The Ugly Side of Life...

I have been in a really crappy mood lately....not just a couple of days, but for a while now. I've always been fairly good at masking my feelings and such, so much so to my detriment sometimes, and I can't tell you how many times I've arrived on this blog to write about my days, but couldn't for fear of sounding like an ungrateful spoiled brat.

So, I offer you my disclaimer...this post will not be filled with feel good messages, pics of my life, or my normal wit....if you're looking for that, come back another day. But today, you're hearing from a girl who doesn't have it all figured out...who's annoyed with selfish people, and who's sometimes really tired of turning the other cheek!


I know I've written this before, but I am somewhat easily annoyed by people at times. My patience is very thin with those who can't see beyond their noses, or who don't do what I would do in a situation, because you know, I am perfect (I kid...really).


I've always heard that when people ask you how you're doing, they don't really mean it...or they don't really want to hear all that you have to say....this has hindered me from being totally open and forthcoming when I'm asked, because like most of us, I really don't like rejection, and when I take the time to share my feelings, and you brush them off...I get really annoyed, (there's that word again), and it totally makes me make a mental note for the future. But, is that the right thing to do? Is it what Jesus did? Aye yae yae....


I chuckle on a daily basis because people think I am so put together....me?! My life is not perfect, I make huge mistakes, I hurt people, people hurt me, I struggle with sin, and just like you, I have those fears, anxieties, and times when I need someone to listen to me, yes me, and not judge or want me to be ok, but just listen.

I'm not quite sure how to end this, and I'm not looking for sympathy or pity...just merely commenting on the things that have had my feathers ruffled here lately! I do want you to know that I know how blessed I am...I know that there are people who would give hand and foot to have my issues, and I have great people in my life...really I know this! Sometimes life is not cute, or convenient, or in my case, fair...and no matter how hard I want to, I can never not be who I am! Until next time...