Wednesday, June 25, 2008

For everything, with prayer and supplication...

I've sat down to start this post on several occasions, but as you can see, I haven't been successful in finishing it. If I had to guess why, I'd guess it's because I have so much anxiety right now. Where am I going to work? What will having a mortgage look like? Will I complete the process of the house? It's all very overwhelming, and this is kind of a new thing for me.

I was talking to Malitta the other day, and we had to laugh at how God handles me. Her exact statement was, "it will work out, you will get a job, you know God just waits until the last minute with you. It's like you are on death row, and the first two switches have been pulled, and they're about to pull the third, then BAM, you got a job...just in the nick of time!" Well, thanks Mal...I appreciate the words of encouragement.

I wouldn't be this anxious if I didn't have a closing approaching in a very short time, but don't get me wrong. I KNOW whom I serve, and I know that God, in His infinite wisdom has everything all planned out, in the most beautiful, well thought out symphony. More beautiful than I could ever imagine. I just hate that my human flesh and tendency is to worry, and fret. It makes me sad that I struggle daily, sometimes minute-by-minute with putting it all in His hands. I so want to do better. One thing I've learned in this process is that if I weren't a Christian, if I didn't know Jesus as my personal Saviour, I'd have lost my mind about a month ago..FOR REAL!

So, if you're reading, and you'd like to pray, here's what you can pray for specifically.
1. My job situation. I need one...need I say!
2. That everything goes well with the house, and that God would be glorified in this process.
3. My anxiety level, and that I would trust Him more. It makes me sad to even have to type that...

So, thank you sweet friends, people I know, and people I don't...I appreciate it more than you know!


R. & R. Ross said...

J! You are awesome. And the Lord is good. I can relate all to well...1)because we are kinda in similar situation, 2). we like to have our ducks in a row. I feel confident that is will all work out and the process of getting there is really what it is about! You were made to make keep standing strong and casting all the troubles. Lv ya girl. I'll keep praying :-)