The Ugly Side of Life...

I have been in a really crappy mood lately....not just a couple of days, but for a while now. I've always been fairly good at masking my feelings and such, so much so to my detriment sometimes, and I can't tell you how many times I've arrived on this blog to write about my days, but couldn't for fear of sounding like an ungrateful spoiled brat.

So, I offer you my disclaimer...this post will not be filled with feel good messages, pics of my life, or my normal wit....if you're looking for that, come back another day. But today, you're hearing from a girl who doesn't have it all figured out...who's annoyed with selfish people, and who's sometimes really tired of turning the other cheek!


I know I've written this before, but I am somewhat easily annoyed by people at times. My patience is very thin with those who can't see beyond their noses, or who don't do what I would do in a situation, because you know, I am perfect (I kid...really).


I've always heard that when people ask you how you're doing, they don't really mean it...or they don't really want to hear all that you have to say....this has hindered me from being totally open and forthcoming when I'm asked, because like most of us, I really don't like rejection, and when I take the time to share my feelings, and you brush them off...I get really annoyed, (there's that word again), and it totally makes me make a mental note for the future. But, is that the right thing to do? Is it what Jesus did? Aye yae yae....


I chuckle on a daily basis because people think I am so put together....me?! My life is not perfect, I make huge mistakes, I hurt people, people hurt me, I struggle with sin, and just like you, I have those fears, anxieties, and times when I need someone to listen to me, yes me, and not judge or want me to be ok, but just listen.

I'm not quite sure how to end this, and I'm not looking for sympathy or pity...just merely commenting on the things that have had my feathers ruffled here lately! I do want you to know that I know how blessed I am...I know that there are people who would give hand and foot to have my issues, and I have great people in my life...really I know this! Sometimes life is not cute, or convenient, or in my case, fair...and no matter how hard I want to, I can never not be who I am! Until next time...

Falling for this weather!

Finally, a nip in the air! Don't you just love it?! My heart skipped a beat when the little chill bumps arose on my arms this morning...oh Fall, how I've missed you so! I was beginning to think that Summer was never going to leave!

Things are going well on this side of the world! We are in the sixth week of school, and the kids are still behaving! I almost hate to type those words, but so far, so good!

I apologize now, but this post will be rather random....hope you stick around until the end!

I joined Weight Watchers on Saturday! I didn't really plan on doing it, but a friend call me because she did, and she encouraged me to do it with her. I've done it before, and was successful, and since I want to go down one more size (to a 10), I thought why not! I'd LOVE to hit my goal by my birthday, but I'm not putting too much pressure on myself. I know where I started, and consistency and time has played well in my favor!

So....I'm back to counting points, and I'm a little mixed up about it...I got really comfortable just watching what I ate, and now I am back to making a concerted effort to not eat bad things! Oh well right?! The weight loss will be worth it!

These last few weeks have been exhausting! I am so tired all of the time, but I'd rather be tired than bored out of my mind!

I'm sure the next post I write will have pics...did I tell you about the photo shoot I did with the wonderful Holly Anderson? Well, I guess you'll just have to come back won't you!

Calgon take me Away/ Friday Night Lights

It's Friday, and this girls needs a weekend getaway! I'm beat! I hope this doesn't come across as me complaining because I don't want to seem ungrateful, but when my alarm clock went off this morning....I seriously contemplated calling in...but 1) I'm not sick, and 2) it's GAME DAY!!!!

I think the most daunting part of all of this is that it's hard for me to see the end....just game after game after practice after assignment after meeting after work to grade after to-do list....I'm getting overwhelmed just typing it!

Anyway, I promised to blog more this month, and I want to at least attempt to keep that promise. I've also noticed that I've picked up a few new followers...which absolutely blows my mind since you know, I post daily, and have such awesome things to say! HA!

I think I'll allow myself to imagine if I could get away, where I would go...maybe to Lake Travis, or Dallas to my grandparents' farm, or heck....just being able to be in my own bed for longer than 6 hours! I try to remind myself that one day, I'll wish these days were here again, so I'm trying to stay in the moment....sometimes, a lot easier said than done!

Have a Fantastic Friday everyone!

The Weekend is Upon Us!

Well hello, and welcome to a 3 Day Weekend! I wish I could tell you I had huge plans, but you wanna know what I'll be doing? CHEER CHEER CHEER!!!!! With a little Saturday Night Football in the mix! It's all good though...you know you want my life! HA!

Seriously though, I don't mind! I consider it a huge blessing to be able to directly influence the lives of 27 young ladies...it's not always easy, but it's always worth it!

On a different note, I fell the other day. HARD. In the process I'm sure I twisted my anke a little bit, and I'm super sore. I definitely feel a massage in my future, especially since I own a monthly membership, and I have 3 months worth in the bank...seriously people...how does that happen?!? It is my goal to make this huge wrong RIGHT...ASAP!

Junior League is back in effect, and I am so excited! This year, I am a Provisional Advisor, and the best way I can explain this is to say that I am over a group of ladies (sort of like a pledge class)! My group will be the coolest, most successful group EVER! I'm so excited to lead them..I'll make sure to take a pic so that I can post it! Stay tuned!

