01-14T22:55:00.006-06:00

I said I wasn't going to blog tonight, but after coming home...I crashed on the couch, and after a quick trip to Target...yes, I have an illness, I can't sleep.

Speaking of Target...man oh man how I love that store. I could walk the aisles for hours...but tonight I was on a mission. In and out in 32 minutes, armed with a few new treats for me, including their bite sized rice crispy treats...definitely my love language!

I apologize in advance because this post is sure to top the charts for its randomness. I'm just feeling that way tonight...so here goes.

1. Did you know that I love stationary, paper, cool pens, notebooks...you get the idea? Ask my parents, they were buying me a new notebook and pen every other day growing up. It's just something about a new notebook to me that is like New Year's Day all over again, or that brand new box of crayons feeling..

2. Maybe my obsession for paper centers around my love for lists. My whole life is a list. In fact, tonight, I'll complete my list of things I want to accomplish during this time away from TV land. Lists make my world go round!

3. On the flip side, I can be quite forgetful...even with my list. Sometimes, I can't even find the list...but if you know me at all...you know my brain goes 90 mph...so I like to say that I'm not forgetful...my brain is just busy! HA!

4. I have had chicken enchilada soup from Chili's 3 nights this week. It never gets old! It makes me happy...

5. I still fight sleep...LOL! I can hang as long as I'm moving around, but the minute I get still...watch out...just like a little kid!

6. I read a quote today that pretty much sums up my life as a sorority girl, but I'm waiting until tomorrow to share it with you..WHY you ask? Because tomorrow is the 102nd birthday of my lovely sorority, Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority Inc.

That's about it folks...OH, but before I go...today was a huge win in the shopping department for me. I stopped by Banana Republic after work, and got three great tops on sale!

Then of course at Target...picked up a new headband (to match one of my new tops), earrings, a magazine, and these jazzy new fruit roll-ups I wanted to try..and let's not forget..more stationary. I like to have options when sending those snail mail notes.

That's it folks..tomorrow is Friday thank goodness. AND, my Dad is coming to visit me. I'm so excited! I haven't seen him in a few weeks. I hope he's ready to shop!

Should I?

2010-01-14T12:45:00.004-06:00

A long time ago I acquired a gift certificate to Neiman Marcus, and I have YET to use it! I've gone on the site, and in the store several times to find something...but no luck! Until today. Spring is near....well, near enough, and I think I'm going to go with these Tory Burch beauties!

What do you think? I love the peep toe, and I LOVE the color! I'm thinking they'll go great with my summer tan...HA! Anywho, hope you all are having a great Thursday! I'll be back later with something to say I'm sure! ~J

Shadows!

2010-01-13T23:10:00.004-06:00

Tonight, I went to bible study, and got to personally hug the neck of one of my most favorite teenagers...you know the one that freaked out that I wasn't there a couple of weeks ago?!

It was GREAT! I forgot how much I missed praying, listening, and talking life with those kids! I'm glad to be back. It was a bit hectic getting there with practice and Houston Rush Hour traffic, but God makes a way when it's in His will! It didn't disappoint!

I left with my cup running over. I love that feeling! Great praise and worship on the way to the church...was challenged in the message...so much so that I'm doing a little more research of my own before I go to bed. (The message came out of John 15:5 and Galatians 5:22). I want to learn more about the Fruits of the Spirit, and application of how God originally entrusted us with them...whoa...that sounds way deep, but basically, I just want to dig a little deeper..HA!

Tonight, on Facebook, my personal time trap, I ran across a status update of a dear friend of mine whom I met while working in Waco. Tomorrow, she will celebrate her 29th birthday, and her 3 year anniversary of giving her life to Jesus!

I couldn't be happier for her. I can honestly say that before giving her life to the One that makes all things new she was a GREAT person. Nice, educated, you know...had it going on, but I could tell then that she was searching for something....and she found it. Through Him. I'm sure she'll be the first to tell you that it was not overnight. In fact, I remember a time right after that where she fasted and prayed...seeking His face, and dying to self. But isn't that what we sometimes think? That because we are 'good people,' it's our ticket into the pearly gates.

I know I thought that for years...seriously! I just want to encourage anyone who is reading this blog, that if you missed the mark...over...and over again, that it's never too late to make it right. Remember that we are all sinners, but because of our desire to serve Christ, we should sin less. Thanks Pastor J!

