November 7, 2016

I am behind on posting....if I were honest with myself, and you, I'd tell you that I have a partially written post dating back to February of this year. It just so happens to be the Junior League ODI post....then there's my trip to New Orleans complete with pictures that still needs to be written, my photo shoot from September, life in general, Junior League Super Saturday, and I really could go on....but I won't, because today, I have another post in mind.

The other day, I had to order a new driver's liscense because my current one will expire soon. It was a very surreal moment for me...

Rewind 9 years ago....November 7, 2001. I had just turned 21, and I celebrated in a very typical way that one celebrates, but I digress. I remember picking up that liscense, and seeing the date, November 7, 2010. My immediate thought is that I would be 30 the next time I'd need a new liscense. (I can really remember where I was at that moment, and everything...so weird)

30 seemed like such a long way from where I was at the time. I imagined what life would be like, (reality lends a very different picture btw), and where I'd live....it was just so weird to think of myself as ever being 30.....but, what a difference 9 years make....NINE YEARS!!!

In about a week and a half, I'll be 30 years old!!!!! THIRTY!!!!! I don't feel 30...if 30 feels like something. Heck, I still feel 21. I live a busy, active life. In fact, I love my life. Sure I have my bad moments, but overall, at the end of the day, I can count my blessings, and see God's hand. I don't think I look 30...I am still carded...which by the way, I'm becoming more and more thankful for! I don't even know if life changes much for me because I am about to be 30.

Sure, I wonder when 'it' will happen, but that's another topic for another day....

I have many hopes for this 30th year of life..and I'm working on a post entitled, "If I knew then what I know now..."

Oh, and for the record...yes, I will be 36 by the time I need a new liscense....we won't even go there...I've learned that it's easier to be ready for everything...you never know what's headed your way!

Have a great hump day folks...2 more days, and I'm with my family in Mississippi....I can't wait!!

Friday Randoms

Have you ever wondered why Sonic is the only fast food establishment that provides peppermints? Classy I tell ya!

Today is Friday, game day Friday! There are exactly three more games this football season, PTL! Every time I attend a game, I mentally thank my parents for coming to every single game without fail....EVERY. SINGLE. ONE!!! They folks, deserve a medal!

My house looks like a tornado hit it.....literally. In fact, when I walk in, I get anxious. This will change. Tonight. Whilst I'm drying my hair and singing to the tunes of my iPod! Speaking of my iPod, a song came on this morning whilst I was doing my make-up that took me back to an Alpha Step Show after party....do y'all remember that party? The one where we wore camo??! It was by far THE best after party to date...anywho...I took a moment to bust out my dance moves...because, it's how I roll in the mornings...really it is...I just may take my show on the road! I'm that good...oh I kid!

Anywho...I just thought I'd pop in here and spread a little I'm so glad it's Friday love...oh, and 9 weeks of school is over, and it's three weeks until my birthday, oh, and 2 weeks before I see my family in Mississippi!!! Have a great weekend!

The Ugly Side of Life...

I have been in a really crappy mood lately....not just a couple of days, but for a while now. I've always been fairly good at masking my feelings and such, so much so to my detriment sometimes, and I can't tell you how many times I've arrived on this blog to write about my days, but couldn't for fear of sounding like an ungrateful spoiled brat.

So, I offer you my disclaimer...this post will not be filled with feel good messages, pics of my life, or my normal wit....if you're looking for that, come back another day. But today, you're hearing from a girl who doesn't have it all figured out...who's annoyed with selfish people, and who's sometimes really tired of turning the other cheek!


I know I've written this before, but I am somewhat easily annoyed by people at times. My patience is very thin with those who can't see beyond their noses, or who don't do what I would do in a situation, because you know, I am perfect (I kid...really).


I've always heard that when people ask you how you're doing, they don't really mean it...or they don't really want to hear all that you have to say....this has hindered me from being totally open and forthcoming when I'm asked, because like most of us, I really don't like rejection, and when I take the time to share my feelings, and you brush them off...I get really annoyed, (there's that word again), and it totally makes me make a mental note for the future. But, is that the right thing to do? Is it what Jesus did? Aye yae yae....


I chuckle on a daily basis because people think I am so put together....me?! My life is not perfect, I make huge mistakes, I hurt people, people hurt me, I struggle with sin, and just like you, I have those fears, anxieties, and times when I need someone to listen to me, yes me, and not judge or want me to be ok, but just listen.

I'm not quite sure how to end this, and I'm not looking for sympathy or pity...just merely commenting on the things that have had my feathers ruffled here lately! I do want you to know that I know how blessed I am...I know that there are people who would give hand and foot to have my issues, and I have great people in my life...really I know this! Sometimes life is not cute, or convenient, or in my case, fair...and no matter how hard I want to, I can never not be who I am! Until next time...

Falling for this weather!

Finally, a nip in the air! Don't you just love it?! My heart skipped a beat when the little chill bumps arose on my arms this morning...oh Fall, how I've missed you so! I was beginning to think that Summer was never going to leave!

Things are going well on this side of the world! We are in the sixth week of school, and the kids are still behaving! I almost hate to type those words, but so far, so good!

I apologize now, but this post will be rather random....hope you stick around until the end!

I joined Weight Watchers on Saturday! I didn't really plan on doing it, but a friend call me because she did, and she encouraged me to do it with her. I've done it before, and was successful, and since I want to go down one more size (to a 10), I thought why not! I'd LOVE to hit my goal by my birthday, but I'm not putting too much pressure on myself. I know where I started, and consistency and time has played well in my favor!

So....I'm back to counting points, and I'm a little mixed up about it...I got really comfortable just watching what I ate, and now I am back to making a concerted effort to not eat bad things! Oh well right?! The weight loss will be worth it!

These last few weeks have been exhausting! I am so tired all of the time, but I'd rather be tired than bored out of my mind!

I'm sure the next post I write will have pics...did I tell you about the photo shoot I did with the wonderful Holly Anderson? Well, I guess you'll just have to come back won't you!

Calgon take me Away/ Friday Night Lights

It's Friday, and this girls needs a weekend getaway! I'm beat! I hope this doesn't come across as me complaining because I don't want to seem ungrateful, but when my alarm clock went off this morning....I seriously contemplated calling in...but 1) I'm not sick, and 2) it's GAME DAY!!!!

I think the most daunting part of all of this is that it's hard for me to see the end....just game after game after practice after assignment after meeting after work to grade after to-do list....I'm getting overwhelmed just typing it!

Anyway, I promised to blog more this month, and I want to at least attempt to keep that promise. I've also noticed that I've picked up a few new followers...which absolutely blows my mind since you know, I post daily, and have such awesome things to say! HA!

I think I'll allow myself to imagine if I could get away, where I would go...maybe to Lake Travis, or Dallas to my grandparents' farm, or heck....just being able to be in my own bed for longer than 6 hours! I try to remind myself that one day, I'll wish these days were here again, so I'm trying to stay in the moment....sometimes, a lot easier said than done!

Have a Fantastic Friday everyone!

The Weekend is Upon Us!

Well hello, and welcome to a 3 Day Weekend! I wish I could tell you I had huge plans, but you wanna know what I'll be doing? CHEER CHEER CHEER!!!!! With a little Saturday Night Football in the mix! It's all good though...you know you want my life! HA!

Seriously though, I don't mind! I consider it a huge blessing to be able to directly influence the lives of 27 young ladies...it's not always easy, but it's always worth it!

On a different note, I fell the other day. HARD. In the process I'm sure I twisted my anke a little bit, and I'm super sore. I definitely feel a massage in my future, especially since I own a monthly membership, and I have 3 months worth in the bank...seriously people...how does that happen?!? It is my goal to make this huge wrong RIGHT...ASAP!

Junior League is back in effect, and I am so excited! This year, I am a Provisional Advisor, and the best way I can explain this is to say that I am over a group of ladies (sort of like a pledge class)! My group will be the coolest, most successful group EVER! I'm so excited to lead them..I'll make sure to take a pic so that I can post it! Stay tuned!

One last thing before I leave....it was 82 degrees today!!! Now to some, that is still HOT, but to us Texans...it was a taste of Fall! And after triple digit weather for so long, we needed this reprieve!

I hope you all have a great long weekend....enjoy, relax, and do something for yourself!

First Week of School!

I'm back...are we starting to notice a trend here....that hopefully will soon change.