One last thing before I leave....it was 82 degrees today!!! Now to some, that is still HOT, but to us Texans...it was a taste of Fall! And after triple digit weather for so long, we needed this reprieve!

I hope you all have a great long weekend....enjoy, relax, and do something for yourself!

First Week of School!

I'm back...are we starting to notice a trend here....that hopefully will soon change.

It's always a little awkward when I re-enter the blogging world. There has been so much that has gone on, and I don't know how to catch everyone up, but I promise I will do my best!


First of all, school has started, and the kids are back in full effect! I must admit though, this year is going so well. Not just the fact that my kids are still in the honeymoon phase, but my schedule is perfect, I end my day with cheer...what more could a girl as for?! I only teach 4 English classes a day, one cheer class, and two planning periods....I'm loving it!

Things have been so busy around here....I hope that those words don't become the norm for my life, rather, I hope that even when I'm tired, that I will try to have fun, and do things that don't revolve around stunts, football season, or excited high school girls!! So far, I've done a really good job, so I'm patting myself on the back!

First on my list is to become a better blogger....I really like going back and reading what my life was like in the midst of myself...LOL! I'm vowing in September to get my life together, and well you know...blog about it...that just may be a tall order to fill, but a girl can wish can't she?!

In other news...my first school weekend was a success. I co-hosted Amanda's shower on Saturday morning, went to a football game Saturday night, and crashed around 8:30 p.m. Sunday, I saw the movie 'Takers!' It was delicious....Idris Elba's accent...oh.my.word!!! Seriously ladies...it was so sexy!

After the movie, I caught lunch, and then treated myself to a much needed manicure, pedicure, and brow wax! Then...picked up a pair of pants and a dress at the Gap, and headed to Target to grocery shop for the week....fun, relaxing weekend!!!

Now, it's early Monday morning, and I'm gearing up for another busy week of school....I'll catch you gators later!

Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder...RIGHT?!

It's amazing what God has to do to get my attention sometimes. This particular instance....an upper respiratory infection, and ASTHMA...yes folks, I have asthma! The sad thing is that I've undoubtedly had it for quite some time, ok...to be honest, at least a couple of years, I just haven't had time to go to the doctor. Until this week.

It was B.A.D! I've never felt so sick...my coughs literally shook my entire body, my lungs rattled in my chest ALL NIGHT.... By the time I saw the doctor on Friday, I was in pain just from coughing. Four prescriptions, almost $400 in visit fees and meds, and I really do feel so much better. With these meds, come recovery, and that is where God met me!

During this time of 'rest' if you will, I've become so hungry for the word of God. I need Him to make my life complete, and for the past few months, I've been neglecting that relationship...and it was time to stop. I do believe He tried less drastic ways to get my attention, but I can be hard-headed, so He needed to pull out the big guns.

I don't know why I can't be still. I don't know why having nothing to do on my calendar irks me, but it's become a place that I just can't function in anymore. I need to learn to embrace those times when I have nothing to do...because they really are few and far between my friends.

I know I've been MIA practically all summer, but this blog hasn't been far from my mind. It just seems that when I'm a little out of touch with God...I don't have much to write about. That's going to change...not that my little musings are what you've been missing in life...HA!

I am starting a little bible study with one of my dearest friends...(I've always wanted to type that...it's the meds talking). It's called 'Ruth: Loss, Love, and Legacy' by Kelly Minter. I'm really excited about it because Ruth is one of my most favorite women in the Bible. I can't wait to dig into the word, and come out....well, changed?! With that said, I really don't know how to work through a bible study with just one other person...any suggestions? There are no leaders here, just two kindred spirits working to better their lives for the Lord. Honestly though...I really would appreciate any help on the dynamics of this!

I know it won't be long before I'm back again...I've missed writing so much! Until next time....lator gators!

Long Time No See...

I have not written in a while, but it's not because I don't have stuff to talk about. I guess I've been a little busy, and then when I haven't been so busy, I've enjoyed doing nothing...something that I don't get a chance to do often.

Let's see...what have you guys missed? Well, last week, my body went through a major workout shock. I hit the weights hard last week, and I paid for it in a major way. So much so that I couldn't perform my duties the last day....it hurt so badly! It felt good though...even though it felt bad...does that even make sense?!

I've been a little off my normal schedule...I have minimal groceries...which is very unlike me...and I haven't been to church in a lot of weeks, I wince to type that...you know, founder of a non-profit agency...skipping out on church, but it's/I'm missing something...and whatever that something is...my desire for it is causing me to be at a standstill....so, here I stand!

I think the problem is, I really don't know what I'm praying for around this church issue...maybe I'll know it when it happens!

My 4th of July was great! Dad and I cooked out on Saturday, and went shopping in Austin on Sunday! It was a great relaxing weekend.

Now, I'm home...hanging out on the sofa...should be in bed, because I've got an early morning appt with the gym, and then off to work for TAKS Remediation...go me! Oh yeah, and I really wish my iPhone 4 would hurry up and get here! I cannot wait...the anticipation is killing me.....I almost bought a case today, but my good sense kicked in..I mean, I don't even have the phone yet...but it should be soon!

I hope your holiday weekend was a blast! Have a great week peeps!
~J