I'm no saint! Even typing this, I cringe because I fear that I'll sound preachy or maybe even offend some of you, BUT, I know what it's like to search in empty relationships to fill a void. Giving time, energy, and your trust to someone and coming up empty handed, especially when you think you've scored BIG TIME! Or to work so hard that I drown out the life around me! It's not a good feeling at all, and sometimes, it's a long road to recovery, but I'm reminded of a line from one of my most favorite songs, "Unredeemed." The lyrics read,

We live in the shadow of the fall
But the cross says these are all
Places where grace is soon to be so amazing
It may be unfulfilled
It may be unrestored
But when anything that's shattered is laid before the Lord
Just watch and see
It will not be unredeemed

Oh how many times have I travelled from shadow to shadow...nursing old wounds...carrying guilt, shame, bitterness...and every other self serving emotion I can have. It's not healthy to say the least, BUT, the Bible says this: "Return to your fortress, O prisoners of hope; even now I announce that I will restore twice as much to you," Zechariah 9:12, AND Romans 8:28, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." So to me, the first scripture means I will receive double for my trouble, and the last scripture means that EVERYTHING (good and bad) I have gone through will work out for MY good....He will redeem....God said so! So a couple of weeks ago, I made the decision to step into the SONlight. No more shadows for me! I hope you will too friends!

This post has been about a little bit of everything, but I hope it helps on SOME level! God's plan is for us to live free...only we can keep ourselves bound! Congratulations T! I'm so proud of you, and the woman you've become! Your light is shining all over!!! Goodnight~!

Mama's Got a Brand New Look!

2010-01-13T13:40:00.004-06:00

Notice anything different? I've made a few changes to the layout of my blog, and I'm not quite finished, but I'm working on it! The header bugs me...the off shading is inadequate for my OCD personality!

So how are you blogging buddies? It's a Wonderful Wednesday isn't it? Maybe I'll start an 'Item of the Week' post regularly...well, I guess weekly...what do you think?

Later!

Day 1: Success!

2010-01-12T12:11:00.004-06:00

Whew! I made it through my first day! And....it was GREAT! Actually, better than great, because I got so much done, and I didn't miss the TV at all!!!

Let's see, the night started with me heading to Target, my favorite store after cheer practice. I needed to get groceries, and I'll find any excuse to go to the Super Target!

On the way home, I picked up Chicken Enchilada soup from Chili's...my favorite!

The quiet really wasn't bad at all. I ate dinner to the tunes of my iPod, and immediately set in to do some homework. Which by the way is going to dip into my social life tremendously for the next 8 weeks! I became so focused that I ended up turning my iPod off so that I could really concentrate!

I thought that I'd be twiddling my thumbs waiting to get sleepy, but what I found was I didn't even skim the surface of my to-do list for the day. I had so many more things to accomplish, that I'll have to do tonight!

I was very encouraged by it, and I can't wait for the silence again. Maybe, I'll even get in the bed early, but I have some reading to do for class, so we'll see!

Pull the Plug!

2010-01-11T21:19:00.005-06:00

Well, I promised the big reveal tonight, and I don't want to disappoint my lovely readership...HA!

This decision has stemmed from a longing that I wasn't tapping in to nearly ANY of the life God has for me...I mean sure, my life is good, great by some standards, but I know whose I am, and I know what that entitles me to. I guess I'm just getting fed up with not tapping into all of those resources, and just sort of skimming the surface of life. I've been there before, and I so desperately want to get back...

That is just not cutting it for me anymore. I want more!

All of this to say, I've unplugged a few things. My Pastor has started a series to kick off this New Year, and he has challenged us to get rid of those things, relationships, thoughts...whatever that hinders us from being all that Christ created us to be. This got me thinking...what can I give up? How can I grow this year? What does God want from me? How can I show others His love?

I'm not a huge TV person, however it serves as a background to my life all of the time. There are nights that I come home, tired, with a long list of things to do, and NONE of them get done. Why? Because I've parked on the couch, allowing the TV to distract me, and often times, put me to sleep! It's no secret that I'm a procrastinator. It's no secret that I wait until the last minute to do unpleasant things. I ignore them. Lately, I've become painfully aware how unproductive my thoughts about myself are. I OVER ANALYZE EVERYTHING!!! It's an exhausting thing let me tell you...so I need to get my mind right. Not that I'm losing it, but because it really doesn't matter what he/she meant when they said that, when we were doing this, while watching that....you get my point?!

SO....what have I done? I've decided that for the next 21 days I'm giving up television! Instead, I'll spend time working on my schoolwork, taking care of things around here, and spending time with Jesus! There are specific things that I'm looking to hear from Him on, and really, if He ignores me all together, I know that what He will do is going to blow my mind. I have a feeling that I don't have a clue as to what I'm about to experience, and I like it!

I ask for your prayers....because I know that when a breakthrough is close, Satan works overtime...but just like scripture says, better is one day in Your court than thousands elsewhere! I'm counting on it!

Frightful Weather!

2010-01-10T20:16:00.004-06:00

Hello Friends!
Where has January gone? We're almost halfway through! YAY for that!