It's always a little awkward when I re-enter the blogging world. There has been so much that has gone on, and I don't know how to catch everyone up, but I promise I will do my best!


First of all, school has started, and the kids are back in full effect! I must admit though, this year is going so well. Not just the fact that my kids are still in the honeymoon phase, but my schedule is perfect, I end my day with cheer...what more could a girl as for?! I only teach 4 English classes a day, one cheer class, and two planning periods....I'm loving it!

Things have been so busy around here....I hope that those words don't become the norm for my life, rather, I hope that even when I'm tired, that I will try to have fun, and do things that don't revolve around stunts, football season, or excited high school girls!! So far, I've done a really good job, so I'm patting myself on the back!

First on my list is to become a better blogger....I really like going back and reading what my life was like in the midst of myself...LOL! I'm vowing in September to get my life together, and well you know...blog about it...that just may be a tall order to fill, but a girl can wish can't she?!

In other news...my first school weekend was a success. I co-hosted Amanda's shower on Saturday morning, went to a football game Saturday night, and crashed around 8:30 p.m. Sunday, I saw the movie 'Takers!' It was delicious....Idris Elba's accent...oh.my.word!!! Seriously ladies...it was so sexy!

After the movie, I caught lunch, and then treated myself to a much needed manicure, pedicure, and brow wax! Then...picked up a pair of pants and a dress at the Gap, and headed to Target to grocery shop for the week....fun, relaxing weekend!!!

Now, it's early Monday morning, and I'm gearing up for another busy week of school....I'll catch you gators later!

Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder...RIGHT?!

It's amazing what God has to do to get my attention sometimes. This particular instance....an upper respiratory infection, and ASTHMA...yes folks, I have asthma! The sad thing is that I've undoubtedly had it for quite some time, ok...to be honest, at least a couple of years, I just haven't had time to go to the doctor. Until this week.

It was B.A.D! I've never felt so sick...my coughs literally shook my entire body, my lungs rattled in my chest ALL NIGHT.... By the time I saw the doctor on Friday, I was in pain just from coughing. Four prescriptions, almost $400 in visit fees and meds, and I really do feel so much better. With these meds, come recovery, and that is where God met me!

During this time of 'rest' if you will, I've become so hungry for the word of God. I need Him to make my life complete, and for the past few months, I've been neglecting that relationship...and it was time to stop. I do believe He tried less drastic ways to get my attention, but I can be hard-headed, so He needed to pull out the big guns.

I don't know why I can't be still. I don't know why having nothing to do on my calendar irks me, but it's become a place that I just can't function in anymore. I need to learn to embrace those times when I have nothing to do...because they really are few and far between my friends.

I know I've been MIA practically all summer, but this blog hasn't been far from my mind. It just seems that when I'm a little out of touch with God...I don't have much to write about. That's going to change...not that my little musings are what you've been missing in life...HA!

I am starting a little bible study with one of my dearest friends...(I've always wanted to type that...it's the meds talking). It's called 'Ruth: Loss, Love, and Legacy' by Kelly Minter. I'm really excited about it because Ruth is one of my most favorite women in the Bible. I can't wait to dig into the word, and come out....well, changed?! With that said, I really don't know how to work through a bible study with just one other person...any suggestions? There are no leaders here, just two kindred spirits working to better their lives for the Lord. Honestly though...I really would appreciate any help on the dynamics of this!

I know it won't be long before I'm back again...I've missed writing so much! Until next time....lator gators!

Long Time No See...

I have not written in a while, but it's not because I don't have stuff to talk about. I guess I've been a little busy, and then when I haven't been so busy, I've enjoyed doing nothing...something that I don't get a chance to do often.

Let's see...what have you guys missed? Well, last week, my body went through a major workout shock. I hit the weights hard last week, and I paid for it in a major way. So much so that I couldn't perform my duties the last day....it hurt so badly! It felt good though...even though it felt bad...does that even make sense?!

I've been a little off my normal schedule...I have minimal groceries...which is very unlike me...and I haven't been to church in a lot of weeks, I wince to type that...you know, founder of a non-profit agency...skipping out on church, but it's/I'm missing something...and whatever that something is...my desire for it is causing me to be at a standstill....so, here I stand!

I think the problem is, I really don't know what I'm praying for around this church issue...maybe I'll know it when it happens!

My 4th of July was great! Dad and I cooked out on Saturday, and went shopping in Austin on Sunday! It was a great relaxing weekend.

Now, I'm home...hanging out on the sofa...should be in bed, because I've got an early morning appt with the gym, and then off to work for TAKS Remediation...go me! Oh yeah, and I really wish my iPhone 4 would hurry up and get here! I cannot wait...the anticipation is killing me.....I almost bought a case today, but my good sense kicked in..I mean, I don't even have the phone yet...but it should be soon!

I hope your holiday weekend was a blast! Have a great week peeps!
~J

Caught!

Matthew 14:31 (New International Version)
31Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"

A lot of people, myself included, tend to think that God only shows up when doubt is gone...not a factor, faith in full effect. I can't tell you the times that I've wondered if I haven't received something that I've prayed for based on my level of faith...anyone been there?!

However, the above verse in my opinion shows just the opposite. Verse 31 comes after Jesus asks Peter to walk on water. At first, Peter succeeds, his eyes on Jesus, he shows that he can walk on that very water. BUT, doubt sets in, the factors are considered, the reality of the situation sets in, and he realizes that there is no reason why he should be walking on the water?

We all know what happens next...Peter sees the wind, and begins to get scared and sink.

Have you ever been there? Where you can't understand why you are accomplishing something that you very well shouldn't be able to perform? What about you muster up enough strength to wrap your mind around the task, but once you start, you begin to back pedal, and question why you?!

God promises us that He will restore our faith (James 5:15). Verse 31 shows us that God does not turn away, or wait for our faith to be restored before He reaches out His hand in times of doubt. I needed to explore this verse because I naturally tend to doubt A LOT! I don't like that I do, but if I can be real and honest....doubt sets in often times way before faith. It has been comforting to read that God recognizes that His people doubt, and that He still reaches out to catch us despite our humanness...

One of my most favorite scriptures, (notice a trend here), is Exodus 14:14 'the Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.' This scripture is positioned right in the middle of the Exodus led by Moses to take the people to the Promised Land. The people were complaining, scared, and fearful. This fear caused them to pray. God often brings us to scary places so that we have no choice but to call on Him, to pray and communicate with Him, and then to WAIT! (A topic that deserves a post for itself...stay tuned).

However, doubt many times manifests itself in the waiting period...will it happen, can I do it, why me, will I succeed, am I on the right path? I could go on and on! The answer is yes, it just may not be the answer we expected, or in the package we dreamed about....and only God's timing can bring peace...

~Goodnight!

Lo Siento...

I think this means 'I'm sorry' in Spanish. It has been a while since I've posted, but I promise I have valid reasons.

I have been running like crazy for the past 2 weeks, and while at least I am back in Houston, I am far from resting!

So...what have I been up to you ask? Well, summer cheer practice started with a bang, and then I had my family reunion on my father's side. I went down that morning, and came back that evening because I left for cheer camp the very next day...and that's where I've been for the past four days. I'm exhausted to say the least, but the firls did so well, and they had a blast.

I will post more tomorrow, Taviea's wedding shower is this weekend, and I'm hosting with Malitta, so there will be many more stories to share!

Hope you all are doing well.. ~

David said it best...

I'm still working on that post of my thoughts on shadowing my principals....it's coming, but I'm not in the mindset to finish it tonight!!!

Tonight, I just want to talk about whatever comes to my mind. Have I mentioned that this is my last week of school? Can you hear me screaming with joy...can you? My plan is to party hard this summer...to live it up! I've got eight weeks to pack it all in, and that's exactly what I plan on doing!

I've blogged about Psalm 27:8 a couple of times before, but tonight, I took the time to read the entire chapter...

