It has been a while since I have posted, and it's not because I fell off the face of the earth. I have started two separate blog posts, and haven't published them. I don't know why....just wasn't feeling it, they didn't feel finished....heck, I don't know!
I started reading The Bondage Breaker by Neil T. Anderson a while back, and WOW! It is just that. I highly recommend it. It's nothing like you would think...somewhat of an easy read, and totally interesting.
One of the things that rings in my mind all of the time since I began reading the book may seem trivial and like duh to you. But, I can easily fall into the trap of telling myself lies, and allowing myself to believe them. I'm not an outwardly negative person, but when it comes to me, my life, and my view of how I'm living it, I can be super critical of myself. In fact, if you're ever in my presence, and are wondering what I'm thinking about you....chances are not a darn thing...because of the inner conversation I'm having with myself about myself.
I've come to realize that this tactic is from the enemy, and quite frankly, it gets me every.single.time. So today, I took out a legal pad, and wrote down every lie that the enemy was leading me to believe about myself, prayers I had prayed, and things I desired. I'm telling you, when I looked down and saw these things on paper, they were laughable. I dare you to do it. Especially if your struggle is the mind.
Now, I'm sure I seem absolutely mad, or like a nutcase, but oh well...those who understand understand, and those who don't struggle with this struggle with something else that makes you look foolish...HA!
I am so glad that God shed a little light on this for me, and allowed me to get over myself, and to stop this destructive behavior. This is a win folks....believing lies can set a sistah back! Can I get an Amen?!