It seems as though the US has been experiencing some very frigid temps. I mean, in Houston, we have gotten to the teens at night. That's HUGE for us...our winter is considered 60 degrees, and our cold front is in the 50s! Needless to say, it's COLD!

I love it though. The clothes you get to wear are so much cuter...I love sweaters, boots, turtlenecks...winter clothes in general!

I should be craving this cup o yumminess,

photo here

But instead, I want this:

2010 is turning out to be my best year ever! I'm finding out so much about myself as I spend time with ME, and just experience new situations...I like it! If you know me at all, you know that I desire to get married one day. Well, as I wait (sometimes patiently...sometimes not), I want to use this time to get myself together. To know who I am, to be a complete person...not waiting for someone to put me back together! I want to be complete in Him! Know what I mean?

I know that this will be my breakthrough year! I can feel it, and I'm so excited about it!

I have something exciting to share with you guys, but it'll have to wait until tomorrow! I need to get ready for work tomorrow!

A Night of Great Finds!

2010-01-04T23:58:00.004-06:00

Am I in a good mood or what?! Why you ask??? Well, shoes of course! A little background....

While on one of my MANY shopping trips before Christmas, we went to Stein Mart. Can I just tell you how much my heart sings for Stein Mart? I digress...while perusing the aisles, I wondered over to the shoe department..big surprise there! I fell IN LOVE with these Nine West brown pumps, but of course, they didn't have my size. I was SO DISAPPOINTED!

They were regularly $59.95, on sale for $29.95, and they didn't have my size...MAJOR BUMMER!

Needless to say, I left the store very disappointed, as I just HAD to have these shoes. I even commented to my cousin that I should have taken the stye name of the shoe so that I could look around...you get my point?

Fast forward to today! I got off of work...YAY for returning...NOT!, and mom and I did a little shopping after dinner. We found ourselves in Stein Mart, and guess what....???? They.had.my.shoes! Oh how my heart leapt for joy! Mission complete, outfit for tomorrow ready to go...LOL! Here's a pic...or two of my lovelies:

Arent' they cute?! So, after we left SM, we went out for ice cream..yes I know...in 30 degree weather, but hey, the car was warm...LOL! On the way, I stopped at a beauty supply store because I was in DESPERATE need of a new blowdryer! I wanted one that was at least 1875 watts, and the deal I found did not disappoint. I got a great regularly $40 dryer for $9.99...gotta love after Christmas surplus! I threw in a pic of that just for kicks...

All in all, it was a great night! Now I'm headed to bed as my little darlings return tomorrow! Goodnight friends! Sleep tight!

2009 - A Look Back!

2010-01-01T21:39:00.006-06:00

WOW!!! 2010! Can you believe it?! I'm so excited about this year. I have such a great expectation for what God can do in my life over the next 12 months! 2009 was a rough year for my family, and we are definitely looking forward to what the next 12months hold.

Kelly, over at Kelly's Korner did this Annual Review on her blog, and I loved it so much, that I wanted to do the same. So without further ado, my year in review~!

FIVE THINGS I'M THANKFUL FOR IN 2009:

1. My parents and My family! They mean the world to me. I love that I can be 100% myself, and not feel inadequate, or silly! I can't think of a better night than hanging out with my family...such good times.

2. My friends! I laugh more, eat more, exerrcise more (thank goodness), experience more, know more, understand more, and just have more because of the wonderful people I call my friends. I look at my friendships as an extension of my family...and that is such a blessing to me. I truly have some special people in my life. I was thinking tonight how blessed my life is. I am SO blessed...really I am!

3. My job! Yes, I know we're in a recession, and all of that, but I take my job seriously. Everyday, I get to mold 167 lives. I get to show them grace, correction, love, and morals...and of course..English..ha! My job is HARD, but SO rewarding. My kids can really be so sweet, and I really do love them...but it gets downright dirty sometimes...HA!

4. My relationship with JESUS! I truly don't know where I would be without Him. He is my everything. I live my life to please Him, and to bring honor to Him...and I fall short everyday, but He loves me just the same.

5. I'm thankful that I've lost almost ALL of the weight I set out to lose. I've worked so hard, and I feel so much more confident about myself. It was hard to believe that I weighed what I did, but I've got such a great support system! I hate going to the gym, but there really is no way to lose weight, and keep it off without some type of exercise. I also didn't realize the amount of self-confidence I lost. I don't ever want to lose that again!

FIVE THINGS I WANT TO IMPROVE IN 2010:

1. I want to stop hitting the snooze button every morning. It's sad, but I hit that button for at least 20 minutes! I want to use that time in prayer and quiet time with God so that I can start my day off right.

2. I want to be a better daughter, friend, teacher, sister, and family member.

3. I want to continue to be healthy, and continue going to the gym! I also want to blog more! It helps me with my opennes...lol!