1 A psalm of David. The LORD is my light and my salvation -- so why should I be afraid? The LORD protects me from danger -- so why should I tremble? 2 When evil people come to destroy me, when my enemies and foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. 3 Though a mighty army surrounds me, my heart will know no fear. Even if they attack me, I remain confident. 4 The one thing I ask of the LORD -- the thing I seek most -- is to live in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, delighting in the LORD's perfections and meditating in his Temple. 5 For he will conceal me there when troubles come; he will hide me in his sanctuary. He will place me out of reach on a high rock. 6 Then I will hold my head high, above my enemies who surround me. At his Tabernacle I will offer sacrifices with shouts of joy, singing and praising the LORD with music. 7 Listen to my pleading, O LORD. Be merciful and answer me! 8 My heart has heard you say, "Come and talk with me." And my heart responds, "LORD, I am coming." 9 Do not hide yourself from me. Do not reject your servant in anger. You have always been my helper. Don't leave me now; don't abandon me, O God of my salvation! 10 Even if my father and mother abandon me, the LORD will hold me close. 11 Teach me how to live, O LORD. Lead me along the path of honesty, for my enemies are waiting for me to fall. 12 Do not let me fall into their hands. For they accuse me of things I've never done and breathe out violence against me. 13 Yet I am confident that I will see the LORD's goodness while I am here in the land of the living. 14 Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD.

David I feel, was in a place where he struggled with the goodness of God, and his current situations. Where he personally knew what God was capable of, but he had people in his life, many whom he respected that wanted to protect him, and offer their opinions. David was in a war...maybe physical, but definitely spiritual.

One can become spoiled when they've experienced the goodness of God, when they know that above all...He can. It's a dark road to travel when we are met with silence. It's not a good feeling at all.

Have you been there? Me too friends, me too!

Many people believed that David wrote the 27th Psalm in two parts...the break coming around verse 6. Verses 1-6 highlighting a time in his life where God's blessings were abundant, obvious, you know that place, where we can feel His hand and His presence?

Many Christians believe that verses 7-12 extend from a time in David's life when he desperately needed to hear from God. However, he felt that God was not answering him, that he was forgotten. Absurd yes....far fetched...I don't think so...

We all know that God doesn't move His face. The Bible says that He is the same yesterday, today, and forever (Heb 13:8). He is incapable of change....but we aren't. Our lives are in a constant state of motion, and with this comes the fact that we stray...maybe not for a long time, but a shift nonetheless. So, it's easy to feel that God is silent, hidden, or has pressed the ignore button on your calls, but the psalmist says it best, '13 Yet I am confident that I will see the LORD's goodness while I am here in the land of the living. 14 Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD. '

On this night my friends, it's enough for me. He is enough for me. If He understands, no one else has to. If He has said it will happen, then I believe it...I expect it, and I'll praise Him in advance for it.

The REACH! front:
Again, what can I say. Blessings all around! I met with part of the REACH! team weekend before last, and we started planning 'Defying Gravity,' the back-to-school event! I'm so excited. My summer days will be devoted to all things Principal and all things REACH! I bought a mini notebook computer today for easy travel so that I could take my work on the road with me. It was a GREAT deal...and the best part....it's pink! YAY!

Right now the date is September 18th if all goes well, and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that my principal will let us have it at my school. Our theatre is amazing...and free!!!!! Pray with me on that will you?

Goodnight bloggies....

First Day as a Principal!

Quick Update: I have to be at work by 6:30...which I haven't accomplished since....the first month of school maybe! My principal originally said 6:00, but thank goodness she changed her mind...that's crazy! I wonder what time she'll let me go home...there really is no telling!

I'm taking her breakfast, or at least coffee....and I have no clue what I'm going to do...but I'll soon find out! So, peace out peeps....I've got to get ready for tomorrow...

It's All Good!

There are nine days separating me from today, and the end of the school year! Music to my ears. I'm going to try to enjoy each day, and work out at least during the week, because I have become a huge slacker in that department!!! Just sad!

I'll be attending one wedding, and I'm a bridesmaid in another....a trip to Virginia, New Orleans, and maybe even a little weekend in Vegas...if the dates align! Add curriculum development, and cheer practice, and that will probably bring me back to August way before I feel like it, but I'll be busy, so it's all good!

There is one thing (well...there are a LOT of things...but for the sake of staying on topic) that I want to conquer this summer. Would you like to meet him?

His name is Hell on Earth...better known as 'bleachers.' I see a lot of this in my future with the cheerleaders this summer, and they kick my butt!!!! BIG TIME!!! Add 100+ temperatures, and let's call it a party...NOT! On the up side, I'm imagining what my thighs and buttocks will look like! Don't hate me because I'm crazy! HA!

Have a great Thursday peeps! I'm back to homework!!

OH! One more thing...I'm shadowing my Head Principal tomorrow, and one of the Assistant Principals Monday! Should be exciting. Wonder what I should wear?!? I'm so ready to move up to the next level, but in His time....and it's all good!!!! For real...I mean it for real!

I'll be sure to let you know how tomorrow goes! I might even take pics for my blog...LOL! Not of the kids of course, that would not be good!

Treading water really isn't surviving at all.....

One of my friends knew I was having a hard time processing yesterday, and asked me if I wanted to write a letter about it....in the midst of all of that was going on...I had to chuckle. Writing for me does make it better. It's getting so that I rarely write in my journal, my thoughts too quick for my poor hand to keep up. I'm preferring the speed the keyboard of my laptop affords me. BUT, my heart misses the privacy my journal gives me. Not that I have any deep brooding secrets, but just because!

Bottom line...I miss my journal...and my church (I've been out of town the last 4 weeks, and I can feel it). Random interjection I know, but I think what this all boils down to is that I miss my Jesus! No, He hasn't gone anywhere, and neither have I, but I firmly believe that it's my lack of mobility that is the bigger issue. I am coasting. Treading water.

I'm allowing past disappointments and failures to ruin what's going on now, and 1) that is so unlike me, and 2) that contradicts what the Word says.

I know that there is a life of excellence ahead of me. I can't rest in mediocrity, and I long to make it all work, and to make it all fit. BUT, I wonder, just maybe if I'm overloading on what I know I should be doing, and what is already in my life, to forget and kill the desire of what I really want?!?

This school year is barely coming to a close, and trust me, when the next one starts...it'll be the biggest year of my life to date. I can count 4 MAJOR projects that I am personally involved in that will require ALL of my time, and while it makes me happy on one hand, it scares me to death on the other....because what if I do all of this, you know, to build the Kingdom and what not, and I never get 'found?' Let's do a motive check...geesh! What if I'm 50, and never reach my dreams, and never have a family...what if?!

You may judge and think that if these are my problems, then I've got it made, and you know, I might just have to agree with you, but I had a little anxiety attack yesterday, because I know that each of these 4 projects is what I've been called to do, but I have heard no guarantee that I will ever receive what I want.....and that my friends, scares me. I know it sounds like I'm saying God owes me something, and I know that He doesn't.....and I hope you know that that's not what's in my heart....

It is so not easy following the will of God, but I know I'm better for it....I know I am! I'll write more later, I've got a long day/night ahead of me.

If I had to pick one...

I love reading! I grew up in a family that would take trips to the bookstore....we could stay there for hours! In particular, my Aunt Jennifer...(I've never called her 'Aunt' in my life), and I are very avid readers. We still find time to sneak away and go to the bookstore, and try to find that special book that will keep us occupied for the next....2 days...HA!

Because I love to read so much, I don't have a favorite author. I love them all, but if I was forced to pick, hands down it would be Redeeming Love, by Francine Rivers!! SO SO SO GOOD!!! If you've never read it..I promise you won't be disappointed!

It's a fictional account of the book of Hosea, and while that may not make you run out and buy it....your trust in my picks should make you!

Growing up, I can remember this book that my Mom would read to me. I SO wish I could remember the title as I want to be able to share it with my children too. I was a book about being a big girl. Being kind to others, and always sharing. It would also say that when things and people hurt you to remember to be a big girl....such a heavy topic for a little tike.

I can remember skinning my knee, or something like that, and my Mom picking me up and telling me not to cry and to 'remember what the book said.' I know I'm probably not giving a really big depiction, but if you know what book I am talking about, please let me know...remember, I'm a child of the 80s, so it was published around that time....

Another childhood favorite was The Babysitter's Club series (I wanted to start my own club FOR REAL), and Sweet Valley High! Do y'all remember those books? Talk about addiction..I used to belong to a book club that would send me 2 books every single month FOR YEARS while in middle and high school. I'm so glad my parents fostered a love of reading. It makes you smarter people....trust me, I'm a teacher. I can tell those kids who read for pleasure...they know things even if they haven't experienced them personally....READ TO YOUR KIDS and MAKE THEM READ!!!!! (jumping off soapbox)

Have a great FRIDAY! Spring Show is tonight, and then Waco tomorrow! Life is busy, but life is GREAT!

It's a God thing...

It's Thursday, and this week has literally flown by....but not without a little hard work and determination to get through it.

Did I mention I'm a teacher....of 10th grade hormonal, cranky, ready for summer children???!!! Do you understand what it's like to get them even remotely interested in 'Phantom of the Opera' right now? Trust me peeps...this is no easy task!

However, the days till summer are winding down, and soon, I will become a lady of leisure...or maybe not. For the record, I have a grant writing course to attend, a federal grant to write, a non-profit organization to get on its feet...SCHOOL....and a few more pounds to lose to hit my goal weight!!! But don't get me wrong...there will be some leisurely days!

Today I'm pretty excited....Amanda and I are meeting to get together for the grant. She's going to help me find sponsors and fundraise. She's basically the 'Queen of Green,' so I can't tell you how excited I am that she's willing to work. Because, did I mention she's preggers, with a 3 year old? Yeah...she's wonder woman, but what can I say? The girl is good!

Also, the final member of my grant writing team accepted today. She showed me in her journal where she had written under her personal goals section that #1 was to learn how to write grants this year.....I have goosebumps just thinking about. God never gives a vision without provision. NEVER!!! I can't believe how He continues to bless the work of my hands, and gives me so many capable, smart, and driven people to help...it's such an amazing feeling.

Anyway...that's this Terrific Thursday in a nutshell! I'll be back...I haven't forgotten about those pics...I just haven't found that cord just yet....lol!

Trip to Jackson, Mother's Day, and Reach!

I know it's been a minute since I've posted, but I'm back from my trip to Jackson, and I had a lovely time. I have pictures that I took, and I'll post them when I can find my camera cord, but Karmen is getting so tall, and Danyelle is becoming quite the cheerleader....she's amazing, if I do say so myself!

My family really is the coolest, and I'm glad I got a chance to spend the day with my Mom, and my Grandmother!

Mother's Day started off with breakfast cooked by my Mom, sorry Mom, and then we all went to church. Afterwards, we went to Sonny's Bar-B-Que, and it was delicious! It was a loud, fun time...with a 13 person party!

On the Reach! front:
Things are progressing quite smoothly...well, that is if you don't count my freak-outs about the funding...and the simple logistics of 'how do you run/start/fund a non-profit...' Other than that, things are going well. My team and I are working on a grant app now. Did I mention it was a federal grant? Did I mention I'm quite sure I'll have my doctoral thesis completed whilst writing this grant??? It's a DOOZIE!!!

I feel so unprepared, under qualified, and pretty much useless in this process. Thankfully, I'm meeting with a lady in our district today, and she's hopefully going to put my mind at ease....Lord knows I need it!

I'll be back later to post pics from the weekend! And, in the next couple of weeks, I'll need your help voting for my grant application to win the funding...I'll keep you posted on those details though!

Capable People

Today started off great, but ended mucho hectic!!! Trust me, I wasn't ready for its activities, but I survived! Needless to say, when I got home, I was pretty much a walking zombie!

Let's just say, chocolate would have been GREAT tonight...but I intentionally didn't purchase any on my last shopping trip. How cruel of me!

On the Reach! front, I learned a lot today. I was able to get some valuable resources for grant opportunities, and things are shaping up nicely. I'm working on an e-mail to send out to all that have expressed an interest in helping with Reach! I hope the e-mail doesn't scare them away! I'm itching to delegate some things to more capable people! I'm so glad the Lord delivered me from thinking that only I can do things for me...you know what I mean? I used to be so afraid to release the reigns on things I was associated with. I missed out on so many opportunities to better my experiences by allowing other, more capable people to help me.

Tomorrow, I leave for Mississippi...I'm pretty pumped! I'll post, either from my phone, or the computer! I'm off to bed now...I'm pooped!

~J

Write the Vision...

There are very few times when I'm speechless....and by speechless, I mean having NOTHING to say! Well, tonight is one of those nights!

(Oh, and by the way! HAPPY CINCO DE MAYO!!! I celebrated with Amanda and Abbey, Presha and her two girls, and Amy and her fam! It was a fun, loud, crazy time! I meant to get a picture, but with 3 kiddos.....that didn't happen)

Anywho, I'm just blown away by the outreach of support from my friends, total Habakkuk 2:2 moment!

Today was pretty eventful as well, I received the Employee Identification Number, as well as filed the non-profit paperwork with the state. It's coming along....really it is, and I have no doubt it will be great!

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REACH!

Hey! It's just Tuesday, and I am exhausted! Maybe it's because I have a laundry list of items to take care of...and let's just say that everyday...I add about 3 major items to said list. Trust me, I'm not complaining...but it is a little overwhelming at times!

I wanted to let you know something...I filed the papers for my non-profit's name. That seems weird even as I type this...my non-profit...but I did it, and I'm excited! It was a painless experience, and in case you're wondering, it cost 16 bucks!

You wanna know the name....well, without further ado, the name registered in Harris County is REACH! To give you a little background, it was originally supposed to be another name, but it was already taken! I started to panic a little bit, and asked the lady if I could step outside for a minute. I just said a little prayer, and REACH! came to mind! It turns out that I really like it! Do you?

I feel so grown up, and so in the time and place that I am supposed to be in...and that feels SO GOOD!!! Now the real work begins, and to be honest, it gets a little crazier by the minute, but you know, I just thought my friends were cool before...now I know they are! They've been stepping up and offering help, contacts, support, ideas....I feel so blessed everyday! So many people lack the solid friendships that I have, and I don't take them for granted. I'm talking let me pray with you on that....awesomeness at its best right?!

Speaking of awesome friends, my good friend Mike co-owns a graphic design firm, and he and his partner are working with me to brand REACH! So, technically, I've had my very first REACH! business meeting....all while I was talking to him, I kept repeating, 'I can't believe this is happening....' And I can't!

I could seriously go on and on, but this girl...with the newly discovered sexy tiny set of spider veins need to go to bed! I've got SO much to do, and almost not enough time to do it!

Say your prayers, and dream big! God is listening!!!

*image via google

Pray with me...

Hey there!!! It's lovely May, and I couldn't be happier....the end of the school year is near! Hallelujah!!! I'm just posting really quickly to ask for prayer. I've got a lot of decisions to make, and I want to be sure that they are decisions that glorify God, and are what He wants, not what I would like to see happen.

Of course this has to do with the non-profit. I feel like this is such a HUGE mountain, and at times, I'm feeling very ill equipped, but I know that is not of God. I'll post an update later...but until then, will you just pray!

Later gators! ~J

Getting my Want to to Want to!

Hey there! I hope you all had a wonderful Saturday! I know I did! I was up bright and early with some things to cross off of my to-do list for today! This included a massage, a hair trim, a little baking for the fight party, and schoolwork!

I'm happy to say that I got it all accomplished so that I could enjoy myself later in the day! BUT, even with such a productive Saturday, I've still got so much to do on my to-do list....and the motivation is really not there! So.....I'm going to post my ginormous to-do list right here...for all the world to see, and hopefully, there can be some accountable amongst us...what do you say?

1. put away my clean clothes
2. unpack suitcase from my last trip so that I can re-pack for upcoming trip
3. order book for new class....hopefully 1/2 priced books has it
4. Get DBA, mail off papers
5. schedule meeting of the minds
6. compose letter for sponsorships and speakers
7. CLEAN OUT CLOSET!!!!
8. mop the floors
9. take car to dealership...see what that light is all about!

Now do you see my plight? I've got so much to do, and my want to is pretty much non existent! I AM SO READY FOR SCHOOL TO BE OUT!!! Love my lady of leisure summer days!

Please, if you see me, ask me how I'm doing...and I'll come back and update you all! Goodnight!

Family Ties

If you know me at all...(seriously, I wonder how many times that phrase has appeared on my blog), then you know I am a total Daddy's girl! Hands down, he literally hung the moon, and is the best man on the planet!

BUT-- for Mother's Day weekend, my Mom and I are flying to Mississippi together to be with my grandmother and aunts! Y'all, I am so excited! Mainly because my Mom and her sisters are the most hilarious women on the planet. And my cousins....well just 9 of my closest friends!

Back to my Mom and her sisters...there's never a dull moment. We are always guaranteed to eat well, laugh a lot, and shop even more. I promise you, these ladies can make the most out of a shopping day...they wear me out! For example, when I was there for Christmas, we went to the mall 10 out of the 12 days that I was there....and those 2 free days, were holidays! We feel it's our duty to stimulate the economy! HA!