4. I want to improve my finances/savings/retirement...etc! Adult topics I know, but I'll be 30 this year! I also want to give more than the 10% for my tithes! Just something that is on my heart!

5. I want to improve who I am on the inside. I want to exhibit God's love, grace, and kindness towards others. I want to be that light in this dark world!

FIVE WAYS I WANT TO GIVE TO/HELP OTHERS THIS YEAR:

1. I want to deepen my relationships with the youth at my church.

2. I want to go to Africa on a mission trip this year.

3. I want to continue the work I do in the community through the Junior League.

4. I want to give more to those in need...no matter what the need is.

5. I want to be a great role model for my cheerleaders! Love those girls!

I spent NYE in church with my Mom, which is how I like to bring in my New Year's! After service, I went to Taviea's Dad house! We had a blast playing games, and catching up! Here are a few pics!

And just for kicks, Facebook allows you to create a Year in pics! Here is mine:

I'm so looking forward to spending the next year with you! Happy New Year!

Hail and Farewell!

2009-12-31T10:47:00.003-06:00

I know I haven't posted about Christmas, and here it is New Year's Eve, but can I just tell you how excited I am that 2009 is coming to a close! It was a rough year for me. I can honestly say that I lost more, cried more, received more, and laughed more than in any other year!

I'm ready to see what 2010 has to offer! Now, if I could just figure out something to wear tongiht! Definitely something to go with these:

This was one of my Christmas gifts...stay tuned to see what I actually make it out of the door in!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Merry Christmas!

2009-12-25T20:39:00.002-06:00

I'll be in later to post, but I hope you all had a GREAT day! MERRY CHRISTMAS!

'Twas the Night Before Christmas...

2009-12-24T23:15:00.009-06:00

It's Christmas Eve, and I'm sitting around with my family. We just finished watching a video where my cousins and I, my Mom, and my Aunt Sheila at my Aunt Jennifer's wedding!!! HI-LARIOUS!!! We can't sing...not well anyway, but boy did we try. Good times, and so special to watch since my Aunt Sheila passed away in August.

I've been having such a great time with my fam in Mississippi. My cousins and I have enjoyed SO many laughs....I miss being around them!

I've been to the mall EVERYDAY this week....and that is NOT an exaggeration. I'm all malled out (GASP-- I NEVER thought I'd say that). So far, I've gotten all the gifts, but I've wrapped nothing. I'll get to it I suppose before our exchange tomorrow.

The only thing I asked for this year were shoes, and I can't wait to see how Santa delivers. I.love.shoes!

We went to church tonight...the Christmas Eve service. A couple of pics from this week are below. Enjoy!!

I've been thinking a lot lately about 2010, and what I would like to accomplish, but honestly, more importantly, what I want God to do in my life. 2009 was a great year, but I really am looking forward to what's in store for 2010. One thing I can say that I will be working on is transparency, transparency, transparency....UGH! That is SO SUPER hard for me....I'd much rather stay vague, ambiguous....SAFE....I'm working on it, but it is not easy for me.

Anywho...I've rambled on and on about a ton of things, but I've got presents to wrap and family to hang out with! Merry Christmas friends!

And you will have joy and gladness, and many will rejoice at his birth Luke 1:14 MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Leaving on a Jet Plane!

2009-12-21T02:39:00.006-06:00

Happy Monday friends! It's 2:30 in the morning, and I'm wide awake! I'm getting the last of my packing and laundry finished before I leave for the holidays.

I'm really sleepy, but I figure I can sleep on the plane.

I probably won't be able to blog often while I'm out of town, but if I get a chance, I'll hop on here. Don't worry though, I'll take plenty of pictures and post them when I return. I can't believe that we are less than 10 days until 2010. That is so strange to me. 2010...I'll turn 30 this year, and who knows what the year will bring. I'm very excited about it though!

Here are some pics from this weekend. One of my really good friends Danni moved to DC three months ago, and she's home for a visit. We met up at Lucky Strikes downtown. I was so excited to hang out with her Saturday.

This is a pic from my sorority meeting. I took this picture for my grandmother because the lady I am pictured with, Soror Mattelia Grays, is my sorority's 18th International President, and was also my grandmother's college suitemate at Dillard University. She told me I was a smart woman for not following my grandmother...who's a Delta!

Tav and I

This is all of us!

Out the Door!

2009-12-19T09:26:00.002-06:00

Oops! I didn't get a chance to post yesterday! Shame on me! I have a full day today. Sorority meeting, finishing up my Christmas shopping, Cheerleader Christmas Party, and bowling tonight with my favorite friends...well, you're all my favorite!!!

I just wanted to hop in here and say Good Morning! I'll be back later with tons of pictures. Oh, and somewhere between all this fun, I desperately need to PACK! Fun Saturday...make it a great one! ~J