I've been anticipating this weekend since I bought my plane ticket...about a month ago! And, it's almost here. I love my family! They are the coolest people on the planet, and for the most part, we get along rather well.

--I interrupt this regularly scheduled program to let you know that I just received an e-mail from Priscilla Shirer's office....she can't come, BUT there's always a ram in the bush, and I've got some fabulous things planned....don't worry people...I will meet her one day...and it will be great!

So, I just had to hop in here and share my excitement with you....my faithful readers....I'm sure your Friday is now complete...HA! Oh, and for all of my Texas peeps....the beast known as TAKS is OVER! Praise Jesus....it's so hard to be quiet for that long...I like to teach....and actively watching the tops of heads is no bueno! But, until next year!

Have a fabulous Friday, and I just may be back later with pics from our End of TAKS celebration!!! Make today count...God loves you!

Update and Coupon Maintenance!

So yesterday I had a meeting and TOTALLY planned out what the next few months will look like legally speaking! It was exciting, but I left totally overwhelmed...not a regular emotion for me!

I mean, I know I can do it, but there are SO many details, and generally speaking, I'm a big picture person. I like to vision cast, and can easily identify next steps, but when it comes to the minute-by-minute....not my strong side! Luckily for me, most of my close friends are detail hunters, and they've got my back. Once I get a few of the paperwork duckies in a row, I'm going to have a 'meeting of the minds,' so I can delegate some of these tasks to much more capable people!

On the drive home, I found myself really shocked at the possibilities, but I was reminded that God predestined my steps before my Mother ever knew she'd be a momma, heck before her momma's momma momma knew....and that I've just settled for what I see, not what God can do in my life! Trust me though...I'm taking it one day at a time because God's blessings can knock a girl off of her feet!

I know you're probably chomping at the bit for more details, but honestly right now...I don't have them. I have a notebook with pages and pages of notes, ideas, names, contacts, addresses, etc...but I promise to keep you updated, and I KNOW I'll need your opinion, so please stick around!

Now-- It's Show Us Your Life at Kelly's Korner, and the subject is money saving tips. Now, I'm not the biggest finance guru...far from it to say the least, but I have a few tricks of the trade!

I keep a cute little leather pocket deal in my purse full of my coupons. That way, when I get them in the mail, I just stick them right in there, and when I go to the store, they're ready. Also, if you're a teacher, you get a discount at New York and Company, Barnes & Noble, Waldenbooks, Books a Million...can you think of any others?

A lot of people decline this option, but I use one of my old e-mail addresses for stores to have. You'd be surprised how many stores let you know by e-mail when great sales are happening, and they'll even e-mail coupons. Stores like The Gap, Banana Republic, Express, NY&Co, etc will take the email version of the coupon if you show them on your cell phone!

Don't miss out on these coupons because you don't want to give away your e-mail...it's worth it!

I never go to the grocery store without a list...EVER!!!! I save so much money this way!

If you don't take your lunch to work....do it! This too saves money, and often times inches on your waistline! Being a single gal, I always have left overs, so I try to take them to work.

I'm sure you have many more tips....this is certainly something I need to work on!

Goodnight! Tomorrow is the last day of TAKS...our state assessment! Hallelujah!

Can pride EVER be Holy...HA?

Because if so, I am so GODLY proud of what I got a chance to participate in...

Well, I'm back, and my trip was AMAZING!!! Y'all, I had so much fun, ate SO MUCH...(I need to cleanse), and God spoke in the car just like I thought He would, and gave me the most amazing gift e.v.e.r!!!

I'll give you a day-by-day! So get ready....it was a packed weekend!

FRIDAY:
I left work during my conference period, and hit the road! I waited a bit on my sweet tea so that I could stop at Bucee's! Does your state have a Bucee's? If not...oh my word!!! You are missing out! I may have gotten a chicken salad wrap, and I may have also gotten a huge bag of brite crawlers...maybe!

I arrived in Waco with enough time to head home, change, and hop in the car to head to the middle school. Taylor and three of her classmates put on a PALS project for middle school girls. We were dressed in our PJ's, and had cute event shirts! The event was called 'Defying Gravity,' and the stage WAS SO CUTE!!! Tracy and I were blown away that the girls did so much on their own! It looked so professional....I was such a proud big sister!

My job was to talk skin care etc., with middle.school.girls! Oh my word! I kept thanking God over and over that I teach high school! They were so........EXTRA!!! Y'all, I'm exhausted just thinking about them. Whew...it was quite a night, and I taught 4 sessions!

The event hosted an amazing speaker, Joy Elliot, wife to Lynn Elliot, former Dallas Cowboy. Her story is amazing, and the girls really identified with her!

We made it home...to bed right around 1 a.m. Just in time for the huge storm to hit....welcome back to Waco! HA! Needless to say, I slept like a baby!

SATURDAY:
Slept in a little bit, but was up and at 'em so that we could go shopping! I was able to get some kolaches from West....sweet heaven on earth! We picked up some things for Taylor, and I picked up my Mom's Mother's Day gift, and a pair of yellow box flip-flops for me....do you know them? If not....you are missing out! The most comfortable flip-flops ever!

We made a little excursion to Hobby Lobby...and Tracy told me to get some things for a project that we could work on later...true story! You can go to her house and make just about anything...so I was pumped. I got a couple of sheets of scrapbook paper to work on these frames. Aren't they cute?! I'm so happy with how they turned out!

Lunch at Chuy's...can you believe it, Waco has a Chuy's...followed by more shopping! Then, my allergies were so bad that we ended up heading home, and I crashed! I couldn't have done another thing if I tried! I woke up around 10:00 ready for dinner of course!

SUNDAY:
I was actually able to sleep in. So much so that I ended up having a brunch of....drumroll please...BUSH'S! Then, Tracy said my favorite words..."you want to do your craft now?!" Umm! yeah! And we made so many frames...and they were SO CUTE! I couldn't believe how easy it was. She's going to sell them, and I'm just going to make them for gifts...neither of us really have the time, but did I mention how cute they are!

WHAT'S IN THE WORKS:So...I mentioned a conversation that I had with Him while on the road, and I'll give you as many details as I have right now. I feel led to hold a Christian youth conference for girls, in the 7th-12th grades. As a teacher, it is not always politically correct for me to share about God, even though I do! I love it because there are girls in my first period that will 'remind' me to say my morning prayers if I seem a little on edge..they are PK's...love them!

I digress-- SO, the planning is in the baby stages right now...I'm trying to secure a speaker, and I'm working with my friend Sarah on the venue...DISCLOSURE: the next few paragraphs will be ALL OVER THE PLACE!!! Stay with me.

So, for the speaker...do you know who I e-mailed, tweeted, and put a beautifully hand written snail mail letter in the mailbox yesterday? Have you any guesses? I've shared my undying love and devotion for her here, and here, and I read her blog EVERYDAY!!! I may be obsessed...just slightly..HA!

If you've never met Priscilla Shirer, and by that, I mean having read any of her Bible studies, then seriously, what are you waiting for! Her stories are so hilarious, and they make you feel totally normal...trust me! Anyway, I know it's a long shot...I know she's a really big deal, but I just might have an inside hook-up that I sure wasn't afraid to use!! NO SHAME HERE! I'm kind of chuckling just thinking about what I have just done, but seriously...it means that much to me...and here's why!

I did a little poll from twitter and my FB friends asking for noted Christian youth speakers...and you know the ONLY name that I came up with....yep...HER! So, I'm taking that, and running with it. If you have any names, then feel free to share..but it made me sad that there really aren't a lot of people out there for the youth...specifically young girls. I guess that's why I feel so strongly. I had so many women pouring into my life....SO MANY, and I know that is why I'm so cool now...OK...I'm joking, but it was awesome having these people in my life that I could go to, hear their stories, and learn from their mistakes..I want to be that to someone else.

For the sake of the length of this post, I'm going to end it...and PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE say a prayer that Mrs. Shirer have mercy on my over zealous heart, and grace these babies with her presence. PLEASE!!! (Again, I'm chuckling that I can even type these words in the same sentence...but God is BIG enough...) Can you imagine how their lives would be changed?? Can you? I get goose bumps just thinking about it...if nothing else, maybe we can get on her calendar for 2012...because yes folks...she's booked through NEXT YEAR! Can we say turning water into wine....BUT GOD!

Goodnight friends..and don't forget about that really small prayer request...LOL!

Me, My Tea, and My Tunes

Today...has been a day...well really, this week has been a week! I don't know about you all, but I am ready for the weekend! I need to think...do you know what I mean?

On a normal day, at a normal time, a lot is swimming around in this head of mine...so you can imagine the movie reel that is playing out right now. It's enough to keep my exhausted and napping...ha! Lucky for me, I've got a drive to Waco coming up (you know..to visit my vanilla family, and help Taylor with her PALS project), and long drives always help me clear my head. It's something about being on the open road, with my iTunes playing on my iPhone....talking to God, listening, worshipping....drinking sweet tea from Chick-Fil-A....notice how I slid that in there....told ya I was obsessed!

I am often so guilty of asking the opinion of my close friends, that I sometimes have too many opinions floating around in my head, and really don't know which way to go! Are you starting to see just how all over the place I can be?! It's ridiculous!

I digress..I should return from my trip to Waco refreshed, and with a gameplan...Lord knows I need one, and the quiet time alone...no kids, no husband...just kidding, but seriously, no 167 kids calling my name, and pulling me one hundred different directions.

Have a Happy Earth Day bf's! Give back to the Earth that gives so much to us!

HONEST SCRAP RECIPIENTS:
I want to award the following blogs with the honest scrap award! It's an honor to pass it on!

Jessica at From Marriage to Motherhood
Melissa at Stafford Moments
Corrie at Sea of Corrie
Nicki at Nicksterland
Ashley at Ashley's Avenue

In all Honesty!

I received another blog award today, and I dont' know what to do with myself! Thanks Kelsey...I'm honored...honestly..HA!


Kelsey mentioned 10 random things about herself, and I thought I'd do the same!

1. I have a sweet obsession with sweet tea, and I'm convinced that if I gave it up, I'd lose that last 20 pounds!

2. I love reading blogs. I could do it all day if...you know, I didn't have a job!

3. I have an obsession with the overuse of (...) and (!)...! see?!

4. I do but I don't want to teach summer school this summer. What do you think? I'm divided!

5. I follow the same morning routine EVERY morning...without deviation!

6. I like room temperature bottled water...cold makes my head hurt.

7. I hate working out...I'd rather not eat bad foods!

8. My favorite Tyler candle is 'DIVA!' Have you met her? She smells wonderful!

9. I love colored markers, SHARPIES, and cute notecards!!! LOVE THEM!

10. I miss the chicken salad from Amelia's in Waco...like for real!

Hope you enjoyed reading my randomness for tonight, and thanks again Kelsey!
My allergies are still kicking my butt, so much so that I slept 4 hours today after work! It was AWESOME!!! Enjoy your night bf's!

Still waiting...

WOW!! I had no idea that my last post would evoke such emotions from you, my lovely readers....thank you for your encouragement, but for now, I'm still not ready!

I promise the publish button will be hit soon...just not today! Is that cool?! Sorry peeps, y'all know this is a struggle for me!

Yesterday, I worked out outside, and my allergies are kicking butt today! They actually started soon after I got back inside, and they still haven't let up. I have a huge tickle in my nose, and throat....yuck!

This week seems to be going by a little too slow for me. I'm headed to Waco this weekend to spend a little time with my vanilla family...ha! Taylor has a PALS project that I am helping her out on, and I couldn't be more excited. I get to teach middle school girls about proper skin care, and more importantly how 'less is more.' It should be pretty fun! I'll have pics to post later!

I don't know if I mentioned this, but I am going to Mississippi for Mother's Day. Mom and I are connecting in Houston and flying together to Jackson. I.can't.wait! I love going to MS to spend time with my family....I'm sure I'll have lots of laughs, and of course...pics to share!

Hope your hump day is going well friends! Catch you later!

Because that would be awkward wouldn't it...?

I have a confession. I've been holding out for the last couple of weeks, and to be honest, I don't know when I'm going to give you all full disclosure. I want to, but oh what a struggle this is. To be completely open, 'naked,' exposed....because what if it all blows up in my face, and here it is, for all the world to see!

I know that I really shouldn't be thinking about this, and just in case you're wondering about the valuable moments I may have missed due to not blogging...I have it all typed out...in posts... I'm just too chicken to hit the publish key!

Don't laugh at me...ok, you can laugh...go right ahead!

This made me feel better...

Today was a very trying day! I'm sure teachers across the nation can attest to this, but my kids are losing it...which causes their teacher to lose it! I had to raise my voice, and do a litt 'woo-sah' cycles....But, today two things made me happy...I had dinner with my BFF, and when I got home, a lovely package was waiting for me!

A couple of days ago, I ordered some accessories from Francesca's! All of it was on sale...well, except for the ring...I couldn't resist! But I'm talking a major sale here....two pair of the earrings were $6.00, and the other two were pretty cheap as well. I believe the necklace was $12.00!!

Needless to say...this made my day...and I immediately tried on every piece of jewelry...I can't wait to pair them with clothes! There's only one thing that could have made this day end any better, but I guess I will just have to wait until tomorrow!

Have a great night friends! I'll catch your guys tomorrow!

Amy Beth!

One of the greatest things about having a blog is that readers whom you don't even know stumble across your pages, and hopefully grab something they can call their own, and learn from.
One of my friends Amy Beth has a blog, owns her own business, touches the lives of probably 400+ girls, gives of herself freely, seriously...I could go on, and she's only 25. But today, I read a post from her that no one wants to see someone they care for go through. You can read that post here, but just know that it's the sucky of all suckiest (excuse my poor choice of words) situation.

Tomorrow, those that know her, and those that don't are banding together to pray for her....literally from all over the country, and quite possibly the world. Oh yes...she's that much of a big deal, and when you read her blog...you'll understand! If you feel so inclined, say a prayer for her. The Bible says "where two or three are gathered in His name, there He is in the midst of them." He's needed...to show up in a mighty way!

I ask that you pray specifically for: peace, her doctors, comfort, strength, healing, and whatever else the spirit leads you to pray. While the situation looks grim right now, we know whom we serve, and God is able...without a doubt we know that!

Have a great night friends, and I hope you'll join me in prayer!

~J

Monday Ramblings...

Have you ever felt like this? I'm pretty sure I've mentioned this before, but I am the "Queen of Overthinking." But today, I'm putting my foot down to doubt, second guessing myself, and my personal area in which I hold a Ph.D....motives dissection!

I've read my normal amount of blogs this morning, and my peeps are experiencing some tough times...and having some really bad days....even my kids are off the chain today...GEESH, can a girl catch a break!?!

On a happier note...this weekend I purchased my tickets for the Jill Scott and Maxwell concert! Oh my! I can't wait. This will be my third time hearing Jill in concert....I'm super excited! Oh, and Maxwell is easy on the eyes..so that alone makes my heart sing!

I wanted to take a pic of my really cute outfit today...I'm not normally like that, but I think it's cute. It's a H&M dress that I got for a whopping $12.95. My Gap cardigan is more than the dress! HA! I think I have it accessorized pretty cute too...here's one of my fun rings I got from Charming Charlie's. Does your town have one?? If not, you're missing out sisters!

Isn't it cute?! I thought so! Well, I hope this Monday makes a turnaround for you peeps....I'm on the downward slope to my day, so it's all good over here!

Catch you later gators!

~J

May 27/28, 2010

Today I woke up thankful! When I look back to this time last year....I've come such a long way! I was miserable by the way...so uncharateristically unlike me! But today, I've got joy in my heart, and pep in my step...cornball...I know!

This has been a pretty low key weekend! Friday I literally ran out of the school building as the final bell sounded. Just as I was getting in the car to head home, Malitta called...asking if I had any plans with the boy, and if not, let's have a girls night! Well...no plans with said boy, so girls night it was!

I had just enough time to take a nap, and had just fallen into a REM cycle when my phone rang...it was Malitta, super excited because she had just seen the SATC II movie trailer!

Mal: "J, guess what, I just saw the SATC II movie trailer, and guess who Carrie sees while on vacation, and starts having feelings for again?"

Me: -insert dramatic gasp- said in unison, "AIDAN!"

You see friends...Malitta and I spent the better part of 4 months watching SATC from start to finish...Aidan was my fave...sorry Big, but I've never been a fan of fickle men...10 years...umm, don't think so! So, I can't wait to see how/what/when/where/why...oh the wait is killing me!

I love everything about SATC...the fashion, the friendships, the shopping, the eating....the stories because seriously, everyone has a friend like on of those ladies...it's total girl overload, and I love it!

In This Season...

Fear rules my life alot! From the big decisions, right down to the little ones. Lately, I've been placed in certain situations that have shown me just how run by fear I really am. I keep asking myself how I got to this place, someone so confident, has a relationship with the Lord...yet FEARS and DOUBTS everything! I'm guilty of not trying things if I'm not 100% confident that I will succeed at them. But then that's like a double sin because I'm making myself my source of strength, and not God, on top of the fear and doubt....UGH!

It is so exhausting....sometimes, I think of a million different ways something can play out. We've all been there before...what if this and what if that...but the sad thing is I know who holds my tomorrow, so I should never have to fear and doubt.

I googled images of FEAR, and I couldn't resist putting this up...it's HILARIOUS to me! I actually laughed out loud!!! Poor doggie!

Scriptures on Fear:

2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.
Psalm 27:1 The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?
Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.
Genesis 26:24 I am the God of your father Abraham; do not fear, for I am with you.

...and my personal fave:

Mark 4:40 But He said to them, "Why are you so fearful? How is it that you have no faith?

It feels so good to go to the Word when I'm needing direction. I've said it many times before, but I seriously don't know what I would do without my relationship with Christ. So, if you're the praying type...mention my name will you?! I'd really appreciate it!

April Pollen?

Happy April! I can't believe that I haven't posted in the last few days! We have been having some beautiful days here in Houston! I mean absolutely gorgeous. The only downfall is the yellow cloud that has seemed to settled among us...better known as POLLEN! YUCK!

This is just about how bad the pollen is!!! I'm getting car washes every week, but I could probably use them wice a week! It's just that bad!

Oh, and the Alicia Keys' concert was AMAZING!!! I sang my little heart out! I had such a great time!

So..how are you guys? I hope this week is a great one...I'll be back later to post more...

~Nite!

Broken Trust

I know-- a double post, literally within hours of each other! I can explain! I'm being tested...in the very area that I just blogged about...LOVE! Didn't know God was an ironic fella did you?!

Truthfully-- my first response was to 'set them straight.' I mean, how could you say that I said something, when I honestly didn't say it?! How could you tell a lie on me? Y'all...I loathe this type of behavior...especially in adults! It so reminds me of my high school and college days...and it makes me sad. Sad for a few reasons....one, being that I so need to work on my love. You know, the love I just spoke about. Because my initial reaction was not one born of love. I was hot, fired up...ready to blow... but... I caught myself...and called my voice of reason...the friend who helps me when this hot temper gets a little out of control.

My state of mind now....I'm still warm, and hurt...because my trust with this person is broken, and sadly...I am not as far as I thought I was...on this journey to show God's love, his redemptive, forgiving love....but in the midst of it all, I heard Him speak to me...questioning why it was OK for Him to be lied about, and not me?! OUCH!

So to sum it all up...I don't know how to correct/approach this. I don't know what I should do. All I know is that my prayer this morning was for Him to teach me to love people beyond what I am capable...and He's going to make sure He does!

Loving Well

I have an obsession with painting my nails....and I've become REALLY good at it! Of course I still get my bi-weekly manicures, but weekly, I relish in changing my nail polish. I'm always on the hunt for the perfect color...and now that it's Spring....it's ON!

Today's color of choice, a throwback...cotton candy! But who knows what's in store for tomorrow. I'm thinking hot pink...or maybe Aphrodite's Pink Nightie...yes, that's a color thanks to OPI!

I started a new quiet time devotional today: Beth Moore's Loving Well. The first day, and I'm already underlining, growing, and really wanting to learn to love God's way. One of the questions from today: 'What marked change or transformation has come about in the way I love?' Geesh....not enough lines. Maybe because I am such a sinner, yet a perfect God loves me inspite of my flaws. Or the fact that 'love bears all things,' and here lately, I have come face-to-face with what that really means. Or how about the fact that God measures maturity by how we love. I could go on and on!

One of the snippets I underlined at the end of today's prayer: 'Teach me to love others well by giving of myself-- even beyond what I am capable.' Talk about from my heart to God's ears.

It can be exhausting to love, and sometimes, that love can be unreturned. But who am I to think that if the God of the universe can be unloved despite His endless love for His children, that I won't experience some of that? I am not always at the top of my game. I'd even venture to say that most days I fail, in a major way. But, the desire is still the same. To love as God loves....and with a goal like that, I'm bound to get better eventually!

I don't know what to do...

Hello Friends!
I'm here today with a decision to make. First of all...let me say this...it's nothing life threatening... and I'm looking more specifically for your prayers than advice....does that sound good?!

Because of my school schedule and work responsibilities...I really need guidance on what my role in the Youth ministry at my church is going to look like. The desire to serve and lead is still there...the desire to work on curriculum is still there...but I'm running into the problem of not being able to 'be all things to everyone.'

If you know me in real life, then you know that I hate not being able to do something...to give up responsibilities....to admit that I really can't 'do it all.' However....I am at this point.

Allow me to back up.

Back in the Fall, I began praying for a few things in particular. Specifically how God would use my time/talents, etc in this season of singleness. I started feeling like I spent too much time wondering 'when,' and not operating in a 'now' spirit. I think I actually believed that if I just waited out my days...God would alter His plans and send him sooner....um, yeah...not so much! Thanks to a lady who poured into my life so much at Baylor...I received a little deliverance!

Right around that time...a position for Assistant Cheer Coach became open at my school. (I know I don't really mention the cheerleaders a lot...however, my blog is essentially open for anyone in the world to read, and I have to keep their security and privacy my #1 concern), however...my reluctance to mention them is no indication of the affection I have for these girls. Simply stated...they ROCK!

I digress. I immediately wanted to take this job if given the oportunity, but at that time I already feared that I was over committed. My prayer became that God would have His way...that He would either open or close the door, and that I would be good with that.

Obviously, He opened the door, and I haven't looked back since. My goal from the beginning would be that those girls would see God in me...that I could be someone they could look up to...(in a non-prideful way). I can only hope.pray.cross my fingers that I am being a good role model...sometimes I truly feel like I've missed the mark with these kids...you know, when you have all the patience in the world until they actually force you to use it! Can I get an AMEN parents?

Because of the responsibilities I have with the Cheerleaders, I became less and less available for the youth ministry. However, my heart always remained torn, because I really wanted to do both...technically...I couldn't because I have yet to figure out how to cut myself in half without making a mess.

So much guilt surrounded this time in my life. The relationships I left in suspense with the youth...was I being effective in any area of my life?! Just a mess!

So here's where I need prayer. My responsibilities aren't getting any smaller. I'm wrapping up the process to become a school administrator, and with that...comes major time restraints and long days. But what do I do? Do I continue to sit where I am, which is not really involved with the youth ministry on a day to day basis, or do I dive back in?

I realized a couple of months ago that I'm guilty of over working myself so that I don't feel the sting of not being where I want to be. That's not healthy...godly...or good! I want to be intentional in everything that I do. More importantly, I want to be in the will of God.

I don't take the fact that I can come here and ask you for prayer lightly. I know that not everyone girl is as lucky as I, and for that, I'm truly thankful! However, I so want to make the best choice...God's choice. I'm not giving up the Cheerleaders...I truly feel that God has a plan there, and I can't begin to telly ou what I've gotten out of it already...such an amazing friend in the Head Coach. I digress...AGAIN!

Anywho...it saddens me to think that I may think the youth at my church are dispensible. They are not, but I simply cannot do everything, and if God can work it out so that I can do it all, then I'm all ears. Prayers. PLEASE!

Thanks friends!

Lions.and.Tigers.and BEARS...OH MY!!!!

Did you hear the news???!!! Yes my friends...the Baylor Women have advanced to the Final Four....my shoulder is dislocated (not really), my voice is hoarse, and my team WON!!! I am beside myself with happiness!

My Dad was at the farm tonight...no cable there, and we shared the last few moments of the game over the phone...it was incredible! I am so danggone proud of these girls...mostly freshmen! What an awesome team we will have next year! And that GRINER...geesh...she has to be at least 6'4''!!! Her feet are HUGE!!!! No shot gets past her...what a great game!

I am looking for tickets now to the game in San Antonio on Sunday...I have to be there!

I was going to post pics of my finds from Virginia, but that will have to wait until tomorrow....this post belongs to the BEARS!!!

It's going to take a whole lot of belief to beat UConn! They are an AWESOME team!!! BUT...I BELIEVE in my BEARS!!! What a great day to be a BAYLOR BEAR!!!!

I'm Back!

I didn't anticipate not blogging while I was out of town, but that's the way it happened! Does it count that I missed getting on here, and that I have a little notepad filled with thoughts that I had to potentially blog about?

Blogging has become my release, and you can imagine that I was in my head a bit while flying to Virginia....random question, but can someone...Julie...explain to me how VA is considered the South? Hey, I'm not arguing the fact...their sweet tea is amazing, and we all know that sweet tea is the official drink of the South!

My favorite part of the trip was while shopping...the clerk tilting her head and saying, "you're not from around here are you?" I guess my southern accent was a little too obvious.... although...I don't think I'm 'country' at all! HA!

I got a few goodies of course...mainly from H&M! I'll do a post later to show you, but for now, you're stuck with me!

My Bears lost to Duke tonight...so sad...so so so sad, but I am SO proud of them! If you don't know our history as a Baylor family with the Men's BB program, then you can't understand how proud we are of our Bears! We have come a LONG way, and at this time last year, making it to the Elite Eight was a loooong shot!!! So...with all of that said, I'm a proud BAYLOR BEAR! The girls are still in the Championship...they play tomorrow against Duke. I am confident they'll get the job done...Lord let it be!


I could write for another hour or so, but I've got to get ready for work tomorrow. It's a short week for me...

Ramblings and Such on a Wednesday Morning!

I need a vacation! I know that I am just coming off from a week long Spring Break, but I have some things on my to-do list that need my immediate attention, and I honestly don't know when I'll have to cross them off! It's nothing major, just things that I know need to be done!

Today is kind of a big day for me. I mentioned this vaguely a couple of weeks ago, and while I know I haven't taken the time to blog about it....know that I will. I guess I don't feel the release yet to post it on my blog....but I do covet your prayers...trust that God knows what I need, and He will provide. Thanks bf's (blog friends)!

Tomorrow I am flying to Virginia to visit my Momma! I am so excited!!! Of course to see her, but she told me that there's an HM!!! Be still my little 'ole heart! I LOVE LOVE LOVE HM!!!! I don't know what to do with myself...besides seriously to STOP SHOPPING!!!

Maybe while I am visiting her, I can get some work done. We are both in school for our Master's, so I know I will have some downtime!

Have a great hump day peeps!! The weekend is almost here!

My very first...

BLOG AWARD

I can't believe it! I've won my very first blog award given to me by the lovely Miss Julie! Do you like it? Isn't it GREAT!


Of all the awards I can win, I'm so glad this was my first one! What an honor to be considered a beautiful blog! Thank you Julie! I can't wait for you to get your gifts!

As part of my reward, I get to pass this award on to other bloggers who I believe have Beautiful Blogs:
Becca at The Ross'
Jessica at Marriage and Motherhood
Lyndsie at A Love Worth Waiting For
Amy Beth at Ministry So Fabulous

Today was a great day back, but when my alarm went off, I wanted to crawl back under the covers. UGH! BUT, on a good note, 9 more Mondays until the end of the year! That has to count for something huh?

Because the week before school ended all afterschool cheer practices, I got a chance to run a couple of errands afterschool. You know, an oil change, car wash, and of course...a stop at Target for some essentials! I even had a chance to affix a 'Baylor Alumni' sticker to my car...I'll snap a pic for ya! I'm pretty proud of it!

Oh, and tonight, I tried a new recipe...Tomatillo Soup! I had some tomatillos from my trip to the Farmer's Market, and it came out SO GOOD!! It was so easy to make!

Now, I'm folding laundry, picking up around the house, and just about to do a little homework! Life is good people...life is good, and I am really SO SO blessed!

Goodnight!

All Good Things Must Come to an End...

Well! It was a GLORIOUS week off, and they say that all good things come to an end! Spring Break...I'll miss you so!

On a happier note, BAYLOR MEN'S BASKETBALL is headed to the Sweet 16...to be played in Houston, TX no less! We've definitely had some rocky days with the Men's BB program, but I am so happy that we've taken a turn towards higher heights! I couldn't be happier to be a Baylor Bear!

While in Waco, I bought a couple of Baylor t-shirts because I'm thinking I'll support my team ALL week! HA! Hey..I did it when the girls won, and I'm a firm believer in, if it ain't broke, don't fix it!

And, since we're on the topic of basketball...is this the year of the underdog OR WHAT? Did anyone else see that upset by Northern Iowa yesterday? Poor Kansas...I felt so bad for the fella that was crying...UGH!

But, these guys! These guys kicked butt yesterday! Look at them:


And our coach ain't too shabby either! He has the heart and the knowledge to lead our boys to the Big Dance! Friday can't get here soon enough!

I'm very excited to see what this conference brings! Anticipating this win makes this week seem not so bad!

This SERIOUSLY Makes Me Cringe...

Double post...scroll down for my recap of my visit to Waco!

In this post I documented my little weight loss journey, and I promised you all pics! Well, I want to be a woman of my word, but oh my! I honestly didn't realize how huge I was until this very moment.

You know they say that when you lose a lot of weight you still kind of have the same thought patterns of your former size. I would have to say that to a certain extent, that's true. It's still hard for me to go my 'now' size...I always want to pick the 'old' size...but after looking at these pics...how dare I EVER ate those mini brownies! MAJOR GUILT HERE!

I know that every single one of these pics came from my FB account, but it's just something about putting them on my blog for any and everyone to see. However, if anyone reading this is in my shoes, I want to show my journey so that maybe I can offer you some hope! So, without further delay...here goes nothing!

THEN

NOW

Today's Stats: about 40 lbs., and 4 sizes!

Going Back...

WOW! It's Friday night, and while that thought doesn't make me sad, the fact that my Spring Break is basically over brings about a little sigh!

To say that I have enjoyed myself these past 7 days would be the ultimate understatement! I've relaxed, shopped, slept, shopped, drank so much sweet tea I'm sure my bladder will never be the same, and reconnected with some really sweet people from my journey!

As my last post stated, I took a little day trip to Waco on Thursday! Y'all know that I graduated from Baylor...sic 'em, (beat Old Dominion), and lived there for 10 years. I lovingly say that I was raised in Copperas Cove, but I grew up in Waco. What a true statement.

I have SO many memories from Waco. Some good, some bad, but all of them have made me who I am today! So, when I arrived, my first stop was to University High School! This is the home of my very first teaching job ever! Most of my buddies still work there, and it was SO good to see them! I clearly remember standing outside that first morning, pulling duty, and talking with Kelsey and Andrew...wondering seriously, what had we signed up to do! We were all brand new teaching babies, and were pretty much scared to death! BUT, today...we pretty much ROCK! I walked into my principal's office, and declared.."I'm here to get a job..." his reply, "I'll write you a contract on a paper towel..." He said he'd take me back any day! Such a great man to work for!

The above pic was taken the day before my first day of school right outside of my very first classroom. My beautiful friends and sorority sisters came to help me decorate my room because your girl was panicking in a MAJOR way! They were so shocked that I didn't have it all together, but I was a nervous wreck, but they stepped in and helped me get the job done. My room was SUPER cute by the way! Love them!

I only planned on staying at UHS for about an hour, but of course...I stayed 2 1/2! It was worth it though! After I left there, I headed to JH Hines! Now, before I became a teacher, I worked for a non-profit organization for 5 years. I.Loved.This. Job! I ran my own after-school site. I was responsible for about 90 children, and 10 staff! We had so much fun! The staff and I were all Baylor peeps, and we really loved each other. We would go out for dinner, hang out at each other's houses...it was an awesome place to work!

The teachers at Hines taught me SO MUCH! They are all seasoned teachers, and have been in the field 20+ years. I look up to them even today as I teach my own students. These ladies are from the old school, but totally kick butt with the technology! Needless to say, I love them! They oooh'd and aaah'd over me for a couple of hours! I ate it up! Of course, they all grabbed my left hand looking for "good news!" HA! I told them to keep praying...he was coming! My heart was so full after leaving these great people! I'm so glad they had their Spring Break last week so that I could visit with them all this week!

I loved my visit in Waco! It was so worth the time! I realized that I've made some really great friendships in that little city, and it was nice to reconnect!